getting bored of this blogskin..
changing it after i finish this post.

went for the gavel club demo meeting today..
was MEMORABLE. :))
met ellaisha at the gate..
went with ellaisha, kelly and chloe.
and nuzul.
theres this QUITE cute guy called nathaniel..
and hes like nineteen..
so i think half of the girls lost their heads and went crazy over him.
but im not saying that i didnt scream my head off either..
:))
his speech was CUTE.
and he made loads of hand gestures and stuff.
and some parts of it were TOUCHING.
everyone was like AWWW-ing together..
and everyone shut up completely at some parts.

and there was this weird speech made by soem guy called pradeep something..
about his wife.
and one incident when he washed himslf in DYNAMO unknowingly.
hes a GREAT STORYTELLER.
damned funny.

and then there were TABLE TOPICS.
where random topics were given and people of the audience had to come up and make impromptu speeches..
everyone was like SABO-ING one another.
mdm lenny, miss izrina, mrs chia and a parent was called up.
and many girls were as well..
fatimah was supposed to go up..
but somehow she didnt. was disappointed.
O_O

YES- i want to join.
bcus its FUN. and my mum doesnt have ANY OBJECTIONS.
for once.*

erm. brought my pick collection with me..
im gonna bring it EVERYWHERE i go.
:))
i originally had NINE..
but i gave my lucky red pick (i just made it up) to SHAUN, cause i want him to succeed in his mastery of his electric guitar or whatever.
O_O

tuition is cancelled..
since shaun has to go back to school..
and im not going for the big walk thing with the crestar people..
so im not going for ballet tonight since they're doing the big walk dance.
i am going out for dinner.. alone or not.


so im gonna slack the whole day, eat, sleep, laze and grow fat.

hey ruth.
the dance IS that BAD.

erm. just came home.
extremely PISSED.
bcus of this cheekopek on the bus..
i found him sitting next to me when i woke up from my nap.

he kept moving closer and closer to me..
and i was like *help, HELP* and being squashed against the window.
i could feel his stare on me.
it was just GROSS.
and i was panicking and freaking out.
wanted to scream..
but was in sch UNIFORM.
and i was sure like half the bus could see it..
but no one helped me.
SELFISH SINGAPOREANS.
i was frantically sending out signals to everyone who was looking..
but immediately they looked away.
AHH.
and i think he could like SEE my bra strap.
THANK GOD I WAs WEARING MY PE SHIRT.
and not some v-neck shirt.
i could feel his extremely hairy legs brush against mine.
*HELP*
i honestly wanted to slap him.
was on the verge of doing so.
then the bus braked so suddenly and i flew against the chair in front.
WTF LA.

then when i got off he like touched my thigh.
nearly screamed.
ARGH. i hate cheekopeks and DESPOS.
but this isnt the fisrst time..
like last year-
there was this weird nose digging and simply GROSS sec school boy staring at me.
very OPENLY. and his eyes were about to pop out.
and faith and shermaine were with me.
i mean- faith is so much chio-er la.
go stare at her. LOL.
he is GROSS. and digging his nose WHILE staring.
and hes totally not cute or hot.
he kept turning back to stare at me.
i mean- its either im too ugly to be true.
or i simply lookd crazy with my hair down.
or i was the most beautiful person on earth.
*i hope its the third. EGOISTIC ME.

and last year when natasha and me walked to her house..
then there were these bedok whatever sec school boys playing street soccer..
without shirts.
and this guy was like: MISS! CAN I HAVE YOUR NUMBER?
like he shouted across the court.
and they started whistling and laughing.
then me and natasha looked at each other and walked faster.
then the same guy was like:
EH MISS! NEVER MIND, I GIVE YOU MY NUMBER!
and walked damn fast back to her house.

