YO. im home from tuition.
was fun.
used my tuition tchers laptop.
watched anime on it. and saw many relient k videos.
i love relient k.
:))


after that went to hdb hub to meet my mum.
was supposed to have TEA while waitin for her.
ended up walkin arnd with shaun since he was looking out for cards or comics or games or vcds.


bought him two taquillas from 7-11.
bought myself two soft squids frm OLD CHANGE KEE.
rocks. ALOT.


met my mum. walked arnd in search for singtel hicard shops.
failed though. saw loads and loads of m1 and starhub shops..
but my mum trusts singtel.
so we just let her be.


getting a singtel card tmr. hopefully.
im supposed to have two phones..
oen donated by my TUITION TCHER.
*he rocks. :))
and either my mum's old phone or shaun's old phone.
honestly- i dont mind as long as i can call and sms.
:D


shaun complained about the mass session he went for with eugene.
said he nearly fainted and stuff.
was so funny la.
and he said i should have brought him with me.
since he was so bored during his outing.
but he still doesnt know who i went out with..
:))


my mum is now really really nice.
im not used to HER.
its just so unnatural.
AHHH. but tis a good thing. i hope.


listening to the veronicas and click five and relient k and some jap songs now. :))
RELIENT K ROCKS.

i have a stupid smile on my face.

and it wont go off just yet.

its irritating cause i look so SPASTIC.

okay. havent been able to go online and BLOG.

sry. lets go in order shall we?

its going to be VERY long and crappy.

cant help it. :))

THURSDAY.

went to punggol beach late..

cause i was on the phone.

and i was supposed to meet td there..

but somehow.

he got on the bus i was on with my BROTHER, EUGENE and WEIQIANG.

and i was sitting at the back and not believing my bad luck.

so i was waiting to see how long they took to notice me..

and then weiqiang saw me.

SPOILER.

okay so shaun called me to the front to sit with them.

and we ended up at PUNGGOL BEACH.

it was shauns first time there.. so he was so helplessly BLUR and asking weird questions.

and i was informed that NICK would be coming with his GUITAR.

his GUITAR.

td told me that they just followed him.

and hoped that i didnt mind.

so they were whacking each other with branches and running around.

and throwing stones into the sea..

td's stone 'jumped' the most i guess.

at least twice.

his max was four times. PRO la.

eugene's just landed straight into the water.

and shaun was even worse.

saw loads and loads of dead fishes and crabs.

really made me sick.

was trying to chase the flies off the fish..

but they kept flying back and i couldnt do anything about it.

ahh. O_O

nick appeared with his guitar.

they played PIECES-SUM 41.

and weiqiang and shaun and eugene SANG.

me and td were talking about how screwed up the band was.

since it was way out of tune.

and they kept starting too late/early.

it was HILARIOUS.

and they took turns to hold the guitar and play.

i was TEMPTED. but i somehow didnt.

then they took weird gay-ish photos.

and sang many other songs.

it was really cute. really.

but i wasnt in the MOOD.

so i walked off to the jetty.

and td followed. O_O

so we stayed until like seven plus..

and then he went to go and get the rest of them..

and then we went home.

shaun was wondering where i went to..

bcus they were doin the PRETTY WOMAN dance.

and they recorded a song they sang.

i cant believe i missed it.

getting shaun to teach me.. but he says he wants to get the music first.

and people were staring at them. HAHA.

we bid them goodbye at the coffeeshop at td's place.

shaun bought a carton of mango juice and said he wanted to be healthy.

yeah right.

he also asked me to pick up bass guitar..

since their 'band' was lackin a bassist.

i mean- this is the BSB band.

BACKSTAGE BOYS.

wouldnt it be awkward if the girl was a bassist?

but im considering it though..

hes picking up electric guitar.

just think of all the money he has to spend.

went home to have dinner.

and mum came home PISSED at me.

or rather WORRIED.

she said i should have asked her for permission and blablabla.

the usual.

okay. so i just gladly sat there and listened to her SCOLDING.

and after that i asked for permission to leave the house EARLY.

she said earliest was nine something.

but in the end we agreed on eight.

wasnt able to call td and tell him though.

and i asked for permission to go out with shaun and co to watch TAKE THE LEAD.

but she was WAY against it.

in the end she bribed me with MONEY not to go.

okay- ACCEPTED.

but i was pissed all the same.

she was like: why do you want to go out with them? theyre all BOYS (please note). and theyre like seventeen and eighteen? theyre OLD, noelle. i dont want you to get hurt.

and i was like. WTFWTFWTF.

