i love macs breakfast(:

met alisha for breakfast!
thanks so much for the hotcakes yeah.
it's my turn to buy you breakfast next time. and i'm really serious.
so as you probably will know, my whole day was brightened. haha.
the brainstorming session went quite okay. we sidetracked alot but it was fun.
yi sze is freaking hilarious. she says the weirdest stuff at really wrong times! haha.
we kept talking about Mas Selamat. and if you haven't realised, we've gone a step further and put his picutre on every public bus.
he must be feeding his ego with all the publicity. more than for say, JJ Lin. or even Jay Chou!

i think the picture is edited la! the clean unshaven one.
cause if you scrutinised (as i did), his hair has three curls over his forehead. and it's in identical positions on both pictures. and the reflection of light on his forehead has this pattern. and it's the same for both picutres too! another modification is the brightening of his unshaven photo, giving it a cleaner look. how smart of the police.
ah, the world of digital advancement.

we finished pretty early actually. and so i went present-hunting at parkway.

ever faced a 'present' dilemma?
i'm sure everyone has.
especially so for a friend that you don't know that well.
you're afraid they might not like it. or they won't find it pratical, or that they'll dump it in a corner and still pretend to like it.
basically, it's about making the best impression.
EQ lesson. something mdm goh prides me on. lol.

sometimes it appears simple.
"oh, since he's sporty, get him something sporty la! so easyyyy."
yeah right.
a nike waterbottle? i'm sure everyone has more than one waterbottle if they have the need for one. a wristband? appearingly pointless.
how about a mini soccer ball? you might not know if he likes soccer.
a tshirt? what about the size? socks? you'll appear like his mother.
was originally planning on sunblock but it's a horrible present.

so then i realised that it's better to keep to something general that i would like to receive as a present too. and my standards aren't that low either.
walked around the entire parkway in vain, until i saw this beautiful thing and i was so tempted to buy it there and then,
but it would've dug a HUGE, huge hole in my pocket. and for a mere friend (for now), the extravagance was highly uncalled for.
i went home empty-handed and my wallet still in a piece.

it's actually a little pointless but it's a brilliant keepsake. and it looks impressive too(:
eh, count the sentimental value!
so much fuss for him. hrmph. haha. as long as he likes it, i'm okay.

planned to go out again with shaun to catch a movie and shop around for another present, but we were having our lazy days.
and since i'm going to parkway tmr, i might as well get it then.
i'll sleep holding my money tonight. but i suppose it's money well-spent.
instead of cosmetics. or a new shirt. or another pair of sunglasses.
shit.

we went to the provision shop somewhere close by, and embarrassingly, i slipped.
it was raining.
it was just a slight slip, but i freaked and i landed on the floor hard.
scraped my knee badly. bled and bled. ouch. curse those slippers.
so i had to find a sink, which was at the coffee shop. was limping with a mixture of blood, rain and dirtwater from the floor on my legs and arms. i got a few stares.
bought our "junkfood" for the home movie. which consisted of noodles, chips and lemon tea.

and just as i was making an effort to take a different, less slippery route, even using the umbrella as a walking stick,
i slipped at the bus stop.
and i screamed. haha. people kept looking at me after that. but i didn't fall(:
shaun just laughed.
all thanks to him, i injured myself. so much for just getting a bunch of snacks.

lousy slippers.
remind me never to wear them out on a rainy day.

we watched Jumper online, as a substitute for There Will Be Blood and The Leap Years and all the other movies we were planning on. damn):
Shaun's hair is now a faux-hawk, be prepared for a huge shock when you see him.
his shaggy mushroom hair is gone): and therefore he can't style it the "just out of bed" way, which he clearly didn't know how to do. it'll be slightly David Beckham-ish, cept his back is different. well well.
still not used to it x)

as for my hair, it's growing as slowly as the snail moves towards the moon.
though everyone still has mixed reactions, i want to grow it back long.
refreshing and "better" than the old boring long hair, but i miss the smell of shampoo when i untie my hair. it used to be really strong.
can rmb amanda being able to tell when i used Johnson's baby shampoo. haha.
and besides, i'm getting bored of my hair.
sounds familiar? :D
oh no, not again.

i told mindy about my someone.
the way she's so eager to hear about it makes me want to just go for it.
she calls me brave.
they all call that person lucky.
but someone will never like me back in that way.
it's reality, so what's the use? (:


0845 in the morning.
can't wait to see nat, martin and ms kok tmr(:

and the shadow of the day will embrace the world in gray.

hello(:
i got a lousy L1R5 this term.

