as i said on my tagboard, i DID blog yesterday about yesterday, but somehow it didnt get blogged, and im not going to reblog it. photos and pics will be uploaded, anyone who wants them tell me.

all i can repeat about yesterday is: I <3 21.7.2006

alright.
this morning i woke up with my handphone next to me, and taken out from the charger. and i found myself sleeping very comforatbly on the mattress.. which was on the hard floor. having a weird instinct, i went to check out my inbox. turns out that there were two supposedly unread messages which have been read. and i dont have any recollection in my head of the two messages. alot of thoughts flew through my mind.
1. someone could have read it and placed the phone beside me.
2. i can do things in my sleep, which is a very frightening thought.
3. i woke up, read my messages, and went back to sleep without noticing it. and this would be the first time something like that happened.

if it was 1, im more or less dead/going to die. if 2, i need to tie myself to my bed, unless i want myself killed. if 3, i have no worries.
but it cant be three, because im not like that.
ARGH.

so anyway, i am/will be very emotional and crappy today. so dont read on if you dont want to.

i hate breaking hearts. i absolutely HATE it. because i have been under that treatment myself. and i know how it feels like. it really sucks. staying up late just thinking of SOMEONE.

but at some point in time, we have to make sacrifices for what we want. and because we humans are rather selfish, we do cause mental and maybe physical pain to others.

i am a soft-hearted heartbreaker. makes sense?

two days ago, faith, ashley and i were on the bus to bras basar to get materials for school. faith apparently rejected someone and caused that someone quite abit of pain. then she was talking about how guilty she will feel after doing thigns like that. and i agreed very strongly. i made a statement: we should all be ugly nerds. then we dont have to go through all this.

and i have caused that much pain to many other people. i dont think i need to state reasons for doing so, so i wont.

lucky is he who thinks that women are trouble and doesnt get himself involved in any relationships. one such 'he' is my brother. how noble. and smart.

and many people tell me to 'just dump him' ('him' in this case refers to alot of people), as if it were just a simple matter. well, maybe it is, but being me i often think about matters so much and make mountains out of molehills. and part of the 'thinking' includes imagining how they'll feel and how well/badly they'll take it. which makes me feel worse. because i dont like to make people suffer. i dont seem the type, but now im telling you, so listen if you've read until here. no, im joking.

just dont wait for me. it'll do you alot of good. im serious..

alright. i need to go and find out my schedule for today.
need to call up the tutor, and my fellow ballet people to find out what time rehearsal is today.
okay, so BYEEE.

I AM HOME EARLY.
heh.

alright, TOMORROW IS RACIAL HARMONY DAY.
and i have gone back into seriously missing the THAIS.
but in my school,
RACIAL HARMONY DAY means:

-PULP FASHION 2006
(VERY VERY IMPT, WISH ME LUCK!)
This inter-class fashion competition which me and darling FAITH joined. YES, OUR DESIGN SHALL WIN. I made sure i get get myself in modelling, cause its seriously embarassing.. cause im not in a state to go around flashing my figure (that is, if i have one.)
so instead, we got our darling thick-skinned FATIMAH to model for us. figuring out the size of her is always a challenge, since she's HOT. as in, CURVYY. LOL. but all in all, she really rocks for being such a sport.. she was the one who shouted to the class that she wanted to model for our class.. thanks FAT-ASS. and thanks FAITH:D We'll kick all the outher classes' butts. and WIN, cause our design just purely rocks. maybe i'll post pics if i get hold of them.

-CARNIVAL DAY
this day that is held every racial harmony day. last year, we set up game stalls and took part in the kite-making and kite-flying competition, which of course with caimiao's help, and the few of us, WE WON. (cause our kite was the only fly-able one. LOL.) this year, we're gonna look after a bunch of kids from TUNG LIN KINDERGARTEN. ya. FUNN. and im in the HOSTING committee, so that = MORE FUN.
because noelle LOVES kids. naughty or not. i think naughty is cute anyway.

ya. thats about it for tomorrow. anyway, speaking of above, thats the reason why i want to have a kid by thirty. a weird life goal, but an impt one nonetheless. O_o

went to bras basar complex today, to get the last minute decorations and materials for our design. after faith left, me and ashley headed to bugis to carry out our MISSION IMPOSSIBLE.. which of course i shall not elaborate on, otherwise we'll get into serious trouble. and after that, i couldnt resist tempttion and brought ashley up to take neoprints. its been half a year since we took la.. i have been neglecting friendships by being so busy.. we were like taking gay pics, which i shall upload later.. really GAY (lesbian actually.) :D its really nice though. sigh. next time ill take one kissing her. LOL. EEK.

no, noelle is STRAIGHT, she only goes for GUYS, and being a weird bunch of girls we just like to act lesbian. ^_^" im not even bisexual, much less homosexual. so ya. i do not fall for girls, i do NOT. i just admire their personalities sometimes. and their looks. or SOMETHING.
which = noelle is an envious person who isn't satisfied with herself in many ways..