and ANOTHER incident last year..
when this bedok south guy asked for my number at the SCIENCE CENTRE.
of all places..
he got his two girl-friends to ask for him.
i managed to wiggle out ONCE..
then ran straight into them AGAIN and my email was forced out of me..
otherwise i wouldnt be able to leave.
hes this guy whos in LOVE with hip hop.
and can breakdance.. and acts ah beng.
AHHH. he sucks.
and the next day a whole lot of people asked me whether it was true and whether he was HOT.
UGH.

and i still have a couple of bus incidents which i shall not go into detail.

so now guys STARING at me isnt that big a deal.
used to the treatment. DESPO SINGAPORE GUYS.
quite typical though..

okay. so erm.. YESTERDAY.
yeah. went to the beach alone.
the dogs came to me and kept me company.
how sweet and sensitive.
saw a couple very openly kissing.
like out on the jetty..
and i was next to them.
and the jetty is the first thign you see once you walk to the beach.
how very OPEN. argh.
saw this cool guy catching a whole load of small baby crabs with his net.
it was quite high tide though..
and ANOTHER pervert incident happened.
so i was very PISSED.
i mean- i went there in search of some COMFORT..
but ended up with THIS.
ugh. i HATE PERVERTS.

it really sucks going alone.*

comforted myself with a crispy chicken from the taiwanese street snacks stall.
the guy doing the chicken smiled at me in a friendly way.
so i felt a little happier.
and he gave me more than usual.
*i think hes the gangster like guy whom shaun talks about..
the one who bangs around with the cans of pepper and chilli.
but hes nice leh.

reached home at about 8 plus.
skipped dinner.
went to bed very early..
like ten plus.

had hockey for pe today..
i got violent. was whacking the ball randomly and it hit people's legs.
sorry diyana, amirah and alia and whoever else i hit.
sorry.
was venting on the ball and the stick.
scored only a few goals..
the other group won la. no big deal though.
partnered fatimah..
who let the ball roll straight into the goalpost.
wow. go faitmah. O_O
yeah- but fatimah rocks.
and we have the same notebook. :))

wanted to use the bag that the school gave us yesterday..
the one which mdm seah designed tht said:
TKGS CARES FOR THE ENVIRONMENT.
felt like laughing my head off.
this was to appreciate our effort in recycling.
but the newspapers which were 'donated' were those that the CC brought in fear of being the class with the lowest newspaper collections.
WEIRD.
the bag is cute. really. makes me laugh everytime i see it.
ashley used it though..
and me and faith are using it on MONDAY.
O_O

went to parkway for lunch.
with ashley, faith, syafiqah and shermaine.
ashley was kinda depressed.
then we walked around window shopping..
and i told ashley ALOT of stuff.
like ALOT. alot that should be private..
but couldnt help it lahs.
then the three of them left..

and i didnt wna go back to school for dance.
since it wasnt stated OFFICIALLY.
and i felt that ashley needed some fun.

so i followed her back to her house.
much to her hesitance.
went to the two guitar shops.
bought myself a few picks.
i love the ones which say PICK THIS PICK.
CUTE. wanted to buy ashley some picks.
but she didnt want.. SAD.

went up to her house to use the toilet.
her brother locked himself up in the computer room..
since he heard me and he wasnt fully dressed..
O_O
ended up pigging myself with kit kat.
and trying on the clothes that she oculdnt fit into anymore.
and i was like GARANG GUNI GIRL.
took the pair of jeans and the tennis skirt that she didnt want.
and she donated alot of jewelry junk to me.
garang guni indeed.

sang a few songs with the radio.
took a tour of her house.
which is located conveniently at BRAS BASaR COMPLEX.
which is right next to the national library and BUGIS JUNCTION.
and its a ten minite walk to funan and pennisula plaza.
and you can see the esplanade and singapore river from her window.
ITS A GREAT LOCATION.
and she has ALOT OF MIRRORS in her house.
how i envy her. ahh.

left at four thirty in her fear of her dad.
when i was at the bus stop she smsed me to look up at her window.
....

feeling quite neutral now.
and i think i lifted ashley's spirits.
*claiming credit here.
YES- I LOVE HER AND BENITA LOADS.
as friends. :))
they rock.
and fatimah and denise and rachel seah and faith does too.