*and eugene is only FIFTEEN. only nick is OLD..

bcus weiqiang didnt go in the end.

i mean- WHAT THE F WAS SHE THINKING LA.

'get hurt'- it sounded so WRONG. totally.

but i didnt go. O_O

FRIDAY.

sry- bcus this is in DETAIL.

but of course im leavin SOME parts out.

so i apologise for the absolutely BORING and LONG post.

woke up EARLY.

left the house at eight- watched some anime before that.

reached td's house's bus stop at eight twenty.

waited until 845.

thought there were COMMUNICATION ERRORS.

so went to the OTHER bus stop at his house.

waited in between the both bus stops so that i could SEE both at the same time.

went to the playground.

went to the row of shops to look for a phone that uses coins.

FALIED.

went to the top level of his block.

looked down at the playground.

came back down.

sat at the playground.

was on the verge of leaving to look for him.

THEN

saw his MUM putting up shoes to dry at the sixth floor.

then i saw her put THE pair of shoes.

THE pair of his beloved ADIDAS DOUBLE WIDE with the weird gold whatever coloured stripes that he wore WHEREVER HE WENT.

other than slippers of course.

then i was like.

WTFWTF.. so hes still at home.

then he came out looking very flustered.

he had his specs on and his hair was in a mess.

it was a funny sight. damn funny.

i started laughing right in the middle of the playground.

and then he signalled for me to come up.

so i went up and entered and sat in his house.

gladly accepted the drink that his mum held out right in front of my face.

it was like NINE THIRTY FIVE when he finished doin whatever he was doing.

i felt damn DAMNED awkward.

then we left the house.

and then he told me that weiqiang said that i was unable to go out.

*weiqiang heard it from shaun.

so he woke up late.

and he actually wanted to sleep longer.

but he had a feeling that i might be waiting for him.

i was like: ..........

went to punggol beach.

i brought my camera nad snapped pointless pictures.

it was SHIOK bcus we were just there yst.

left at ten thirty when it started to drizzle.

headed to IKEA.

took the mrt.. and then ran for the 195 bus.

wasnt even sure if we were in the right direction.

ended up getting off one stop early and having to WALK.

he was so SLOW. even slower than EDMOND.

O_O

had lunch at BURGER KING.

wanted to eat at the ikea restaurant.

but we didnt..

we bought three meals for the two of us.

couldnt finish the coke.

threw it away. O_O

walked around the whole ikea.

he needed to buy a LAMP.

and i insisted lighting was downstairs.

and he insisted there was nothing downstairs.

O_O

i won. HAHA.

sat on chairs and stuff.

played with all the lamps..

in the end we settled on this metal lamp.

that costs twenty something including the two ligth bulbs.

i didnt want to leave without buying sth..

so i bought potpourri.

really lame of me. :))

the plants were UGLY.. they didnt have the african violet anymore.

the pictures were so nice but so expensive.

the MIRRORS.. so cheap.

i wanted to buy ALOT and go home.

but i was quite sure they would all break on the way.

went to PAY.. tripped over someones curtain rod.

OUCH.

sat outside for a while.

started to rain.

went to the mall opposite ikea.

walked arnd.

hopped on to this bus that went from tampines interchange to ikea.

and vice versa.

td tapped his ezlink card..

but we'rent supposed to pay..

PAI SEH. haha.

we slept on the way.

so tired. :))

OMG- shaun just let me listen to the song that they recorded.. pieces- sum 41.

the guitar is great.. the voices are weird.

got some parts they talked in the middle of the song.

and a few parts where they were alll different timing.

but you know what? IT ROCKS ALOT.

I LOVE IT. lol.

okay. so ended up at tampines mrt.

walked around.

saw some tkgs people..

they didnt see me though.

