lack of updates due to laziness.
i'm so bored of the computer that i hardly switch it on now, unbelievable as it is.
not that my time is spent on studying either. it's more to the new PS3 sitting around the living room.

anyway, i doubt people miss reading my blog but it doesn't really bother me cause i like blogging(:
not enough to spend the day in front of the computer though.

i've disastrously lost my sec 3 SS book, so i'm going to pray and pray that it doesn't come out for SBQ and i pick another topic for SEQ. the Iraq-Kuwait thing is super obvious, cause Mdm Azizan goes through it almost every SS lesson. as for english, i'm pretty demoralised by the 2006 TKGS MYE paper, so i'll just pray for that one as well.
but, i read the newspapers everyday now so that's an improvement kay(:

anyway, nothing rather eventful happened. except for the tall girl's hair issue. but i honestly admire her courage. if i were to face Mdm Lenny, i would've just surrendered cause she probably would squash me just by stepping on me. yes, and she can totally pull it off so, why not?

i like people who are frank.
and who aren't hypocritical. while it's really extremely hard to find such people in Tkgs, i'm happy to have maybe two of them in our clique(:
even if it isn't exactly music to my ears, i appreciate their courage, in a way.
i know i tend to be hypocritical sometimes. but it's not that bad, at least i defend my friends. (:

on the other hand, i've met some really horrid people recently.
this really, REALLY random guy added me to ask me to talk to his girlfriend.
i was like, wtf are you thinking?
i hate desperate people. and i really hate people with bad english.
and i hate people who whine. i don't usually hate people, or even hate, but it happens. and it happens now. it really really kills my day. so now i've got a whole list of blocked people and i've declined quite a few too.
annoying. have you people no life? or no attention? you know, you all should probably go to the toilet and lock yourselves in the whole day, let your shit come out the right way and wash your brains after that.

exhale.

i've convinced myself to stop taking everything so seriously.
from now on, i'm going to get my own life, and stop letting my thoughts stay on one person.
no matter how hard i try, or whatever i do, it's futile.
i'm not blind. i may be weaker than you, but i'll surpass everyone soon enough.

i know my "taste" now. (:
i like strong people. and i stop liking people either because they seem weak or they aren't confident enough. i don't run a charity; i can't spend my life picking it up for others cause i've got alot to handle too you know?
anyway, STRONG PEOPLE(: haha. okay, i know that's a totally weird standard to have. but there. i've finally found what they all have in common.
but of course, there are exceptions. some were probably just for fun.
yes,
i admit it. (sigh.)
and i think it's pretty obvious who lah.
i was in denial. and now i'm in a different sort.

whatever, i'll just be blind in school.
out of sight, out of mind.
(how convincing, yes?)

ah, how terrible.

i want Venice to come out(:
although it probably won't be that easy. but nvm, i like.
and i hope monday's english compre topic would be some story and not some scientific volcano rubbish. as long as it's interesting lah(:
and i hope the compo topic would be nice! i've already more or less set my mind on the one word topic. i'll really like something emo-ish, cause then i'll have alot of good stuff to write and i can score(;
easiest to write, easiest to fail.
if a speech comes out, i'm going to scream. hopefully it's some letter to some penpal. however, i think it's really disgusting that our school thinks we have penpals from other countries that we write to and try to impress or perhaps complain about our country for whatever reason.
it is really, seriously outdated. it's the worst misconception the school could have of us. it's an insult to our busy lives as well, cause i don't think it seems like we have so much free time to sit down and pen a letter. emails are, of course, an exception, don't get me wrong.

i really wish i wasn't so screwed up.

it's not that i like being like this either.
it's not normal. and it isn't acceptable as yet. and just because of it, i'm judged.
i enquire: is it fair?
i am realistic. it's part of my character. so don't tell me to ignore everyone else.

Even if it means for a day, its a good drug to get hooked onto.
But like all addictions and junkies, consequence is never a subsitute for reality.
asset.