*im owing other people money cause ive been loaning money lately..
to my brother and fatimah. lol.
my brother has his money issues..

AND ITS INES' AND SHAUNS BIRTHDAY IN LESS THAN TWO WEEKS.
and i havent got them ANYTHING.
its not like they give me anything at all during my birthday..
btu i dont care. cause i love them.
like shaun doesnt even say happy birthday..
but ines kisses me like hell. haha.
i remember i wrote twenty bucks off his debt to me last year.
and i got ines a jigsaw puzzle.
nice big older sister. WHEE.
i dont know what to get for shaun..
i know he would rather $$ over anything anytime.
but i want him to keep my present or use it WISELY..
so im stuck. duno what to get.
ines isnt a problem though..
ines' bday is on FIRST MAY.
shaun's on SECOND MAY.
cool isnt it?
and im like the only december baby in the house.
sucks.

and speakign of ines..
was showing her picture to chiali, maryam, nadiah and nazurah during school.
they said that we look very alike..
which is true.
my mum, me and ines all look alike.
just that they say im prettier.
wtf la. i dont think so.
but my mum and auntie says that too.
i think theyre just flattering me.
bcus im highly unsatisfied with the way i look.
and im growing fat.
O_O

i know ashley's probably watching tv now.
im BORED. very BORED.

wanting to go out but having no one to go out with.
wanting to have fun but unable to find it..
wanting to be less stressed but everyone's adding more pressure.
wanting to be comforted but no ones there.

HOME.
from maths remedial.
ahh. my maths is hopeless-
YES IT IS.

sneaking in a quick blog update before going to punggol beach.
i absolutely advise eveyrone from going to DANSE FE'LINE SUR CORDES.
which is the DANCE CLUB AND STRING ENSEMBLE PERFORMANCE.
i STRONGLY advise.
bcus the outfits are outrageous.
and the storyline is CRAP.
*my outfit ESPECIALLY.
you do NOT want to see me in it. NOT EVER.

feeling weird and quiet today.
dont know why.

and EXTREMELY TIRED.
since sunday.
bcus we've been dancing from saturday till yesterday.
cant take it. AHHHH.
thursday is the ONLY day thats untouched by DANCE.
ONLY.

about the lizard..
there was this lizard yesterday in my classroom.
made a whole load of girls SCREAM bloody murder.
its quite YOUNG.. so its kinda stupid.
as in the lizard is stupid.
doesnt know when to be scared.
yeah. i think we angered the sec 4 tchers..
bcus i heard some tcher complained abotu the sudden screaming.
in the end some sec two girl picked it up with her bare hands and wlaked away.
HOW BRAVE- I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO DO THT.
like NEVER.
and i heard the lizard went up my CHAIR.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i feel like disinfecting my whole chair in DETTOL.

today was horrible.
had chinese letter writing.
and science formative test..
and it SUCKED. as in chinese.
cause i couldnt remember the format. at all.

and literauture yesterday was the horriblest.
from what i heard- many other groups gave us very low..
but they said my part was good..
bcus i sounded like i was really gonna cry.
*which i WAS.. bcus i had focused on something very sad which i hope will never ever happen.
i wont let it happen anyways..
and out of all the four groups who did the BALLAD OF BARBARA ALLEN-
ours was the only group that got the audience's attention.
and no one laughed. at all.
others groups were like damn funny..
cause there was this tombstone which said RIP WILLIAM.
and some of the dead williams on the floor were still reciing the poem, and talking..
but ours is the WORST. i never ever want to go near that poem again.