YAY. erm...

we were walking in the wrong directions and stuff.

was pretty funny.

went all the way up tampines mall..

and went all the way down.

showed him yamaha and CRESTAR.

but the studios and stuff were closed.

so he only saw the guitars hanging around.

then we were so bored.

took a 72 bus down to hougang mall.

the bus route was so REMOTE.

so ooloo.

and we sat on the seat right next to the stairs..

and i was sitting towards the aisle.

so i couldnt sleep.. bcus i was scared that somehow i would go tumbling down the stairs.

and td kept pushing me ON PURPOSE.

stupid idiot.

bought the XXL CRISPY CHICKEN from the taiwan street snacks stall.

the people there were so weird.

i heard them say something about CUTE.

and they were like (in chinese) bidding me farewell and asking me to take care.

O_O

went all the way up and down AGAIN.

then walked back to td's house.

saw his grandma on the way..

so he made me U-TURN.

cause he was scared of his grandma seeing us.

went to the bus stop via a different route.

wanted to wander off alone..

but td wouldnt let me.

IDIOT. kaypo. whatever. lol.

so he followed me to the bus stop and i couldnt hop o any bus.

it was so obvious that he was tired..

but he was being stubborn. O_O

it was like five oclock.

so we sat there for quite some time..

in the end he hopped on a 82 bus and i just followed.

he was goin to the beach.

...

banged my head against the pole when the bus braked.

ouch. then he laughed at me.

cause i must have looked retarded rubbing the back of my head.

i think theres a bump. ahh.

stupid pole.

got off the bus..

then he told me about THE BIRDSHIT INCIDENT.

he and nick and weiqiang went to the beach..

then a bird flew straight at them..

then he saw the shit.

then they all dodged..

he said nick was most likely to be HIT if he didnt move.

then the bird u-turned and flew away like it shitted on purpose.

ahh. so we went to the jetty.

and then we headed to the left side of the beach..

cause weve never been there.

and the rocks were beautiful.

really.

until i saw... birdshit.

white spots all over them.

and i then realised the countless amount of birds around.

and i walked with my hand on my head.

he laughed at me again..

then helped my cover my head. LOL.

then walked abit more and u-turned and went to the right side of the beach where we usually go.

sat on the ikea plastic bag.

my pants were already very dirty.

talked alot for a long while.

until like 6 thirty.

then we left.

cause of my curfew. sheesh.

told him about my mum not allowing me to go out with guys.

then it was pretty quiet the rest of the way.

should i really tell her?

reached home at seven plus.

my mum didnt say a thing. YAY.

i was so worried.

i asked for her old phone..

since she just changed her phone.

bcus her old phone cant call.

or receive calls.

but can sms.

so she said she actually wanted to go and buy a SIM card for me.

i couldnt believe what i was hearing.

i was stoning.

she said she didnt in the end bcus the numbers were all so hard to rmb.

she also said that she was goin somewhere else to get one.

my jaw was trying hard not to drop.

but i know shes doin all this bcus she doesnt want me to go fooling arnd and that she can keep track of what im doin.

but i dont mind. :))

so now i have a camera.

im supposed to get an mp3 from my dad.

and the phone SHOULD be on its way.

YU GUO TIAN QING. :))

my mum is scared of LOSING ME.

O_O

cause im still the daughter she worries about.

even though im the one who has to grow up faster

and thats why shes so nice to me now.

i HOPE its not temporary.

HOPE.

okay- im up to date now.

this is the PRESENT. :))

having tuition at ONE.

having ballet later.

ines is at the zoo with my auntie now.

supposed to go with them but im having tuition.

gonna eat my breakfast.

:))

just came home.
tired. very tired.
going to use the com for a while then go out..
since i have so much time to kill.

goin to punggol beach later.
thats the only thing that rocks.
:))

our school is setting up a gavel club.
so unoriginal. since many other schools already have it.
its to improve on our public speakin skills.
and make speechs. impromtu or not.
the first meeting is on next saturday.
and if it wasnt for my busy schedule i would probably go and join..
and im still considering.
OH WELL.

walking home today.
saw edmond getting off the bus.
so caught up with him.
in the end i reached my house earlier than he did.
O_O
he walks SLOWLY.

im still puzzled. why the hell am i tired when i hardly did anything yst?
i just danced a little bit. a VERY little bit.
and i ditn go for ballet bcus i was already tired.
hope ms kok understands.

ive lost all my stamina and strength since the time i got sick.
really sucks la.

