i hate my dad.
i hate the way he treats shaun.
the way he blows up for no reason.
the way he NEVER listens.
i hate how BIASED he is.
how he always spoils everyones mood.
AHHHH.
and how he always forgets what promises he made.
he is just so freakin BIASED.
cause he spoils ines like hell and treats shaun like crap.
and shaun just has to accept it.
and nothing i say can help.

he has spoiled my morning.

having ballet later..
probably getting a sim card to put in my phone.
it really sucks bcus im not fifteen yet and i cant get it on my own.
AHHHHH.
so i have to bother my mum.
but she also needs to get her old phone repaired anyways..

my dad's voice is just plain irritating.
cant help but hear him playing with ines downstairs.

went for ballet yesterday evening..
we did the dance we're performing for the big walk.
i feel like pulling out.
bcus we're supposed to walk only TWO km.
which sucks- bcus i wna walk the full ten km.
i really really dont feel like goin with the ballet people.
*and even if it wasnt for the two km i also dont wna go.

shaun says he wants to go..
and pull his friends along.
so im supposed to help him get tickets.
*im surprised at shauns unusual enthusiasm.

ive more or less decided that i shouldnt join gavel club.
bcus:
1. i cant cope already.
2. its gna be quite retarded since its the first time ever.
3. they arent even hiring professional 'toastmasters'.
and many other reasons.
O_O
actually- most importantly-
i dont think i can commit bcus im just plain LAZY.

oh yeah.
shauns talking about starting up a band/club.

hes actually SERIOUSLY considering it.
*yes- im glad to announce tht bro is growing up.

its just this weird club recruiting people who can play an instrument and/or SING. and theyre doing any kind of music.
and he talked about it to me right in front of MUM.

and he wants me to pick up the bass guitar.
and hes picking up the electric guitar in june.
*but my tuition tcher says that i shouldnt pick the bass guitar cause its going to seriously spoil my delicate hands.
O_O
and most girls arent good bassists.

oh- and i SHOULD be going on a diet.
bcus im growing fat.
and ive been pigging myself lately.
but again im lacking the commitment to stick to a healthy diet.

*looks into my wallet.
i have like thirty two bucks..
not counting the heap of coins.
ive been spending lately.
like last night when we (the ballet people) went to eat our dinner at pastamania.
and it wasnt even filling.
i need to save $$.
*bcus i have alot of things to buy that my parents wont sponsor.
like a new pair of slippers, a watch, a couple of novels and CLOTHES.
nice pointe shoes, a new leotard and loads and loads of hair pins.
loads and loads of plasters.
and not to mention the PHONE BILL-
once i get my phone. AHHHH.

and im not going for summer school or to new zealand.
and im not watching BURN THE FLOOR...
WAHHHHHH. cant stand not watching..

and you know what?
theyre (my parents) setting a BAN on my computer until the holidays.
bcus 'my mid-years are coming'.
like WTF- bcus my school doesnt have MID YEARS.
ARGH. and my dad thinks im lying.
and scolding me.
"why are you always like that? you come home and spoil everyone's mood all the time. i come home from work everyday and i see this kind of lousy attitude. and shaun blablablablas......"

bleahs. i didnt even spoil anyone's mood.
except his maybe.
and all im doin is insisting that i dont have midyears.
but the ban is still on..
and hes just dumped a pile of assesments on me.
oh wow wee.

WHAT THE HELL DO YOU HAVE EARS FOR WHEN YOU DONT EVEN LISTEN.
but shaun gets it even worse than i do.

hes STUBBORN.
and he loves to criticise and bring people down.
how similar my parents are.*

they can only blame themselves for having a daughter such as me.
cause we are what we are bcus of the people in our lives.



all the inspiration to blog is oozing out of me.
i shall go and stare at something else other than the computer screen.