and yesterday dance was bad.
i have never felt so degraded and embarassed in my entire life.
its as bad as forcing shaun into a skirt..
nearly as bad.
yeah-
ms chiam went sourcing for my costume in the three costume cupboards that belonged to the drama people..
and picked those with ALOT of lace.
ALOT. and frills. and some even with SHOULDER PADDING THINGS.
UGHHHHHHH.
and i had to try every single fcking one of them in front of everyone in the performance.
which was at least two-thirds of the whole dance club.
and mrs thong and mdm gan. the other dance tchers.
THANK GOD MS FOO WASNT HERE.
yeah so basically it was horrible.
and i couldnt say no..
and zaneta and daphne kept getting more OBIANG ones..
saying that it was for the sake of the performance.
AHHHHHHHHHHH. i never ever want to see those dresses AGAIN.
mrs thong said i should ask my mum along and ask if she could recognise me..
........
it just sucked. alot.
its worse than wearing a bikini and parading down orchard road.

my computer monitor has been taken to my dad's office for his WORK.
so im on the family com..
ahhh.

OKAY-
i seriously need people to go for the big walk.
its on 21 may, sunday..
at seven thirty am.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE...?
bcus shaun wants me to go source for people..
and im quite desperate.
bcus no one is willing to get up so early just to walk ten km.
AHH. come ON. its just EXERCISE..

going to comfort myself with some fried and fattening stuff.
i cant handle all the weird pressure being put on me.

*fatimah says that she wanted the old noisy, annoying and extremely chirpy noelle back.
she can keep waiting though.. i dont think its going to happen.
im getting constant reminders to BE HAPPY..
by my fellow classmates..
but its kind of impossible..

when no one really understands you.

got caught in the rain.
sucked. hd to wait until the rain stopped..
but i gave up halfway and got drenched.

the weather's setting itself agaisnt me.

*nazurah asked me whats goin on bcus she said i had been moody the whole day.
how observant.
especially when i had made an effort to not appear depressed.
i suck at real-life acting.

ive got something to announce.
BENITA ROCKS.
yes. she does. ALOT.
no one is to badmouth her in front of me..
or REGRET it.

my grandma bought me a BIG tshirt from bejing.
bought the nice peanut things.
and bought ines two fans..
dunno what she got shaun.

THANKS AHMA. you rock.

and. and another thing to announce.
GUYS ARE SO VAIN.
i had hoped its only my brother..
but its not.

i was supposed to take a bus to sch with my victoria sec neighbour.
his name is nick.
and he came out of his house late.
said he was doing his hair.

so now i know why i reach school later and later every day..
bcus i sit his dad's car to school..
VAIN NICK. ahhh.

and how guys like to look at their reflections almost every time they can.
and some even ask if they look good.
O_O

i have personal experience okay..
im not just making it up. like SOME people will.

oh yeah-
my parents have set a ban on my computer.
and i have to ask for permission and show them PROOF if i need to use the com.
bcus of shaun's midyear exams.

HAIZ.

i have two computers at home..
ones mine and ones the family one.
they do their work on the family one.
last night they set the internet thing off..
and i cant go online on mine..
*what they dont know is that i hacked the family computer password long long ago.
thats how im HERE.
*they should know better that me and shaun wont give up so easily.
and the password is very very simple btw.

theres the literature poem group recital thing tomorrow.
and individual recitals next week.
i still dont wna accept the fact that im acting as BARBARA ALLEN-
this cold hearted girl that someone died out of love for.
and after that she persuades her parents into digging a grave for her.
bcus she wants to commit suicide and DIE.
weird isnt it? but shes doin it bcus she realised that the dead guy loves her.
let me recite my lines. ahem.

oh mother, oh mother go dig my grave
make it both long and narrow-
sweet william died of love for me
and i will die of sorrow.

and father, oh father go dig my grave
make it both long and narrow-
sweet william died on yesterday
and i will die tomorrow.

ITS SO RETARDED.
imagine doing it in front of the whole class..
grr. i hate it. im always made to do the stupidly dramatic parts.
AHHHHH.
i think ill drop dead halfway.
and laugh and laugh.
and i think everyones gonna laugh as well.

erm. shauns home and he wants to use the com..
so i have to SHOO OFF.