and whenever ASHLEY AND I hang out, we'll check out all the peopel around us. and sometimes we'll bitch about them loudly, sicne they dont know we're talkign about them. like yesterday at mcdonalds, we saw kim eng and talked about her, and saw this guy oogling at his girl's erm, PARTS, which were rather easily exposed.. and he kept looking at US, (ashley insisted that he was actually looking at me..) whide made me LOL. cause he's a DESPERATE UGLY FUGLY GUY which singapore can do without.

of course i dont go for looks, but when a pervert (or anyone with a bad character) is ugly, he just looks more ugly and being the evil girl i am, i take notice and spread word. but then again, those who lack the looks but have the ATTITUDE should just be happy. because i love these people. LOVE, not the romantic LOVE, but LOVE. this is also what the worlds lacks.. but its something that ASHLEY AND I appreciate. so we rock. yup. my theory.

and everytime ASHLEY AND I (think of russell peters and his act on chinese people) hang out, we take special notice of TALLIES and HOTTIES. ^_^"

erm, shaun wants to use the comp SOON, so i'll just talk ABIT more.
my mouth has expanded.
my word capacity has expanded.

I AM A BUSY GIRL.
i finally know why i havent seen the thai people online, its because im so busy i go online at all the wrong times.. which is when i sneak online.
i only realised it because chris email-ed me to ask how i was and update me on how life was without ME. (as in, without me talking to him and seeing him and etcetcetc. i dont really care.) but now that im online.. my darling MINT AINT ONLINE. rarr.
i promised her i'll go to thailand to see her once more, by hook or by crook. and i shall NOT break those words. I WILL NOT. our friendship WILL LAST FOREVER. i will not let it go to waste, and i SHALL pray everyday that i'll get to bangkok and see her.

and of course, i shall spread the news if i get to go, and i'll get all the friendly thais i know to come and SEE ME! nad, mint, gift, bell, apha, may, fah, chris, whoever.. except BEER. i dont want to see him. hah. evil.

alright, i think ive said too much =X i know my blogs quite a chore to read. heh. sorry. >.< shall stop here. OKAY.
BYEE

ello ello. im sneaking on the comp now.

SHHH.

alright-y, today was OKAY in good ways. went out with td before heading to ballet. did nothing much in particular but really enjoyed it all the same. ^_^ rehearsal was pretty fun. yeah.

just a few things thats been in my head for quite some time..

when noelle is angry (or in a bad mood):
-humour her (it takes peserverance and determination but it really works)
-dont agitate her
-comfort her
-dont tell her that it'll be okay and make it seem as if its PEANUTS, because 1. its unrealistic and 2. it'll seem as if you dont understand.
-listen, REALLY LISTEN to her
-dont tell her to spend time alone, it NEVER works
-do small little things that'll surprise her and make her happy
-dont tell her NOT to cry (hardly EVERy workds, just makes girls cry harder.)
-tell her that she doesnt look that bad when her eyes are red and puffy, tell her that she's pretty all the time regardless of whether its a lie or the truth
-dont tell her that her hair is messy
-dont do anything that endanger yourself
-be her pillar of strength (how corny yet true..)

and many many others which arent as important.

im abit dead now, so ill stop here.
GOODNIGHT HOT ASSES.

ello. *yawns*

very very tired, cause i slept pretty late last night for a weekend.. (on weekends i sleep early and wake up very late. weird sleeping pattern, i know) rehearsal ended real late. it was this major rehearsal and all the other ballet schools who were also involved in this performance (there are quite a few..) came to OUR branch to rehearse.

it was like an animal farm. i ran up and down finding lost little girls and delivering them to the studios they're supposed to be in. for one, i didnt even know what i was supposed to do. all seniors in our school were given something to do.. while i did everything.
(everything = a mix of jobs.)

i finally settled down in room 11, where gan pin and jia min were in charge. and guess who i saw.. ADELINE! whooooooo. yup. she's this girl from the STEP CAMP. sigh. then we just started talking about the whole camp and the different schools and groups. and the PEOPLE. gosh. talking about 'rolnado', 'tom cruise', bryan, theophilus (nice name dude. LOL), and alot of other people.

yup. basically i was pretty camp-sick, and not home-sick for once.

before that i was at temasek jc's openhouse (for the IP programme) with ASHLEY, cause her dad more or less forced her to go. and i, since i went to find out that my tuition was cancelled, went along with her. yup. meeting my old principal again was pretty sad. since she made almost the exact same speeches. just that she changed the TKGS to TA (temasek academy). tkgs girls definately should know what im talking about.

but we got freebies, including one old issue of her world, one old issue of SHAPE, one shokubutsu facial cleanser, and one PEN. its a really good pen, just used it. i got the lilac one, ashley got the ordinary but nice turquoise one. and BROCHURES.

okay. im going out pretty soon, need to do something before meeting td. i htink we're going to eat roti prata. okay, BYEEE.

oh yeah, in friendster i put this when i sign off:
-NOELLE:))
-ELLEON
-ANGEL
-PRINCESS
-CAPRICORN-GIRL
haha.