was talking to gnatasha last night.
she talked a whole load of crap.
just to get me to talk more.
bcus she says lately ive been very quiet and shes not used to it at all.
well- im a depressed kid.
O_O

went to school today..
was talking to chia li.
suddenly i found myself talking about my parents.
i just blabbed and blabbed.
couldnt help it.
WTF IS WRONG WITH ME.
yeah. so compared curfews.

chiali didnt even have a curfew.
NO ONE had a computer off by whatever time rule.
NO ONE had to survive without getting money to go out with their friends.
NO ONE was allowed to go out only once a month.
*that rule is really ridiculous. REALLY.
NO ONE has to seek permission a few days ahead to go out and get APPROVAL.
NO ONE's parents worry about them when thwey go out with their AUNTIE.
NO ONE has to use their own $$ to buy a BOOK or NOVEL from a bookstore.
*trust me- i can continue listing.
but im really pissed just thinking about it again.
so im not goin to.

and we are all singaporean girls with singaporean parents.
and mine are CONTROL FREAKS while theirs are not.

in the end even RACHEL SEAH had to admit that i was pitiful.
she asked me to write out all the rules and show it to them.
which i have attempted and ended more miserable.
and compare all my rules to my brother's ones.
which i have just done mentally. O_O
and i feel miserable.

i dont think im goin to watch BURN THE FLOOR.
the tickets are fifty over dollars includign matinee and night shows and whatever.
while the student price from the SISTIC outlet itself is twenty something.
my heart aches just thinking of all the money.

i AM planning to go for the big walk though.. anyone interested?

and i MUST catch TAKE THE LEAD.
*which comes out today.
with who and when i still dont know.

one good thing. ITS A HOLIDAY TMR.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
yes it rocks.

i SHOULD be going out. :))

got my mums permission.. but she wants details.
i think shes gonna change her mind that i plan to leave early in the morning before seven.
AHH. PLEASE MUM- LET ME GO OUT THIS EARLY TOMORROW.
or ill end up with a black face the whole day.
PLEASE.

oh. and i think shes planning to confiscate my computer.
please la. i worked so hard during PSLE (YEAH RIGHT- i didnt study at all.. but i did get my 240 so its good la.) to get this computer.
and i love it. like LOVE.

and i just checked out the ikea website.
doesnt say a THING whether it opens on public holidays.
and im planning to go there tmr.
all it says is that it opens from 10am to 10 pm.
like i didnt know that anyway. O_O

just rmbed the speech that fatimah made durin english.
the weird michael jackson one.
but some parts of it were really meaningful.
that kids deserve the right to feel beautiful even though you had a face only your mother would love. the right to be loved without earning it.
the right to be listened to even though what you said wasnt a BIT interesting. and a whole load of other rights.

and knowing that we were made out of LOVE. before knowing whether we were black or white (or yellow, in my case). before knowing who our parents are and all.

and how people keep telling you to grow faster as if CHILDHOOD was a terrible disease or sth.

just realised what a deprived childhood i led. maybe i should start talking to michael jackson. O_O

and sherlyn's speech about the hello kitty craze.
SHERLYN SHOULD DRESS UP AS HELLO KITTY EVERYDAY.
honestly. shes so terribly cute.

i really hope fatimah will win the public speaking weird competition.
she cannot impersonate michael jackson that well though..
even with the hat and the red shirt.
but her speech is nice.
the IMPORTANCE of CHILDHOOD- wheeeee.

leaving ashley's blog on to hear the song over and over again.
EVERYTHING IM NOT- the veronicas.
:)) too lazy to go and play my own music.



gonna grab sth to eat and go out to sit by the jetty. :))
and meet a friend there and come home LATE.
muahahhahah. feelin REBELLIOUS. :D

just came back from school.

yes- i have been very moody the whole day.

was thinking of my mum AGAIN.
*shes so depressing.

did the board game project during recess.
we've got it almost done.
and for once ive done my part already.
this basically means that i havent eaten during recess.
and ive saved $$.
O_O
and i havent eaten anything until now.

which is a good thing-
bcus ive been overeating and growing fat lately.
and i dont have any appetite WHATSOEVER.
so i wont be able to eat even if i want to.

had hockey during pe today.
played out on the wet, muddy FIELD.
was kinda fun.
got my shoes V.DIRTY.
ahh. my poor shoes.

had maths after that.
honestly- im hating MATHS.
TOTALLY.