*sry- im just so bloody pessimistic.

ugh. home.
finally.

went to sch chirpy today.
was faced with fatimah's high pitched voice.
saying how freakingly depressing my blog can be.
FYI- i am a very depressed person sometimes.
so bear with me.

oh yeah- and speaking of my blog.
i had a big surprise today.
maryam also commented how depressing my blog was.
for one thing- i never knew she even knew i had a blog..
maryam sits in front of me*
and she says no one tags bcus they simply do not know what to say.
bcus im so depressed.

yeah..

HEY MARYAM! HEY FATIMAH! :))

*this gives me more to wonder who else actually reads my blog.

had MUSIC with the nice tcher cum neighbour.
played the guitar..
tempted me into buying a steel string guitar.
talked to mum about it just now..
she managed to avoid the whole conversation thoguh.
but its not only for me-
bcus maybe shaun wants to play too.
i shall become a pro at acoustic guitar playing.
i SHALL.


erm. yeah.
was really happy and all.
until after recess-
right after recess..
during MATHS.
i got this sudden HORRIBLE stomachache.
it wasnt gastric. for once.
but it was just so unbearable.
chia li kept telling me to go to the sick bay..

and i was like- IM NOT SICK.
IM JUST HAVING A STOMACHACHE.
AND SICK BAY SUCKS BCUS THEY DONT GIVE MED.
yeah- im so unfriendly.
sry chiali.

it went away durin geography.
:))
then i went off for lunch..
went to look for gnatasha..
but she was missing.
went to look for all the other dancers..
btu no one was in sight.
so i ate with ashley, faith and abigail.
ate chicken rice in my 'organised way'.
i remember last year how my classmates were commenting on the way i ate my chicken rice.
bcus theres a certain way i do it which makes my plate look very 'neat'.

O_O

studying for geog now.
im freakin out. TMRS THE BLOODY TEST.
and like- MRS TAN CANT REALLY TEACH.
even though shes cute and she loves winnie the pooh and all.
but she can be irritatin. VERY.
and how she likes to scold the class.
for 'grossly' undone homework.
and how she always makes our class appear lazy..

*which we actually MAYbe..
but STILL. tchers are supposed to MOTIVATE US.
:))

shes a horrible tcher.
and im the GEOG REP.
so i have to endure her scoldings and constant reminders of BEIGN RESPONSIBLE.
since i have always appeared as irresponsible to her..
but half the class APPEARS IRRESPONSIBLE.
stupid tcher.

i think on thursday after my remedial im going to go guitar pick shopping.
and add to my collection of TWO picks.
pathetic.. i know.
I WANT A STEEL STRING GUITAR.
if mum doesnt allow then I WILL PAY.
i dont care. MUAHAHAHAH.
*i have the money to anyway..
just have to GET it. troublesome.
and after that i still will be way richer than my brother.
MUAHAHAHA.

oh yeah.
speaking of my bro.
benita was sayin how COOL my brother is.
which he IS-
btu i hate to say it bcus it kinda gets to his head.
BIG HEADED EGOISTIC VAIN KIASU FOOLISH BROTHER.
but i love him all the same. :))
hes so VAIN.
like i showed him all the pictures i have of him in my phone.
and he was lamenting how un-handsome he looked.
*esp the one where he reminded himself of a zombie.
and the one he took of ines.
he actually offered to pose for me to get a nicer picture.
:)) THATS THE FIRST TIME HE HAS EVER DONE THT.
vain git.
and he loves waxing his hair.
i like to help him though.. but hes like:
shouldnt this go up? NOELLE- how do i look?
O_O

but now-
im not used to seeing him with his hair un-done when he goes out.

:)) weird siblings.

and add in my sister INES.
the egoistic little girl.
who loves pictures of herself.
and always wants to look nicer than me..

