mum and i seem to share a most peculiar relationship.

when all three of her kids make a mistake,
i get it the most heavily. the most scoldings, and complete ignorance after that.
(for weeks.) (i think even getting whacked is better.)

when she can't decide what to cook,
she takes into deep consideration my current craving.

when she's in a bad mood,
i talk to her. and she tells me things about the other two that can be quite disturbing.
and she feels better. (i hope.)

when i make a pact with her,
she expects me to keep it completely.
i can't come home at 6:01 if i say i'll be home at 6:00.
shaun however, can go out as long as he likes, and use whatever he wants as long as he likes.
ines gets full access to the computer (mind you, she's only seven) when she wants it.
and i have a ridiculous computer curfew at 11:00pm every night.

when i get scolded,
i cry only when it's from mum. (i may stare back at just walk off with teachers.)

when she makes me angry,
i get angry for weeks. and i see both sides but refuse to talk to her. (pride issues.)
she makes me angrier by not even bothering.

and when valentine's day comes,
mum buys me a present.
"happy valentine's day noelle."
i told you- we share a peculiar relationship.
ines doesn't get any, neither does shaun.
maybe we're cheating on dad.

she told me last year that she just felt like buying something cause she saw everyone buying something, even demanding for the heart-shaped packaging that the lady was reluctant to give, cause she thought it was weird for an older woman to buy a necklace for someone's vday present. (couples everywhere, noted.)
and she got me another present this year.
a perlini's silver necklace last year, a gorgeous tee this year.
thanks mum(:

when no one else is here for me,
at least i have her.
aww shucks. i'm tearing.
haha.

this awesome song (buckcherry - sorry) goes out to the most beautiful person i know.
i'm truly losing out. on you. don't ever regret anything(: cause you're the best.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all the things i said to you

And i know, i can't take it back

I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds

and baby, the way you make my world go round

and i just wanted to say, i'm sorry.

hello y'all.
happy valentine's day, if it means so much to everyone.
yes, it's actually me,
and yes, i'm actually at home blogging right about now.

in case you're wondering (highly doubtful there) why i'm here and not out,
i'll tell you that i'm just not in the valentining mood.
i don't know how i ended up turning down hongbin's goodhearted offer to watch Jumper with me, and even going to amanda's hosue to slack/do econs project.

there are so many good movies coming out today anyway(:
step up 2, jumper, ps i love you, and all.
mum agreed to sponsor me one movie with shaun. and i think we're going on saturday before the dinner at don't-know-where.

oh and yes,
thanks to everyone who gave me something today,
cause it means alot! yes. even though 80% of them are somewhere in my alimentary canal, (sarah's cookies are damn good.) i'll remember the thought behind them.
and now i'm kicking myself for not even preparing anything for anyone.
i'm such an ingrate.

so today,
school was a blur.
everyone was rushing around, gushing over presents, smiling like twits and some just looked damn sian.
i think it's quite happening this year. last year's 14th feb didn't seem so significant to me.
unless i was too caught up in my world to notice.
i probably was.
but anyway! for most of the day we were laughing at people in the TKSS yearbook.
and holy cow, alisha looked so funny(; sarah's friend was apparently absent for the class photo, so we didn't have a chance to gush.
abigail's brother was yes, obscenely gesturing at the teachers b**bs.
abigail calls that "a dirty act". haha. well. at least it isn't intentional!

there was this guy (some teacher or principal) who was like obviously cut out from another picture and pasted on an empty chair right in the centre of other so-called important people.
it was freaking hilarious la!
he looked so bright compared to everyone else. maybe it was the flash.
and guess who i saw-
i saw that funny guy from my tuition in there.
as well as the 'gay'. (:

chem and bio SPA were both bullshit today, although i think chem's quite fun.
and i stained my hand yellow with potassium iodide (again).
it's starting to fade off anyway, but the last time lasted for a week cause it was acidified potassium iodide.
i'm such a careless person. haha.
i was the first to complete the bio SPA:D so mr peh let me off first. i was like ten minutes early for recess? haha.

but it'll be really cool if we had real steroids.
(: mr peh once told us that a girl had injected some testosterone (the guy sex hormones, which is also a steroid:O) into her body.
and after a few days, she grew MUSCLES! holy cow. but side effects: she grew a moustache too.
she had like broader shoulders and everything.
this sucks. oestrogen shuold have some muscle-growing effects too. and we'll be walking around with a full six-pack:D

okay, that'll be freaky. drop that.

