okay i know this is gonna be really random,
but right now, i've got a few things i wanna do.

1. slap someone. cause i'm feeling real bitchy.
2. hug someone really tight.
3. cry on someone's shoulder.
4. find a thousand dollars.
5. spend it all.

i dont know why but i think i have alot of built-up anger.
yep.
maybe it's a lack of confidence,
or a natural fear due to experience.

screw all mean people.
i'm currently at a mental war against everyone who put me down and made me think that i wasn't good enough.
because i don't think i'm that pathetic.
and i mean, i treasured you all so much, gave'em the best i could offer,
and this is what i'm left with.
they didn't deserve it.

ten things i wanna do this year.
1. score well for O's.
2. grow my hair long.
3. banish my pimples forever.
4. start being a really comforting and kind person.
5. grow taller.
6. lose my tan/get an even one.
7. be more selfless.
8. love everyone.
9. go on a mad, crazy shopping spree.
10. you.

i'll write them down when i think of more.
there. the thing everyone's fussing over.
my new year resolutions. tada.

i think i'm slowly going crazy with all the tiny voices in my head.

three things i wanna announce:
1. i'm over him.
2. my addmath is seriously pathetic.
3. i love simple plan.
told you it was gonna be real random.
argh. it's one of the "i don't know what's wrong with me" days.
until the remedy then.


i know i'm angry and all,
but,
sheesh.
i can't help but like you.

woohoo,
i'm aching.
chicken nuggets.

yesterday was seriously crazy. haha.
so yes, the class party went on fine,
but the most memorable was probably shahiylia's old macdonald forfeit performance i made her do.
:D
haha. oh my.

then the big day,
sec one orientation(:
we did the "spiderweb" in the canteen, and it was damn difficult to get through. haha.
after i finished most of the things i had to do, i saw marissa and thus followed her around.
haha. she's such a funny girl:D
and i stuck with 1/7. the games were pretty okay,
except carrot and turnip.
wahlao, the sec ones are so strong la. i think i was lifted off the floor, and i got scratched alot.
haha! looks are deceiving mann.
i just sat there screaming and holding on for dear life.
marissa got thrashed too(:
violent game>_< haha.
"do you want revenge!?"
sec ones: "YESSSSS!" screams and screams and screams.
scary shit.

and the bucket game was quite fun too!
i love waterbombs and waterguns(: the sec ones hate them.

the tallie was so tall.
175 cm. sec one okay! oh my. that's like five cm taller than pam and marissa.
cool right:D my class okay!

i think 1/7's great:D we were one of the most bonded sec one classes!
haha.
dinner sucked though. plastic chicken.
haha. we got damn high after dinner. just blasted the radio and danced around. it was hilarious!
melissa's number one dance and deb's singapore workout dance.
HAHA:D
i love getting a natural high(:

and we actually lighted up the campfire!
despite the wet weather.
like, first time in three years.
that seriously brightened up all of us:D

our performance went well!
haha. pam was totally cool(:
"and i'm.. Link." *combs hair back.* so stylo!
oh my, i love the nicest kids in town part!
it's still stuck in my head.
twist twist, mashed potato, mambo.
:D

and for the record,
I THINK 1/7'S PERFORMANCE WAS FREAKING GOOD.
marissa and i were like screaming and cheering and all. throwing shoes and um, glowsticks?
haha. damn cool okay, got cartwheel and freeze!
screamsss.
and marissa kept going like: CHAMPION! CHAMPION!
*in the weird malayish accent*
haha. they didn't win anything in the end, but i know they totally enjoyed it.
we took our shoes off and prepared to throw them when 1/7 was announced, but i think we took them off for nothing. lol!
(:

made us stay back for a debrief till nine plus.
woohooooo. so that's why i'm aching today.
just finished all my homework. i'm quite surprised actually.
but i don't think i'm going out later still, sorry sam!
have fun with wileen and the trouble girl(:

i'm going to church tmrr though!
with my favourite boy and whoever else.
(: don't think we have anymore movies to catch though,
we practically watched everything.
body#19 and avp2.
body#19 still scares me. it's not really a horror show but it's eerie.
but i'm not a pussy(:


and mum borrows quite alot of clothes from me nowadays. haha!
maybe she's starting to feel old.
hmmmm. i think my clothes are just nice(:

i'd like to thank God for sending many many angels down to me.
for once, i've realised the pain it brings when my bestest friend is hurt.
and the joy it brings to relish in freedom with my favourite(:
the happiness of being loved. and loving.

aw man, my birthday's over.
school's tomorrow.
ohmygod.

yesterday was great(:
watched alien vs predator 2, which was pretty fun.
although i admit i was scared and grossed out partially!
we managed to smuggle me in! :D
haha. and bought myself yet another topshop shirt.
guilty pleasures?

i wanna go out and have fun for the last time today.
don't know whether mum'll allow though.
"noelle leow, you have yet to pack your bag and blablablablablablabla."
the usual day-before-school-starts rush.

i'm kinda scared for school cause erm,
firstly my holiday homework's more or less in the state that i received them.
which means i haven't touched the econs essays, nor completed a&e math tyses.
and nextly i really don't like the idea of weekly CAs,
nor the O levels in general.
and it's quite depressing to start the year off like this.
cause i really don't like mean people.

ouch.

nontheless,
i'll move on soon.
cause i'm clearly not destined to spend my life around a guy.
=_=
i'm not that pathetic alright!
i'd rather be an old bachelorette if it weren't for the fact that i have an undeniable love for kids.
(:

get mighty scores, a good job, settle down, make money, make kids.

mum must've felt really good yesterday,
she ended up giving me SPENDING MONEY,
a term previously unknown in all my fifteen years.
speaking of money,
i feel so terribly rich now that i could buy a whole shop!
:D haha. i'm rather tempted to take this day out shopping, and buy everything i've been eyeing.
but all of a sudden, i seem to forget what i want.
(:

i pray hard that my birthday wish comes true soon.
cause i think i'm rather imptatient(:

if life won't wait,

i guess it's up to me.