meeting alisha tmr morning for a cosy macs breakfast.
:D haha. then going to the library to meet nadiah, akshaya, yi sze and shahylia.
for some very obvious reason. urgh. i'm totally dreading monday.

hopefully i can get his present tmr. ah shucks. i'm facing a tight time constraint.

spent my day watching movies.
i'm now more immune to the effects of korean movies (crying, obviously.) cause i watched three today. and the other day i watched a half-gay korean movie.
which is really weird cause they always have two guys and two girls right?
this one was like three guys. one who looks alot like a girl. that girly playboy from My Girl la(: i like him. haha. he got kissed by another guy. it was a little weird.

mrs chan was talking about JC admission today.
she's the best form teacher i can ask for(:
oh, and we played ALOT of netball today.
like ffrom 0930 to 1110. PE then recess.
it was so damned tiring. like running and screaming and getting my feet stepped on repeatedly.
but it was fun(; we invited the 4/2 girls to play too!


i'll give y'all a proper update soon kay.

harry potter has bad breath. i suffered the entire time sitting next to him.
funny tkss guy's nose doesn't make too much noise anymore.
mr siow's very keen on getting a new job.

for the past few months i owe mr siow a big apology for getting his surname wrong. but it doesn't matter anyway since he won't know(:
during monday's tuition i hope he goes to the toilet and mrs siow goes out of the room too.
it'll be so awkward if i suddenly went like:
hey you. happy belated birthday, and here's your present.
mr siow would never let me off. sigh. should i poison his coke? haha.

i suddenly remember that those obnoxious juniors called me a boy yesterday during dance.
we were talking about pas de deux, which are the parts where there's a guy and a girl and they perform a duet with lifts and etcetcetc.
pronounced: pah-der-der.
and i went: aiya. you all talk so much also cannot do right. we don't have boys here.
kimbo: got! you la! you can carry us.
... and it's just cause i've got the shortest hair and i'm one of the tallest? hurhurhur man.
and after that, they (including ms chiam) started calling me a boy.
i think natasha was the worst.
she said: boy with boobs.
we couldn't stop laughing after that.

shucks.

kay fine. if i'm a guy, it's not cause i have a boyish face, it's cause i'm not well-endowed.
i'm flat.
there.
i think alot of guys have bigger moobs la. although it gets a little disturbing when it's really big. like they need a bra more than me. okay. gross.

i wanna watch The Leap Years really badly. anyone game? :D

it sucks to be like a tree trunk.
not skinny, figure-less and flat. haha.
and with brown skin and a green uniform, i must really resemble a tree.

i've had enough.

i promised nat that i'll go for ballet on sunday.
cause i feel kinda bad for pansehing her the other day.
and besides, martin said he "got cut real deep".
so i'll make it up(: i hope y'all miss me. haha.

i found out from andrew that he and alyssa are just cousins.
but still, coincidence much?
and yeah, he seems pretty cool.
not the typical vs guy i suppose(: finally, a guy with something resembling substance.
it's a refreshing change.

dance yesterday was really terrible.
we got scolded by ms foo for half an hour on attire and discipline.
and after that we got lectured by ms chiam till 430.
for the remaining one hour, we did barre work. i was really bored. and we did only three, four exercises?
i miss the old dance club so much. i don't want it to die either, but we're simply not in a position to do anything. no performances, no corner to corner, no senior-junior things.
thanks to the school's tight grip on their money cause of the rebuilding. urgh.

my last year as a senior here isn't gonna be very memorable.
we'll be known as the last batch that has "potential". even so, our potential is as little and insignificant as the fullstop at the end of this sentence.
grant us the last few months to make things better.

so with everything going on in my head, i kinda lost my cool in school today.
and i got pissed at many small things. including daphne (who is quite small).
i screwed that one up bad.

i can't wait any longer for the holidays. i need the fresh air of the beach.

last night i was trying to talk to at least six people at once. it was crazy.
it was all good to catch up with her (and everyone else) again, but i nearly gave it all away.
(: oops.
till now, i can't decide. i must be slowly, but very surely, losing my mind.
the phase has lasted too long.
and even if i told her, nothing'll change anyway.
i want to be happy too.

Oh, and if you can't hold on,
Let it go and come back in your heart.
And if you can't hold on,
Maybe it's not time for you.