we're REALLY ordering macs breakfast tmr!
:D after netball (PE). i'm totally looking forward to it.
and we're REALLY REALLY gonna do it this time okay.
(after three or four failed attempts cause no one actually called.)

the rest was like slack.
except that mdm goh yelled at me during class
"Noelle, stop dreaming. Why? Are you thinking of what to wear tonight?"
zzzzzz. i felt like rolling my eyes so badly.
haha. ms lee went off to pulau semakau with 4/8 so we didn't have math(:,
and during english we were at the IT resource room.
we watched the 2003 Debate Finals.
so cool, MS GILL WAS LIKE ON THE PROPOSITION TEAM:D
(she was our sec two history teacher:D)
and the speakers were all really energetic. and yelling and being sarcastic and dramatic all at once.
with hugehuge arm movements. really vigorous.

so here i am,
bingeing (oh no!) on ruffles and sarah's cookies,
and here's the next big word:
alone.
lol.
maybe it's cause the people i wanna dedicate my day to are already spending it with other people (that's rather obvious) and i'm kinda gloomy that i'm you know,
(next big word coming:)
single.

i think i'm getting a phobia of Vday.
okay fine, i know i'm being a pussy about it and all!

but it's just any other day, i miss that what's-its-face, and today it's just really magnified.

i just hope you're happy. (:

and just to note,

it sure as hell isn't samuel ow.

i'm so totally procrastinating now.
i'm supposed to be studying math for tmr's test):

haha. if it weren't for that,
i'll be quite happy now:D
i got my english compo back today. and i got a big fat 22.
upon 30:D
and although chinese compre today was totally bullshit cause i couldn't understand anything, tikamed the entire close passage and copied maybe the entire passage, (all the wrong parts even)
i don't care! haha.
mdm tan was like yelling so much, she made more noise than the noisiest class.
the loud group of people walking along the corridor must've been scared quiet.
lol(;

and i was really much happier yesterday.
cause i've got a freaking A2 for biology this term!
YESSSS:D
my hard work paid off mannnn. i didn't expect to even pass the CA paper, so yeah. i'm happy(:
from an C6 (justified okay!) last year!
:D
um. but i know when i tell mum all my fantastic results..
she'll only remember one.
a terrible failure for the Amath formative. like 11/40! lol. amanda got like twice of what i did luh.
i feel kinda cheated cause i know how to do everything now. (tuition)
BUT,
LOOK HERE.
32/40 FOR EMATH!
OMG. I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA FAIL THAT ONE CAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING LUH(:

i hate ms lee.
she's so mean luh.
she keeps picking on some girls, plus she insults our intelligence in class luh.
"you want to know the fact? the fact is that none of you got above 42 for end of years last year."
(mind you, her english and her pronunciation is hopeless.)
"you fail only because of two things: you never study or you never learn."
and um,
"even though who passed got a lousy pass. 21, 22 marks only."
and she's like trying to get people to drop amath!
"if you don't even understand such simple concept, it shows that you are not cut out for amaths."
like every lesson? lol. my ears are quite used to it.
wahlao. those who wanna learn kena scolded, those who are trying all kena discouraged.
thank you uh ms lee.
you have a wonderful voice and your accent is the most accurate i've ever heard.

i'm really scared for SS and geog.
cause from what mdm azizan said, i think i wrote totally off for SBQ (stupid cartoon laaaa.) and scored myself an egg.
and geog was like confusing cause everyone interpreted the triangular graph differently?
hoho. i just hope i pass SS. it seems like a terrible term for SS):

i'm home really early today,
like straight after school.
:D
*angel halo*
i've got a shitload of chinese worksheets to do, and as well as tmr's math test.
which i pray hard i don't fail!
>_<

i've abandoned the no-degree specs obsession sadly.
haha. i'm using the money to go and eat at nick's restaurant:D
i kinda agreed before even knowing what was going on, but luckily i asked shaun when i came home last night.
which was like 11? thanks uh mr seow.
but yeah, sounds good:D and i get to meet them all after like, half a year maybe?
yayy(: i'm like such a foodie.