KEEP DREAMING INES- YOUR TASTE IS JUST TOO PINK TO LOOK GOOD. LEARN FROM ME. NOT THE TV.
evil big sister.**

and she loves imagining herself as a model.
and sneaking into my room to enjoy the aircon.
since my parents rarely swithc theirs on..
and shaun DOESNT.
and i do almost every day. :))
she loves the tv and aircon more than ME.
im certain.

weird family of kiasu singaporeans.

shihua said i look good when i really smile.
cause she saw a photo of me really smiling.
with ines and shaun..
even though i looked scary and spastic.
and i rarely REALLY smile.
i just smile for the camera most of the time.
or dao the camera.
:))
but i will never be satisfied with how i look.
YES- I NEED TO DIET!

went for dance.
and then ballet.
at ballet..
saw melanie and elyssa.
they were at the JOKES again.
joking about racist jokes.
those that make me feel really uncomfortable after laughing..
if i actually laugh..
but i know theyre just saying it for fun..
its those indian racist jokes.
and they said it right in front of NATASHA-
whos a chinese indian.
all bcus melanie thought that natasha was MALAY.
insensitive idiot. LOL.

shaun just told me that he wasnt sure how many people are going for the weird big walk thing.
and IM supposed to get tickets.
WOW. he CANNOT get things organised.
theres a deadline you know.
and theres $$$ involved.
*and IM taking the trouble to help him.

OMGOMGOMG- shaun has just paid me back part of the money he owes me.
the sky is falling.

------5 minutes later------
whatEVER la.
im just pissed now. VERY pissed.
major mood swing eh?
yeah yeah.
erm. its just how some people just do things for the sake of attention.
its really pissing me off.
and how some people can be so quiet and backstabbing at the same time.
URGH.

okay. venting my anger on the poor geography notes.
feel like taking benita's orange marker and scribbling all over my notes.
her lovely orange marker.
OH- you know she has a black and orange electric gutiar?
I MEAN THATS SO FREAKIN COOL.
ORANGE...
yes and im trying to pester her to get my a nice orange pick.
PLEASE BENNIE?
and she cant escape me bcus im sitting right in front of her in chinese.
O_O
shes such a musically talented person.
ITS DISGUSTING ME HOW UNTALENTED I AM AT MUSIC.
argh.
having a talent to dance isnt that much of a deal to ALOT ALOT of people.
*thats why i feel very pathetic when the thing i rock most at is dancing.

CURSE THESE PEOPLE.

im dead serious about picking up the acoustic guitar.
like SERIOUSLY SERIOUS.
but my mum thinks its just temporary enthusiasm..
have to convince her.
*going to try and borrow guitars from random people down the street someday.
i envy self taught musicians.
really ENVY.
argh. im pathetic. yes-haha.


going to study.. hopefully my notes dont disintergrate.
O_O

ANNOUNCEMENT-
NOELLE HAS RECEIVED A PHONE FROM HER MOTHER.
ITS A PANASONIC WHATEVER MODEL.
AND SHES USING A HI-CARD SO TRY NOT TO CALL HER TOO MUCH.
JUST SMS.
AND ASK HER FOR THE NUMBER.

im happy.
my dad isnt home. my bros not on the com.
and im staring at the phoen and not believing the extreme change of luck.
bcus just a few minutes ago i was caught in the rain.
the POURING rain.
and my mum just drove right past me.
so i had to run across the road to catch her attention.
and while crossin the overhead brigde i got totally wet.
like TOTALLY.
my jeans are soaked.
and i accidentally smiled at a whole bunch of construction workers.
and i swore loudly running across.

thank god i wasnt wearing a skirt.
speaking of skirts-
i hate it when people stare at me when i wear my stockings and a short skirt.
so i appear with super light legs.
i mean-
IM A BALLERINA. WHATS THERE TO STARE AT.
ITS NOT LIKE HAVE AN EXTRA LIMB OR STH.
lol. its just stupid and irritating.
OH- and how people also stare at me when i have my hair up in a neat bun.

