tired. eye hurting like crap. don't know why. sigh. itchy and all. but im not supposed to rub and all.. really irritating.

im sneaking online once again. argh. im a rulebreaker. sad.

feeling abit sentimental now. looking at all the stuff given to me by other people, especially the thais. ^_^"

today we practised the literature thing.. was quite a failure i guess. O_O people were like having moodswings and being irritating and some fell out with each other. but of ocurse, i remained very neutral, as i do not claim to be a close friend with anyone in my group, except maybe BENITA.

TGIF. tomorrow it'll be a long day of rehearsals i guess. O_O finally managed to catch up with the other girls in mr litao's performance item.. sincei skipped two of his rehearsals since i was in camp. we have finished one of his items. ^_^ can't wait to finish ms lee's second item. sigh. but until the performance, its gonna be a hell load of rehearsals.

i shall sleep early today. ^_^ like nine something. and wake up as late as possible tomorrow morning. my eyes are like bloodshot and zombie-ish, and my skin is showing signs of LACK OF BEAUTY SLEEP. which means BLEMISHES IN MY SKIN. argh.

OMG- i FINALLY have a nice photo. ME, CORDELIA, ANN, SOFIA, TRAINER ALEX :), ZAKI and ANOTHER TRAINER (forgot the name. oops.). omg. nice nice. im so happy.

AND OMG- MUM JUST BOUGHT ME A NIKE SWIMSUIT. lol. its like blue and black. pretty cool. i dont look fat in it, i think. so its nice. ^_^ NIKE. whoo.

AND, ashley loves russell peters and hard gay as much as i do. HAPPY HAPPY. then we were like talking about hard gay during lunch and no one else could understand us. LOL. rachel was like: "what's that?" ROFL.

okay, ive just been sent into a very very hyper mood. its crazy. CRAZY. whoots. okay. better stop, in case i let out something im not supposed to say..

oh yeah- i have alot of things im nto supposed to say.. later SOMEONE get in trouble.. muahaha. but of ocurse, being the nice me, i shall not abuse the unusual authority.

OKAY. BYEEEEEEEEEE :))

im home. from a day at parkway. went there after school for a short while, before rushing to serangoon mrt (only to realise that i was extremely early) to meet td, and went back to parkway. O_O

walked around and bought stuff. skipped lunch. no appetite. i shant spend tomorrow. IM BROKE. argh. again. sheesh.

im now very, very tired. even though ive been an extremely guai girl cause ive been sleeping early. somehow i think im overworking my body, but of course, cant stop now. ^_^ shall persevere until after the august performance and my inter. foundation exam. and after that, apart from coming home early to sleep, I SHALL CUT MY HAIR. long awaited haircut. havent cut my hair since last december. long long ago. ^_^"

side-tracked. oops. haha. yeah, so after i watch my few minutes of tv im going to SLEEP. guai.

and after so long, im still missing my dear MINT, my thai partner who left many days ago. O_O and missing the camp. no, not the GUYS from the camp (people liek to insist that i do, when i dont), but EVERYTHING about the camp. the people, trainers, food (actually, no), the activities, the dorms (not really), the toilets (lacking of toilet paper), the FUN, the THRILLS.

school's OKAY, if not for the fact that i AM coping along with everyone else in class, and im guai-er. (yeah right, you might be thinking. cant blame you.) the teachers HOWEVER, really PISS me OFF. i mean, WHERES THE PROFESSIONAL THING? stop having your weird moodswings and all. and stop all the tests. ^_^

and im currently being a nice person and handing out testimonials to people. on friendster. because, im bored. because, im nice. because, some are long overdue. because, i know some people love them. because of many other reasons too. but not because i want more for myself. no, i am not those kind of people, i am PURE. (yeah right, again..) load of bullshit.

oops, been found out by dad. so i shall go off.. O_O
OKAY. ciao. syonara. byebye. love you all loads.

OMG IM RUSHING.
yeah, i have to fly to ballet later. FLY FLY.

IM SO HAPPY; im not wasting my thursday away. ^_^
and seems like my sch dance teacher will be away for oral..
SO, i dont think im having dance tomorrow and next week.
except for combined dance of course..
however, ballet and rehearsals go on even stronger than before.. whoopee?

erm, in case you're feeling rich and wna watch us perform:
VICTORIA THEATRE, 5 and 6 August.
Ticket sales $28 (circle 2), $35 (circle 1), and $45 (stall)
i feel circle 1 seats are the best.
you get to see our formations and all. ^_^

its a tad expensive, but its really ALOT of dances, with the SHANGHAI DANCE TROUPE.
major project for us singaporeans. thats why im so extremely busy for an ordinary schoolgirl.

yesterday's STEP campers outing was a failure; and bryan ended up going down orchard alone, and we went out movie-ing. watched just my luck, and after that movie, seems like our luck went DOWN, i tripped over a whole lot of things, and small little unlucky thigns happened..
worse still, my friend ended up with a sprained arm today.

speak of luck. im trying to believe its a pure coincidence and no such things exist; yes of course, its just me being paranoid.

