Spent today doing nothing significant.
Sourcing for new stuff isn't easy.
(I think I need to be a little more enterprising.)
And dropping the current's even harder.

I feel a twinge of regret. I should've left earlier and stopped messing around. And perhaps seriously consider. But i'll still be a minute too late if I were to stop now.
On the other hand, it's "never too late" to correct this, no?

I'm badly twisted.
The world feels like such a nauseating place.
I wish I started out differently. And then perhaps I would've had higher self-esteem, high enough to prevent me from falling so low.
Where's my pride when I need it?

Liberation. Come, let's go.

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Um okay, did this thanks to Abigail.
And she's right, most of the jobs are included in the long list of careers given by NIE.
Except that it's a little weird how everything doesn't add up to 100%, cause we all know that it's not possible that i'm a master of all trades. (:

Told mum about chemistry, and she flipped.
Yeah okay it seems a little hard to trust me when i'm not scoring terribly well for everything, but believe me when I say I'll achieve it all at the Os.
And nothing else should matter because i'm your daughter.

Mood's a little twisted now.

Someone's in love.
Not me, and not with me for that matter.
I just... should stop messing around since i'm not interested, and stop being such a sensitive busybody. Yeah, okay go have the time of your life and be happy(:
What, the hell.

I suppose i'll take the advice and apply for DSA.
Thank you Nat. (:
I need to squeeze some testimonials out of Mrs Thong and Ms Chiam, plus hopefully i'll ask Ms Kok for one.
And I definitely have to start training again, cause I don't like to lose. How the fish I am going to choreograph a good 1 minute item, we'll see soon.

I am that good a girl.
I deserve better.
Or so we think.
A million times: "I need to move on."
We all need to stop running from whatever.

My blouse is ripped to shreds. Urgh.

We know very clearly that we have very weird classmates.
Abigail and I just rereaffirmed it.

Gosh.
Some are just plain dead traumatising but okay. Shan't be meaner.

Today was pretty fun.
Got back chemistry and couldn't find any marks to get a pass.
Got back biology and i'm disappointed so don't ask.
I tend to have high, high self-expectations. Yeah.

Chem period was just a chatting session with Mrs Chan.
I'm the only person in my class who's eager for Prom. Super pathetic, come on.
But it's okay, we shall hold our own party(:
Someone wants to go to WWW very much, and someone else is eager for a Chalet. See how luh.

Managed to persuade Amanda and Abigail to go to the warehouse sale with me.
Saw Mr A at the bus stop in his Superman tee and middle-of-nowhere ear piercing. We unanimously pity him.
And expectedly, I was the only one who bought something. It's like three somethings(:
The aunty asked me if this shirt was for me, then said that there was an M size. Wow thanks, i've been insulted): Ahyo okay I know I put on weight lah.

Amanda's mum's phone ran out of batt so she didn't have to go home early. I find that super funny, don't ask why. Ended up at PL's KFC.
Drew lots for the legacy project. I got the main role in the skit. Wow.
Shit. And Abigail got the "ah bu" (mother) and Amanda got the princess. Hahaha we took all the big roles yeah? Daphne and Aisyah are gonna have it easy):

And why, oh whyy, do I have to turn into stone?!?!?
(Hahahaha anyone can guess the folk tale yet?)
We should do it in hokkien cause um, Mdm Goh can understand. Hahaha it'll be super vulgar and added with a Singapore twang(:
"Oye! Ah boy ah! Come back lah.."

It'll be fun(ny).

Today's a hungry day.

I'm proud of my EL compo(:
'Imagine a life without paper' got a 23/30, the highest mark for the question!
Yay, sense of accomplishment.

B3 for english which is pretty good, considering that I beat a few of the people who usually score at english.
C6 for SS which is expected since I did such a lousy job for SBQ.
Welllllll):

Rio Tinto training was actually fun(:
Although they just made us stay back to do the 2005 competition paper. Abigail, let's get distinction or something okay! Hahaha.
I like the paper, gosh.
And the physics questions are pretty okay. There was this super easy and stupid one:
The question said Al(3+) and SO4(2-). What is the formula of aluminium sulphate?
Obviously Al2(SO4)3!
It's like a total giveaway question. Hahahaha.

The balancing question was terrible though.
Shall show you the question another time(:

Tuition was like interrogation session due to Gloria Oh but it's okay(:
It's actually quite fun. Didn't know that guy was so.. scandalous?
Heart-shaped brownies? Hahahahahaha.