oh well-
so anyway.
mrs tan came up to me and asked if i had maths tuition.
cause she said i seemed like i couldnt be bothered at all.
and she thought maybe i didnt have to worry bcus i had tuition or sth.
so i told her NO.

then she said that my problem was my couldnt be botheredness.
and she said i was very smart.
*nearly choked over my own saliva.
just that i had the wrong attitude towards maths.

i have to agree with everything she said-
excluding the smart part of course.
bcus i havent done anything SMART lately.
be it EXAM SMART or PEOPLE SMART.
or even LIFE SMART.

in fact-
its proven that i am have become very stupid lately.

had a very weird dream.
its freaking me out-
ALOT.
and it includes me.
and im really afraid that it might happen some day.

im MOODY bcus of many reasons.
obviously.

and i havent talked about last night.
came home-
switched on the com for the literature poem thing.
i somehow couldnt find the file,
so i had to go online and search for it again.

and,
my dad AND mum suddenly appeared at started scolding me.
for using the com past seven.
they were shouting outside my room.
and it was very lame.

so they switched off the internet.
and i blew up.
O_O its abit over dramatic-
but thats me.

had a big arguement.
about me being so secretive.
leading them to think that i was CHATTING TO GUYS AGAIN.
which i WASNT.
but i was gonna bathe-
so i had the door locked and all.
so that probably made it suspicious.
and i didnt have the chance to even look at my poem.
how nice-

i think they want me to starve,
and fail my literature,
and become a nun,
and dont talk to anyone except them.
theyre certainly acting like it anyways.
what CONTROL FREAKS.

if only i had my phone.
AHH. then i wouldnt even need to go online.
wouldnt have to worry constantly of being heard on the phone.
wouldnt have to borrow phones for many reasons.

yeah yeah. so ended up i lost my appetite.
and stayed in the shower for over an hour.
DRAMATIC ME. :))
was planning to go punggol beach to sit at the jetty.
but it was raining and the whole area was sure to be wet.
so i didnt think it would help.

ITS BEEN MORE THAN TWO WEEKS SINCE I LAST WENT THERE.

im so in love with PUNGGOL BEACH-
even though thats where the chinese were stabbed everywhere to death (using the BAYONET), machine gunned, or thrown off boats, or raped during the SOOK CHING MASSACRE.
*ive done my research.
its so REMOTE. and quiet.
and EMPTY. :))
and WINDY.

bleahs.
having ballet later.
gonna sleep for a while then go.


i think im suffering from depression.
cause im having major mood swings and blewing up for no reason at random people.
and constantly losing my appetite.
im DANGEROUS;
:))

honestly-
i dont know what kind of people are reading my blog.

even the people i met playing games know my blog and ask me loads abt it.
why dont you all just TAG and make my life easier la.
O_O

oh wells.
had DANCE. no ballet.
:))

PS: I HATE MY MUM.
im declaring it to the whole wide world.
i dont give a damn what people say anymore.
SHES NOT BEING MATURE AND REASONABLE.
and trust me-
i have looked at it from her POV.
but she hasnt. i KNOW it.

she doesnt even let me do my homework on the com.
bcus she thinks im talking to a bunch of horny guys.
AHHHHHHH.
its HOMEWORK la.
and i WONT talk to horny guys anyway.
WHATS HER FRIGGIN PROBLEM...

shes making me out to be a PAI KIA, AH LIAN, DESPO and SERIOUS LIAR.

like i am anyways.
this shows how little she understands.
thats why i say- most parents' thinkings are LIMITED.

self-centred PEOPLE.
AHHH. im pissed.


i come home from a CRAPPY dance.
and i have to face HER.
spoiled my not that bad MOOD.

lost my appetite. not gna eat.

FOR DANCE TODAY-
had usual warm up blablabla.
then had to cheoreograph a dance within fifteen minutes and perform it.
we accomplished it-
but it was SUCKYYY.
we didnt do half of the steps.
and couldnt do anything but just watch the other part of group shake like hell.
and our hiphop was CRAP.
yes im never gonna do it again.
EVER.
*sry gnatasha*

had guitar today.
my neighbour, MR ALVIN ONG was the tcher.
HE ROCKS MY WORLD SO MUCH.
AHHH. i admire him.
^_^
okay so anyway.
he suddenly told me how much a resembled my mum when i asked him sth i wasnt sure of.
the way i looked, my VOICE.
and i told him ALOT of ppl said tht as well.