And if you can't hold on,
On your very last try,
I'll be there so you know that you're not alone.

ah, i'm disgusted by the pack of fats at my belly.
i told alisha i'll go slim down and get a tan and dye my hair blonde. cause we were momentarily inspired by Jessica Alba. trust alisha to find the hottest pictures eh. haha.

i'm really tired.
so won't you do me the biggest favor? stop making me feel guilty. stop everything. and just let me go. you've got to be responsible for yourself. pick up your own shit and go like everyone else does you know? it's enough, really. it's unnecessary stress.
don't rely on me. i've got more than enough on my own, tyvm.
don't make yourself out to be someone so weak and fragile; you're not that.
you're just simply escaping reality, under the disguise of time.

I'll be there in the morning to pull you through.

Oh My God.
are they siblings?
kay. i just saw the-girl-i-thought-was-the-coolest-ever's face on someone's blog. alongside, is that vs guy from tuition.
i think i'm gonna bowl over and faint.
my jaw's still hanging.
gimme a minute to hook it back up.

yeah. omg. still i'm what's the word..
flabbergasted?
like :O
it's too much of a coincidence. yeah. wow.

anyway i spent my afternoon at VS, watching the TKGS-PL badmintion match.
and we lost): but i think it was really good cause their faces were like erm,
Obama's. when he's campaigning against Mrs Clinton.

gloria said: ''when it's not funny, both of you laugh.''
i was trying to defend myself against the allegation that i know that guy, but she denied me.
"eh you, where's that guy ah?"
"what guy."
"tuition one."
"why would he be here?"
"cause you ask him to go la."
"crazy. i don't even talk to him."
ah well.
apparently, i'm not that much of a whore as some people might imagine me to be.
besides, with my hair chopped off, i look less bitchy.
(not that i'm admitting i ever was.)(note: i never was. lol.)

one day you'll realise that there's actually alot more to me.
and then i'll tell you:
deal with it.

so anyway, i really wanted to go give her a hug after the match.
but i wasn't sure whether she wanted one so i didn't.
expectedly. haha.

oh yeah. we had this super draggy briefing about O level registration and stuff tday.
and holy crap, it's gonna cost my dear mother $413.
i'm taking eight subjects, the most expensive being of course, bio and chem.
i never knew we were taking Revised A and Emath.
but yes, it's getting to me. and i'm getting scared.

it = The O Levels Monster.
short form, The OLM.*

cause my results are like..
stuff that's found in the drains. longkangs. whatever.

i seriously need someone to study with.
cause if i study alone, i'll be both the blind man and the guy following the blind man.
i need someone who for one, finds it better to study with people, and who is sincerely willing to share their knowledge.
i mean, come on. how many people keep tips to themselves in case others try to score with them? it's so disgustingly competitive. but it's life.
(: ? ): ?

if you continue staring, i might really decide to take that seat next to you.
just so that you'll stop staring you know?
i've missed the thrill of the chase- you're bringing it back.


You know, i'd love to bring you out and buy you an ice-cream.

im like stoning.
badly.
the rain's making me sleepy and i'm trying to keep awake.
cause i'm dropping by ballet later:D

last night.
the food at jumbo was good. the usual crab prawns blablablablah.
but something really scary happened.
my dream actually came true. which = my nightmare came true.
i saw mdm tan at jumbo.
holy cow. i was so shocked.
and chinese was the first period today. throughout i was praying that she wouldn't mention anything from last night. and she didn't(:

but yes, my chinese is like much better than my english this term.
my english is like a C5. please gun me down.
so i'm counting chinese in my L1R5! :O

speaking of results, i'm very very sad to say that i've failed my amath this term.
by a puny 1 and a half marks.
i feel like bashing myself twice over. my last two papers were good actually. it was just the horrendous 11/40 one.
blah.
the worst part is, during math, ms lee told the class that i scored highest for Emath.
wahlao. i could've just passed a few marks over to amath la.
but anyway, i've got my eye set on an A1 for emath this term. fighting!

yeah. i spent my yesterday at home sobbing like a baby.
i watched two korean movies in the afternoon and one at night after dinner.
and i watched the 'recommended' ones. which are obviously the most sad cause koreans love sad love stories.
bad bad choice man. but yeah, i think they act damn well:D
and the guys aren't too handsome but they're very, very charming.

if you're wondering why i'm home,
i pon-ed high jump.
:D
and i told myself to come home and study for the Emath spring test tmr.
AND THEN I REALISED THAT I DIDN'T EEN BRING HOME MY SET OF PAST YEAR PAPERS. AHHHHHHH.
WE'RE ONLY TOLD TO STUDY BUKIT PANJANG'S PAPER.
ANDDDD, I DON'T HAVE IT.

i hope mr seow doesn't let me off too late from tuition later.

okay la. play computer la:D
haha.