ARGH. im late im late.
still have loads i want to say.. but i cant. maybe later on i guess. rushed home from a very fun lunch with ashley, rachel, denise and syafiqah. damned funny. should have seen us. especially my darling ashley. WHOO.

i treated syaf and ashley to drinks. how nice of me- even though im extremely broke. argh. who gives a shit about money when it comes to making your friends happy and having fun?

no time to scroll through blogskins. argh. no time to eat. shouldnt have stayed until so late. sian.

and guess what? im now hopelessly in love with MCFLY. WHOOO. love them. ^_^

ignorance is cute, yet irritatingly annoyingly frustrating. but still, very very cute. and i think blur people are adorable. im weird, I KNOW. :DD *just so you know, there are many hidden meanings behind this.

*ALOT OF TEXT MISSING*

PS.
YM: love your present. thanks. you're a great friend.

BYEE.

should i be happy?
cause ive got one very important thing (to me) sorted out, and im throughly relieved.

BUT, i have another small issue which i blew up, and it hasnt been sorted out yet. well, this whole thing is from the STEP camp. last night this New Town Sec person asked me out along with the rest of the STEP campers to go down orchard for the day. (its actually today) and i wanted to bring along the Gan Eng Seng School people along with me, so i asked if that was okay.. turns out that quite a few people didnt like the GESS guys, and told me that it was best not to bring them along.

but, i won't leave one school in the lurch. this whole camp was supposed to bond the singaporeans as well, not just the thais. and it wasnt meant to make schools compete and dislike each other (for some weird reason i dont know about). and i really wanted to go for the outing.. WITH the GESS people. so apparently i was directed to the 'lao da' of the group, BRYAN, who didnt reply me at all. JACKASS.

i have a hitch that they only invited the 'popular clique of people' along. im not one of the 'populars', but somehow im 'invited' (like its supposed to be some great honour O_O). i suspect people like bryan, naz, mark, theo, hadad, hadiyah, the NTS people, the stinking bunch of minahs from anderson, the other stinking bunch of ah lians from i dont know what school, some popular wannabes from river valley and some other unknowns (to me).

and turns out that i was the only one asked from my school. how great. like im supposed to represent my school. im surprised vejaya and suzanna werent asked along.. really surprising. they didnt ask dunman high and GESS i think. bunch of school-ists. the GESS person wasnt keen on going, but was 'touched' (*cough cough*) by all the trouble i took to bring them along, and we made a compromise. the best thing is, those NTS jerks havent replied me yet.. so im crashing the party with 'Tom Cruise', and if they aren't happy then we'll go elsewhere.

if only the friendly thais were still here, hopefully none of this would have happened, and we would ALL (every single person from every single school) bring our thai partners and go parading down orchard, which also = human jam.

i just made a big deal of of nothing. O_O but that's the way i am and i won't leave my friends out for anything in the world. and i wont believe what i heard from hadad about other schools until i see it for myself. i choose to believe that everyone is nice. ^_^

people issues.

well, i dont want to give a shit about this, cause im celebrating for myself, since i 'got back' something that was important to me. but then again, im also in mourning.. for my fallen brazil.

and after whatever outing i have today, i have to rush to my dance rehearsal, and i also have to go for my ballet class after that. and this schedule is probably gonna continue till august. its extremely sad. and thursday will be my only day off, so im gonna use it wisely. ^_^

shaun's going out too today. so that will leave the house empty. and quiet.

alright, going down to have my breakfast and slack till i leave the house. dreading/anticipating what will happen later. alright, hope i don't blow it up too big. ^_^
okay. BYEE.

ohayo. not properly awake yet, but nvm.

my schedule for today: 1-3.30pm Intermediate Foundation class, 5pm Costume Measuring, 6pm onwards Rehearsal for August Performance.

busy busy me. and again, i have a gap to fill between 3.30 and 5. hope that someone stays with me and keeps me company :(

my internet keeps disconnecting itself. how cool is that? O_o and most of the time i cant do much about it. its troublesome.

someone's sending me hardcore songs. and im forced to listen. haix. nvm, change of genre for a while. then i'll aprreciate my normal rock and all other genres more.

im running out of things to blog, seems like these past few days i hardly have any BLOGGABLE things to blog about. most of them may sent people into trouble, including myself, or cause misunderstandings and stuff. or its too personal. >.< *sigh*

i admit that im just a fool for you.

thank god tomorrow is a holiday.