I've just gotten myself the Revlon Lipgloss. Uh yeah i'm so happy:D
The lush one? YES.
And some random person on the MRT squirted perfume on herself. Plus she was sitting next to me so the smell was SUPER strong. (Gucci LUSH, I think?)
And at the next stop (Tanah Merah), a group of Indians came in and surrounded us. Front, side, back. Talk about bad positions.
We need emergency masks.

And yes, i've got something new for y'all and it'll probably be up tomorrow(:
Tc everyone.

When she got up she said I'll see you in the morning
I didn't know my heart would break without a warning
But when you fall in love with madness
You're sure to go insane.

She loved walking through the rain
She loved the things we can't explain
She used to love to laugh for hours,
Loved to speak my name
She loved,
She loved.

I'm only holding on to dust to find a reason
I'm only marking time, the changing of the seasons
Maybe someday when I surrender,
I'll feel it all again.

She loved walking through the rain
She loved the things we can't explain
She used to love to laugh for hours,
Loved to speak my name
She loved,

And I must believe
There was something good in me, she loved.

Cause when you fall in love with madness,
You're sure to go insane.

Now I love walking through the rain
I love the things we can't explain
And now I love to laugh for hours,
I love to scream her name.
I loved,
She loved.

Before I forget what I want to blog about(:

Kept indoors by some Lightning Warning this morning, ended up at the Hall for a briefing which lasted for nearly one and a half hours.
It was on Phone scams and the like. Plus it was a freaking furnace there. Sweltering- seriously.

And so my mood was terrible after that. We had chinese after that and everyone was super noisy. Names need not be mentioned.
I think nowadays, chinese periods are a serious turn-off because of certain girls. Uh right, i'll just shut up lest I be mentioned a "bitch" once again for the rest of this year in Tkgs. I don't hate them actually, I despise their.. um, EQ. Very nerdy and guaikia but yeah.
(:

Played basketball for a change. Very, very very funny(:
Amanda dribbles the ball with two hands at a time and her legs like a crab's,
Daphne whacks the ball to bounce it, (and intercepts the ball when it's being checked)
Abigail can score three-pointers extremely tyco-ly well,
and Sarah has a secret violent streak that we never knew about, judging from the way she kept blocking amanda! Hahahahah(:
There were alot of "Oh yarh hor, we can dribble the ball!"s cause we were so used to netball. A change is good once in a while, no?

Thank god we didn't have Bio Mock SPA today(:
Mr Peh seems quite upset with our performance, and I know he's trying v hard with our group so I shall apologise before I get my results back.
Sorry Mr Peh, for not stepping out of my comfort zone):
And yes, I admit i'm weak.

And I failed Chemistry.
quite a marginal fail but a fail nontheless. I'm just thankful I didn't get an f9 or e8, although I'm pretty disappointed with myself.
I think mum's gonna murder me, and send me to some NUS proffessor in Chemistry for tuition.
I'm not an exam person yeah? I don't do well under exam conditions. Whereas normal performance is much better. Sorry mum firstly, and shame on myself for not studying hard enough.
But yes, still thankful.

"Hey." (:

Gosh, that moment still makes me smile.

I love Kitkat:D
Yeah, i'll never tire of it.

Went to Vj for the Economics symposium.
It's on Remaking Singapore and all of them chose the art/media industry topics.
I prefer last year's topic: Soccernomics.
Can still remember everything okay! The super funny Rj people:
"It's soccer!"
"It's economics!"
"It's.. SOCCERNOMICS!"
Haha omg so funny. And like one of them couldn't understand the English lecturer's questions and had to ask him to repeat like 5 times? "Um, sorry, can you rephrase?"

Okay sadly, ASCI didn't win): I was totally counting on them! Urgh.
Aisyah and I were looking out for the coolest senior but only Fann managed to catch a glimpse of her. I'm so eager to see her longg hair, although it'll be terribly weird.

Was telling everyone to look out for the cool circlemouth dancer guy whom I saw on saturday, and I was totally not expecting it.
BUT OMG YES:D I SAW HIM! like when we were taking a break form the super cold performance theatre.
Ohmygodddd I think he thinks that i'm some terrible stalker cause I was staring from the stairs.. and worse, I got everyone to go watch him dance just to prove my point that his mouth is so funny. His hiphop is SUPER AWESOME. YEAHHHHHHH.
Oh and he breakdances really well, like all the stunts and stuff:D
So cool. Was on the verge of going up to talk to him but Mdm Goh and Vj people were everywhere):
I feel so accomplished though! I WAS LESS THAN FIVEEE METERS AWAY FROM HIM.
:D
And in some instances, less than two! Ohmyohmyohmy:D:D:D
I was truly happy for that moment and the moments following the moment.
Everytime I go to Vj, I shall crane my neck to look for him(: If I go to Vj, he'll be the impetus and of course, the dance ensemble.
Shucks, I don't even know his name. He's just "circlemouth guy" to me.