okay-
going to delete the countless photos that ines took of herself in my mum's old phone.
EGOISTIC LITTLE GIRL.

i hate my dad.
i hate the way he treats shaun.
the way he blows up for no reason.
the way he NEVER listens.
i hate how BIASED he is.
how he always spoils everyones mood.
AHHHH.
and how he always forgets what promises he made.
he is just so freakin BIASED.
cause he spoils ines like hell and treats shaun like crap.
and shaun just has to accept it.
and nothing i say can help.

he has spoiled my morning.

having ballet later..
probably getting a sim card to put in my phone.
it really sucks bcus im not fifteen yet and i cant get it on my own.
AHHHHH.
so i have to bother my mum.
but she also needs to get her old phone repaired anyways..

my dad's voice is just plain irritating.
cant help but hear him playing with ines downstairs.

went for ballet yesterday evening..
we did the dance we're performing for the big walk.
i feel like pulling out.
bcus we're supposed to walk only TWO km.
which sucks- bcus i wna walk the full ten km.
i really really dont feel like goin with the ballet people.
*and even if it wasnt for the two km i also dont wna go.

shaun says he wants to go..
and pull his friends along.
so im supposed to help him get tickets.
*im surprised at shauns unusual enthusiasm.

ive more or less decided that i shouldnt join gavel club.
bcus:
1. i cant cope already.
2. its gna be quite retarded since its the first time ever.
3. they arent even hiring professional 'toastmasters'.
and many other reasons.
O_O
actually- most importantly-
i dont think i can commit bcus im just plain LAZY.

oh yeah.
shauns talking about starting up a band/club.

hes actually SERIOUSLY considering it.
*yes- im glad to announce tht bro is growing up.

its just this weird club recruiting people who can play an instrument and/or SING. and theyre doing any kind of music.
and he talked about it to me right in front of MUM.

and he wants me to pick up the bass guitar.
and hes picking up the electric guitar in june.
*but my tuition tcher says that i shouldnt pick the bass guitar cause its going to seriously spoil my delicate hands.
O_O
and most girls arent good bassists.

oh- and i SHOULD be going on a diet.
bcus im growing fat.
and ive been pigging myself lately.
but again im lacking the commitment to stick to a healthy diet.

*looks into my wallet.
i have like thirty two bucks..
not counting the heap of coins.
ive been spending lately.
like last night when we (the ballet people) went to eat our dinner at pastamania.
and it wasnt even filling.
i need to save $$.
*bcus i have alot of things to buy that my parents wont sponsor.
like a new pair of slippers, a watch, a couple of novels and CLOTHES.
nice pointe shoes, a new leotard and loads and loads of hair pins.
loads and loads of plasters.
and not to mention the PHONE BILL-
once i get my phone. AHHHH.

and im not going for summer school or to new zealand.
and im not watching BURN THE FLOOR...
WAHHHHHH. cant stand not watching..

and you know what?
theyre (my parents) setting a BAN on my computer until the holidays.
bcus 'my mid-years are coming'.
like WTF- bcus my school doesnt have MID YEARS.
ARGH. and my dad thinks im lying.
and scolding me.
"why are you always like that? you come home and spoil everyone's mood all the time. i come home from work everyday and i see this kind of lousy attitude. and shaun blablablablas......"

bleahs. i didnt even spoil anyone's mood.
except his maybe.
and all im doin is insisting that i dont have midyears.
but the ban is still on..
and hes just dumped a pile of assesments on me.
oh wow wee.

WHAT THE HELL DO YOU HAVE EARS FOR WHEN YOU DONT EVEN LISTEN.
but shaun gets it even worse than i do.

hes STUBBORN.
and he loves to criticise and bring people down.
how similar my parents are.*

they can only blame themselves for having a daughter such as me.
cause we are what we are bcus of the people in our lives.



all the inspiration to blog is oozing out of me.
i shall go and stare at something else other than the computer screen.