lack of updates due to laziness.
i'm so bored of the computer that i hardly switch it on now, unbelievable as it is.
not that my time is spent on studying either. it's more to the new PS3 sitting around the living room.

anyway, i doubt people miss reading my blog but it doesn't really bother me cause i like blogging(:
not enough to spend the day in front of the computer though.

i've disastrously lost my sec 3 SS book, so i'm going to pray and pray that it doesn't come out for SBQ and i pick another topic for SEQ. the Iraq-Kuwait thing is super obvious, cause Mdm Azizan goes through it almost every SS lesson. as for english, i'm pretty demoralised by the 2006 TKGS MYE paper, so i'll just pray for that one as well.
but, i read the newspapers everyday now so that's an improvement kay(:

anyway, nothing rather eventful happened. except for the tall girl's hair issue. but i honestly admire her courage. if i were to face Mdm Lenny, i would've just surrendered cause she probably would squash me just by stepping on me. yes, and she can totally pull it off so, why not?

i like people who are frank.
and who aren't hypocritical. while it's really extremely hard to find such people in Tkgs, i'm happy to have maybe two of them in our clique(:
even if it isn't exactly music to my ears, i appreciate their courage, in a way.
i know i tend to be hypocritical sometimes. but it's not that bad, at least i defend my friends. (:

on the other hand, i've met some really horrid people recently.
this really, REALLY random guy added me to ask me to talk to his girlfriend.
i was like, wtf are you thinking?
i hate desperate people. and i really hate people with bad english.
and i hate people who whine. i don't usually hate people, or even hate, but it happens. and it happens now. it really really kills my day. so now i've got a whole list of blocked people and i've declined quite a few too.
annoying. have you people no life? or no attention? you know, you all should probably go to the toilet and lock yourselves in the whole day, let your shit come out the right way and wash your brains after that.

exhale.

i've convinced myself to stop taking everything so seriously.
from now on, i'm going to get my own life, and stop letting my thoughts stay on one person.
no matter how hard i try, or whatever i do, it's futile.
i'm not blind. i may be weaker than you, but i'll surpass everyone soon enough.

i know my "taste" now. (:
i like strong people. and i stop liking people either because they seem weak or they aren't confident enough. i don't run a charity; i can't spend my life picking it up for others cause i've got alot to handle too you know?
anyway, STRONG PEOPLE(: haha. okay, i know that's a totally weird standard to have. but there. i've finally found what they all have in common.
but of course, there are exceptions. some were probably just for fun.
yes,
i admit it. (sigh.)
and i think it's pretty obvious who lah.
i was in denial. and now i'm in a different sort.

whatever, i'll just be blind in school.
out of sight, out of mind.
(how convincing, yes?)

ah, how terrible.

i want Venice to come out(:
although it probably won't be that easy. but nvm, i like.
and i hope monday's english compre topic would be some story and not some scientific volcano rubbish. as long as it's interesting lah(:
and i hope the compo topic would be nice! i've already more or less set my mind on the one word topic. i'll really like something emo-ish, cause then i'll have alot of good stuff to write and i can score(;
easiest to write, easiest to fail.
if a speech comes out, i'm going to scream. hopefully it's some letter to some penpal. however, i think it's really disgusting that our school thinks we have penpals from other countries that we write to and try to impress or perhaps complain about our country for whatever reason.
it is really, seriously outdated. it's the worst misconception the school could have of us. it's an insult to our busy lives as well, cause i don't think it seems like we have so much free time to sit down and pen a letter. emails are, of course, an exception, don't get me wrong.

i really wish i wasn't so screwed up.

it's not that i like being like this either.
it's not normal. and it isn't acceptable as yet. and just because of it, i'm judged.
i enquire: is it fair?
i am realistic. it's part of my character. so don't tell me to ignore everyone else.

Even if it means for a day, its a good drug to get hooked onto.
But like all addictions and junkies, consequence is never a subsitute for reality.
asset.

i should've just grit my teeth, block the doorway and asked.
but like that'll ever happen. i think i'll MAX have enoguh guts to block the doorway and go:
"ummmm. (smile.) Hi."
and then i'll walk off and curse myself for doing such a terrible job. haha.
ahya, no point la. if it's not meant to be, i can't force it right(: we're talking about human beings with emotions here, so i've to be a little more reasonable.

i came home early after school since i don't think anyone wanted to go out and study. and yeah, what's with all the "go ask!"s from aisyah, nat and fuhua. =___=
and i spent my entire afternoon with shaun, screaming over the ps3 while trying to kill the entire army of people. shaun died like so many times luh. i'm gooood(:
dw6 isn't as easy as dw5. the normal units have finally grown some brains, and there are alot mroe controls. you can't be the ultimate own-er anymore): not fun!
haha. there, i play games cause i like to win.
netball incuded.

speaking of netball, it was so damned hot today.
we should play badminton or something, and stop the shirt tans. and truthfully speaking, i'll rather go eat recess nowadays than play cause it just ends up to be some sort of a laughing fest.
like the ball hits peoples' heads, people hit peoples' heads, people throw the ball to someone who's not their teammate, etcetc.
abigail's damn good at that. she'll just randomly shout, "amanda here!" and amanda will just throw the ball to her even if she's not on our team. =____= and plus her funny "OYE!"s and stuff just to shock people into dropping the ball or sth. haha. someone's pro uh(:

i think syaf's the cutest though(:

i thoroughly embarrassed myself after recess by running around nearly the entire school in search for limting who had to come back and do the chinese listening compre. and when i found her in the classroom, everyone was staring. like, Staring. cx included. i was sweating and my hair was probably flying. oh man. haha.