BUT IT JUST PISSES ME OFF-
bcus i dont like being compared to HER.

but then again-
hes not at fault for being such a caring man, tcher and neighbour.
and im sure hes christian. :))

AHH.
cant stand the IM ALWAYS RIGHT smirk on her face.
*i think i have tht look sometimes too..
but im gonna try and stop doin it.

oh yeah.
EDMOND HAS FOUND MY BLOG.
AHHH.
lost the kick of making him guess.
after a few weeks of pestering me for my blog,
he found it.
O_O
AND HE still OWES ME A WATCH.
and i need it esp since i cant stand wearing that fcking watch of my MUMS'.
and shes not getting me one even thoguh she knows i NEED it, not WANT it.


*my mum just asked about my ballet.
and ordered for me to return the extra pocket money i took to eat dinner out.
PLEASE LA-
what she gives me isnt even enough for my LUNCH everyday.
and shes still being like tht.
and i DONT overspend- i dont even buy drinks in sch.

i think she wants me to starve.
ive honestly started to believe that-
bcus thats the only reason i can think of for her actions.

yes- so starve i shall.
cant force myself to eat anyways.

cant help thinking about her and how simply disappointed i am.
IM turning FCKING FOUR-TEEN, not FOUR.

im goin to DAO her.
MUAHAHAHA. evil daughter.
:))
it gives me pelasure in simply blocking out such CRAP.
yes- im WEIRD.

got the guitar pick.
its uglily GRAY. and its THIN.
i would rather go get a nice orange one at yamaha for $1.60.
even though its much more expensive,
its better, thicker, stiffer.
not as flimsy and breakable as this.
and theres ORANGE.
:))

or get a normal one at pennisula plaza.
they probably have every colour under the sun.
^_^

just not this ugly gray weird patterned FLIMSY PICK.



and to my class people-
im not facing $$ problems,
i just dont like NOT having extra cash.
but then again-
i am VERY broke.
starving and PATHETIC.
:))

i just realised how insignificant i am.

its ridiculous that i actually thought that i was different from everyone else.

im just the same as everyone else-
just as deceiving, attention-wanting.
im not a big deal.
i was never SOMEONE.
i just realised that whatever had been was just a facade.
and whatever i wanted was just a fantasy.
i think everyone's got the wrong idea of me.
in fact- i dont think anyone knows the real me.

cause im just showing whatever i want people to see.

im just plain disappointed with myself.
im unable to make others happy.
and im unable to help in any way.
and i usually make things worse.

i hate how life is.
how everything is such a challenge.
how i have to struggle to survive.
how im forced to COPE when i simply cant.
how everyone expects so much of me.

and how i disappoint everyone.

im made up of blood and flesh, plus my mum's looks.
and my parents' temper.
and a whole load of deception and lies.

thats ME.

went to bedok reservoir in a white tee and blue jeans with a sparkling pink belt.

didnt regret it-
even though it was the second time i was watching the performance.
regretted telling mum about it though.
didnt want them to come.
next time im not gonna tell them.
they are such SPOILERS.

the stage equipment was lousy..
mikes were horrible.
not enough mikes in the first place.
but the actors made it all right.

SHAUN CANT DANCE.

yeah. thats FINAL.

after that was this performance by PLMGS guitar club.
mind you- i was from PLMGPS.
so i recognised some ppl who obviously didnt recognise me.
maybe i looked too old. O_O

okay. if it wasnt for my parents who came along..
i would have either waited for shaun or went arnd by myself to have a nice lunch.
ended up having BAN MIAN at parkway.
how totally BORING.

could have gone down to the singapore river and WALKED.

or to punggol beach.
or CLARKE QUAY.

did supermarket-ing.

*im regretting every single second spent with my parents.
and INES- who was being spoiled AGAIN.

came home. didnt even buy anything for myself.
walked past dorothy perkins and saw THE TUBE TOP still going for thirteen bucks.
took me a long time to STOP staring at it.
saw the CAP at topshop for thirty three bucks.
TEMPTATIONS. yes.

found that my current esprit wallet was worth 29.90.

i think my mum's cooking lamb stew for dinner.
eugh. im not a big fan of it. not at all.

could be walking arnd orchard now.
or reading a book at borders.
or having FUN.
or walking along the river.
or swinging my legs at the jetty.
or drawing stuff in the sand.
or window shopping.


ps: I HATE MY LIFE.