The Guest Of Honour for the symposium has such a cool, professional look.
For once, here's a man who wears a suit that FITS him perfectly, (cept the pants) and he carries the look of a young millionaire. Haha his glasses add the perfect touch. Private banker? hoho.
Remind me to make my future husband a nice, fitted suit. Yeahh man.
And the Vj nerd was really good. Like he strolled in with his obnoxious mushroom hair, and his thin sided GOLD glasses. Gosh. But his question was really good and he seems pretty relaxed. Nerds, learn from the best! Hahaha, I want to be smart too.

I'm just randoming about people I don't know, great.

Amanda was laughing at Pete, the Thai guy who was rather gay and his voice kept breaking throughout his speech. Hahaha "I know i'm rude but I can't help it he's so funny!"
And she has really, really weird dreams(: Hilarious. If I had my dream dictionary still, i'll help you intepret kay. Her no 1 obsession: The Jonas Brothers.
:D

I think I somehow prefer blogging Emo posts. But nothing emo to blog about(:

Oh yes, i'm going to learn from Nice people.
Instead of going "cya around" which is so heck care, I shall learn how to say "tc".
And if i'm not rushing, "take care"(: And mean it. Plus, i'll also learn how to say "it was the least I could do" instead of just.. "okay".
SAJC has nice people, CJC has high abortion rates (still??) and Rj's catching up in that aspect. Also, i'm not over whoever and it was G to the reat catching up with my senior(:
Learn how to stop being paranoid cause well, I don't mind anything(:

Need to 'guitar' more and do more crunches, pronto.

It's time to sweep away all the weirdest rumours about me and clear the gazillion cobwebs on my reputation with my broom.

I declare the following false:
Anything with Marissa Tang, (omg, you all so are imaginative.)
and with the netballer C. Cuixia,
(yeah, take that.)
And just FYI, my chest is real, and I certainly do not walk around sticking my chest out, tvym.
It's called good posture (obviously from ballet) compared to everyone else who slouches and drags their feet around, and of course sitting like a guy.

Okay, I seriously wonder HOWhowhow can anyone conjure up such awkward, uninteresting gossip. (let alone like a whole level.) And also, it's like really random? Have I actually talked to some people? Uh yeah, go think about that. Haha.
And I'll be really terrible if I can like 932848903574235 people in this short 4 months of this year. It's seriously amusing after a while.

Plus, I think some people are just 'wannabe cool', not 'cool'. No? (:

I'm still kinda shocked about the M.Tang one, which is really funny. Okay sorry.

My today was mainly about them rumours and stories. It's getting really boring- I find last year alot more interesting and lively. Haha yeah, totally. I mean, it's really typical and some are just WEIRD. Totally random and erm, there aren't any reasons for attraction, or even like common interests or something.
R A N D O M. i swear.

My favourite Topic has switched her blog, so ):
Ultimately, I think she's the only one who's seriously living it up and having fun. And she doesn't care what anyone else thinks and just continues openly with her unstraight ways.
Haha yes, I think, I think, we all know who now!
That's how boring it is now, uh yeah.

I ended up pangseh-ing Rachel to go out with De Clique, to IceCreamChef. Was on the verge of inviting Mrs Chan with us till she went off elsewhere.
It was so retarded cause when we got there, the place was flooded with people. Ended up at Parkway, and shared with Buddy thingy (5 scoops:D) from Scoopz with Abigail and Daphne.
I'm so, damned, hooked onto Rum and Raisin:D
We played Bridge for eons at KFC, and it wasn't too bad! Won many of the games with Aisyah. So I conclude that she's my lucky star for Bridge. And I swear, Nadiah totally loves seeking Abigail's, Sarah's and Aisyah's attention. Hahahah!
And Aisyah, I think somebody is vv cute!

Dirty linen was washed in public(:
And basketballers are well-informed people. (meaning Kaypo)

Also, caught up with Fann. Hopefully she'll get her chance at Leadership Camp even though she's the secretary(: She'll be super delighted. And seems like her class is getting.. scandalous. Hawhawhaw.
(plus rumours about her are duper weird too!)