i think i can get 7/10 at most for chinese listening compre. the last passage was )(*$)*@&)!ingly hard.

late night phone calls with alisha thien make me a happy girl(:
we seriously, SERIOUSLY need to meet. then go home and study together. ahhh.

i'm going to treat myself during the june holidays by having a massive The L Word marathon. i'm going to borrow everything from season 1 to season 5 (if anyone has got it!) :D :D :D
anyone wants in? haha. we should totally go find a huge living room with a large, large screen and have it soundproof cause i'll be screaming and laughing my arse off.

my eye bags have worsened considerably. it's a sure sign of stress and constant fatigue. i feel like a zombie walking around sometimes.
i'm really tired of doing this. but i'm human and it isn't human nature to stop halfway and walk off. excuses, but it's true to a certain extent. there's this annoying little bugger called Hope.

tuition-ing tmr and thursday!

happy birthday dad(:

today's a bad day cause everyone seems to have something going on.
mum and shaun were like argueing so much la. it was seriously mood-ruining.
alisha's also a little pissed cause i kept going on about some girl who could dance.
and i'm so frustrated by school.
it's so torturous going there everyday to be treated like crap. and to be ignored like a transparent being. i think i'll turn transparent soon anyway, cause people keep looking right through me. i should just seriously transfer away and gain some self-respect and control back.
=_=

SS and geography Intensive Revision was okay.
i like Nerds. (the sweet please.) was eating them the entire day.

alisha thien cheong mei.
i'm sorry, i love you(: please pull me up when i fall and let me cry and then not smack me.
i'll do the same and i won't bear to smack you either. haha.
you're my bestest(:

noelle ; says:
i think before i act okay.
noelle ; says:
i dont just ruin your chances.
● Lisha ● says:
i act before i think okay.

lol.

SHANE SHANE SHANE SHANE SHANE SHANE SHANE SHANE SHANE SHANE.
shane, i'm going to scream out my love for you. you're the most freaking hot person i've ever seen. and i'm so going to marry you if i meet you in real life.
(of course along with Adam Levine but you don't have to know that.)
yes, i'll turn lesb for you. you're an inspiration to everyone out there! i swear.
omg, i love shane:D

haha. okay. that was madness. and you could probably tell that my study plan failed.
like totally FAILED. that's why hongbin said he doesn't dare to study at home. haha. wth.

Shane turned me lesbian, but Adam Levine turned me back straight, so i suppose i'm somewhere in between two of them. haha.

ahyo, isn't he the most handsome? i'm very superficial that way. haha:D

oh wait, and another adam, Adam G Sevani is my future husband. okay. celebrity crushes are crazy stuff. but he dances oh-so-well in step up 2! :D :D :D and i mentioned that he's my age? i need to scream. MOOSE!


Anyway, her character's so.. whats-the-word, bold. And her acting is great. like totally and completely believable(: they chose the right person to act as the playgirl man.

my Shane in real life isn't like that though. haha.
they both look great in short, short hair, they're both loyal to their friends (excuse season 5 episode 12 please.), they're both nice and understanding and they can both relate to people well.
except Shane on tv is a playgirl who isn't very well-educated. but she's so easygoing and happy and aww, i could gush on the entire day.

everyone, meet my Shane. :D

yeah she's totally what women want right. haha.*
omg, i need to drool.
this, everyone, is what tv shows do to you. (:

anyway, here's to prove my point that Shane has, HAS, HAS boobs. haha. she's no butch mann.

seeee alisha, she can be hot too right! not flat-chested lehh(:


this picture kinda gives me the impression of a combination of Shane and Moose (from step up 2). haha. don't you think so? :D *the hat thing. and omg i forgot, shane can dance! as in, clubbing-kind. :D :D :D

i, of course, took all of that out of my social studies textbook which has been in my hands for nearly the entire day. it amazes me how one Saddam Hussein could power the entire Iraq. luckily Shane isn't involved la(:
i promise to study harder the next week to make it up. i'm sorry!
i'm sorry that i, and perhaps another 10 million girls, love Shane so much that we have to do this.
(:
okay, i've gone mad. cya'll tmr.

goal for today:
finish studying SS.

yeah i grounded myself today, and i can't believe i turned down starbucks with hongbin. urgh.
but i seriously, seriously have to get down to studying.
i'm more or less done with bio,
maths is just okay,
add math is okay cept for last year's stuff,
geog can be finished pretty quickly,
econs so-so lah,
but my chem, my chem is in deeep, deep shit. and the worst part, i keep forgetting to get nat to teach me chem. nothing stays in my head.
oh mannn, i'm baked.

and it's just one week more till the start of MYEs.
if anyone sees me going out, please stop me and get me to study. oh unless it's of course, a study date. those work best(:

dad and ahma said that i've grown fatter. thanks alot ah.
after the Os, i'll go on a mad weight-losing spree. like dance everyday(:
but nvm, it's better to be my size than scrawny. being too skinny can be rather freaky. imagine hugging a skeleton. eww.

i've started this crazy obsession with MOOSE:D
from step up 2. anyone wants pictures/info, come to me!
oh and btw, he's born in 1992 too. so young right. (:

Bad love is better than no love.