IM SO HAPPY.
and i will continue being happy for the rest of the day.
why?
bcus the first thing i read this morning was a very SWEET email.
really SWEET.
even though its just a bunch of words.
and it means alot to me even though im not gonna forward it out.

i know the whole EMAIL thing is WEIRD, but thats me.

yes and it has brightened me up so much tht i dont know what to blog about.

OKAY-
theres no ballet today.
so im headin over to BEDOK RESERVOIR.
weird place as well, but i cant help it.
TO SEE SHAUN PERFORM.
woohoo.
okay so he's just left in my parents car..
and he spent some time on doing his hair.
making sure that it didnt fall.
wlau.. dunno why he spike until liddat.
what a VAINPOT.


this big and noisy fly just flew right in front of me.
im freakin out.. stupid fly.

IM BORED OF THIS BLOGSKIN.
WAHHHH.
but so many ppl dont want me to change it..
so i SHANT. YET.

okay. LAST NIGHT.
erm. went to CLARKE QUAY.
i told my mum i could actually sneak past the bouncer.
she immediately freaked out and thought that i actualy went clubbing often.

LIKE I CAN- BCUS SHE WANTS ME HOME SO EARLY EVERYDAY.

erm. but i have..
with my auntie. ONCE.
just tht i didnt DRINK.
:))
yeah yeah. so walked past all the bars and stuff..

the road was surprisingly EMPTY though.

ended up having dinner at this itallian place.
on my MUM- bcus shes celebrating two things.
ONE: my dad's bday is just three days away.
TWO: we no longer owe the bank any money for our house.
which means whatever happens- the bank cannot reclaim our house.
and we will always have a roof over our heads.
:))

no big deal, yeah, but its an ACCOMPLISHMENT to them.
so i shall celebrate it with them.

HOHO. had erm.
LAGSANE. FETTUCINI with SEAFOOD.
LINGUINE with CLAMS.
this SUPER NICE PASTA ROLLS WITH BEEF INSIDE.
one plate of SMOKED SALMON.
this VERY NICE BREAD.
SPARKLING ALCHOHOLIC TASTINZG WATER.
and some more.
cant rmb all of it.
just concentrated on eating.
OH YEAH. and PIZZA.
:))

the total was A HUNDRED AND THREE DOLLARS EXCLUDING GST.
*my heart aches. she would rather spend so lavishly than give me a LITTLE bit more pocket money.


okay so after i finished eating..
i started to doodle on the paper covering the table.
( I DREW MY DEMENTED CHICKEN! )
since they would throw it away after we finished.

INES (the spoilt brat) saw me.
and snatched the pen and started copying my flower.

and my mum wrote: ines was HERE.
somehow ines got pissed and cancelled it out.

what a SPOILT BRAT.

so i wrote the same thing and made her more pissed.
she wanted to cancel it out so BAD.
i dont know why, bcus i also put my name down.

MAJOR PSYCHO LITTLE GIRL.

so shaun drew something and wrote stuff..
couldnt make it out from across the table.
then ines wanted the pen.
so my mum told her to wait..
and the when she got the pen a few seconds later she CRIED and THREW the pen ACROSS the table.

DRAMA QUEEN.

she CRIED leh. seriously SPOILED.
i mean the pen was with SHAUN.
so OBVIOUSLY she had to wait.

and i think its just bcus she wasnt used to being not the first priority.
and was told by my MUM to wait.

SHES SO PATHETIC.
she totally spoiled my mood.
and after that she began DAOING me.

oh hohoho. so obviously i DAOed her until she gave up and looked away.
MUAHAHAHAHAH.

she deserves it.
and she clung on to my mum all the way home.
i feel like yelling at her.
no, more like SCREAMING.

so im going to show her ATTITUDE.
all the way until she stops acting like the world revolves arnd her.
bcus i HATE ppl like that.
its just PATHETIC.


the BIG evil SISTER. :))
goin to read the remaining of my emails.
none of them is gonna cheer me up like the first one did though.
^_^