Most Tkgs dancers seem to go through the Stage. It's a bad, bad sign.

I'm accompanying Ashley to TJC's carnival.
Mardi Gras! Eh must dress nicely cause we'll never be overdressed(:
Also gonna check Nick out:D Hahaha I seriously wonder what kind of store he's manning, gosh. Can't imagine him doing anything except.. well, soccer? Idk lah.
Anyone wants to join me? (:
-She says that there are only 3 hot guys in Tj and they're all seniors. That's really pathetic. Shall lower the eyecandy standard on that day. Eh wait, I think Nick's worthy of praise no?

Tomorrow i'll be patronising VJC's Performance Theatre!
Once again(: Was just there on saturday, obviously.
But this time, it's for an economics symposium! I'm SUPER enthu about it, but seems like only Abigail and I are. Well, lets be nerds tomorrow.
Yes, I totally need to buck up for econs. Urgh.
Mdm Goh's shoes were totally adorable today. She wore a nice, (seriously) black shirt with black pants, and her shoes were.. wow.
Red, blue and green.
I think even her purple shoes would go better. But nvm.

This week's schedule is totally messed up. I keep thinking today's tomorrow and that tomorrow there's the Rio Tinto training. And that we'll be checking scripts tomorrow. Oh great.
Terrible day with not-so-good mood.
Why is everything so slowwwww and so slack?

Hope we don't have the Mock SPA for Bio tomorrow. I'll roll over and die.
I feel my money depleting already. Gosh.

Don't waste your time on me- you're already a voice inside my head.

I miss you.

Urgh, withdrawal symptoms. Twisted words and piercing stares.
Then again, there are so many others.

The VS scandal isn't extremely interesting either.

Um, I feel accomplished(:

Last night was pretty much stupid. Lost a fake eyelash.
Left it on the table, and three seconds later when i turned back, one side was gone! Gosh, i'm so hopeless. Seriously, I was gaping in disbelief.
But it did me good, I guess? Ransacked my entire corner and drawer. Found this bottle of dried up gel and glitter and shrivelled macaroni alphabets. (looked rather sick btw)
Guess nothing lasts after all- and I should've known better earlier.
Well, i'll give him some credit for being artistic(:

Haha well, today's Legacy period was pretty interesting.
We did some career predictions and stuff, based on abilities and interests,
and here are a few of them.
Officer, Police (Senior)
Officer, Prison (Senior)
Bartender
Cabin Crew
yeah. that's.. the weirder few. hahah the highest paying job for me was Hotel Manager! (max of 15k per month.)
(:

I initially had a WHOOOOOLE lot of things to blog about, but i've since forgotten everything cause MUM JUST CAME BACK FROM DUBAI:D:D:D
and yes, she lugged home a truckload of clothes and stuff. So i'm a proud owner of more Zara:D hahaha and the branded stuff from warehouses there are SUPER CHEAP. if anyone's going, i give you my shopipng list okay(: hahahaha yes!
(and i've finally, FINALLY FINALLY got my Zara dance pants:D)
i'm so happy.

Okay shall leave the emo parts for next time!
Actually today was had no emo parts. Yeah, just some resolutions and stuff.
Oh and Hi Amanda, nothing happens overnight okay(:

Rushing off to earn 36 bucks.
C'yall:D

Ergh, I hate it when I end up argueing with Alisha.
It's seriously dumb.
And today it's because I asked for someone's email, wow.
Remind me to be extra careful and just shut up about anything she's sensitive to, tyvm. I'm now very annoyed with the world.

So there goes my super high post about how I made 36 dollars.
To whoever it is, SCROOYOO.
):

The week ahead is suddenly filled up; tomorrow i'm busy with a meetup and everything else, tuesday i'm going to Orchard with Rachel, thursday's the Rio Tinto training. Well, it's a clear sign that exams are over, thank heavens.
Spent the weekends mostly with Dad, and i'm happy that he's around. Which is only 1/3 of the time cause of, you guessed it, work.

If only there was class this morning, I would've delightedly skipped to PP and danced my arse off. I miss the feeling and yes, I miss Crestar and its people.
Martin's wedding is a huge question mark to me; how am I going to perform if I haven't danced for months? and what to do??
Yeah, we totally need to catch up.

My obsession with VJ has long worn off. I just like their dance ensemb, but somehow I got Dad into thinking that I wanna go there and he's like adding pressure. Just the thing I need right?
Yeah, my arse.

Nothing's worth argueing about.
Fuck it, i'm sorry alright.