daphne came to school one eye bigger than the other today.
cause i think she was wearing only one contact lens.
lol. amanda was singing the won't go home without you song by maroon five,
and i sang too(; it must've been pretty annoying. haha.
i wanna go watch maroon 5 live:D
:D:D:D:D:D

from yesterday's tuition, i figure mr seow's gonna call me:
ditry rotten scumbag
for the rest of my life thereD: i mean like, i didn't even do anything except write gloria and note and smile and perhaps eat yet another packet of gummies.
he also added that i'm the type of girl that he tells his daughter never to mix with.
?????
all i could say was like: mr seow you're so mean.
and he persisted.
so i suppose i join the bunch of mr-seow-named people, such as the gay, the cheekopek, harry potter and i dont know who else.
):
i'm so sad luh. i mean, maybe it's cause i eat all the time in class? and i make everyone hungry?
lol:D i think the weird tkss guy doesn't have a nickname.
it would be fun-ner(:
i think he was like staring at me in class, and dear gloria beside me kept laughing.
see la~ SABO ME. D:
haha.

oh yeah.
i'm erm, down for high jump.
sports day. bleaugh. i prefer cross country:D
crap):

i will not touch novels till wednesday.
it's gonna be hard but i've gotta try.
cause wed's like the math ca and after that the week's free.
go me! (:

so yeah, i've finished running through the chapter.
i mean, i don't really know how to study 'development' cause most of it is common sense and there isn't actually anything to memorise you know?
therefore, i'm kinda scared.
i hate tests that can't really be studied for.
reminder: last week's SS test. bleaugh.

so as you've probably guessed, we came home from borders at parkway with books!
:D
haha. it was kinda funny cause we used this dicuont vouchers that were emailed and then printed out.
and we only had one. so mum went to photocopy it! haha. how cool is that.
you can photocopy like ten copies! but it's like 30 or 40% discount off per book. plus the member's 10% off.
(:

and yes, i do realise that i'm blogging about nothing in particular.
and it's everyday. and i know it's damn boring.
but i mean, i need/want to kill time.
and i think i'm having this addiction to blogging cause i'm way too lazy to keep a diary.
you'll probably see the word lazy from me everyday.
(:
oh wait,
D:

is the strategies part tested?
i remember her saying that it isn't. but like, i really don't care cause i'm in a stoning mood.
i just want to sit here and stare at the computer.
head resting on one arm, slouching (yes, you see it.) and eyes half open (half closed.)
i miss watching tv mannn.

okay. i've realised i pick up one vice from every person i'm with.
if you check back, i don't usually use the word "mannn" but it happens so frequently now.
(it's quite obvious who that one came from.)
haha. and another vice would probably be book addiction.
(very obvious too. which other sarcastic prat could it be? :D)
as well as um, i don't think.
i'm trying to think hard but i think it's probably too normal for me now that i don't realise it.

ooops.

anddd,
we dropped by auntie alice's place today.
jonathan wasn't in but auntie alice said he scored like an A2 for chinese?
OMG. i've never even heard him speak chinese! since i was born??
O:
and he scored really really well!
auntie alive is the most understanding mum that you could ever pray for.
she has such absolute faith in her son and would never, ever hurt him.
she told him that it's totally okay if you don't score well.
and she would be happy with anything he got.
(and for once, the parent means it.)
and i heard from mum that she even told him not to study so hard!
OOOO:

and look at his 11 points.
wow.
not that i don't like my mum but sometimes, reverse psychology works!
okay. i know my mum knows that it won't work on me.
D:
but i think auntie alice is really really cool(:

she gave mum this huge bag of goodies for a belated christmas present.
and most of it went to me.
:D
lemme see.
M.A.C pro longwear lustre lipcolour
BOBBI BROWN shimmer lip gloess
OLAY total effects anti-aging eye cream
BECCA jewel dust
and L'OREAL ReFinish Micro-Dermabrasion Kit.

omg how totally cool is that!
haha. fine. mum kept the best for herself and gave me the rest but i'm still like damn happy:D
cause it's all damned nice. seriously! seriously it's nice.
:D :D :D :D :D
i feel pampered(;
mum gave me all the cream and stuff cause she's on this new skin treatment thingy.
and can only only use stuff from that line of products.
so yeah(: finally, i wave goodbye to my eyebags.
:D :D :D :D :D

but anyway, i can just borrow whatever i didn't get.
like um, the bobbi brown lipstick and the DIOR BACKSTAGE MASCARA!
:D wooooooohoooooooooo.
haha. i'm such a hopeless girl.

somemore auntie alice was like:
eh sam, i want you to try the don't know what cream la.
and in the end, it's MINE(:
i'll make enough money to buy everything.
and then it won't mean a thing to me.
like, small small peanut.
my ambition(:

i just ran down and i saw I NOT STUPID TOO on tv.
and it was like the porn cd part.
and i was laughing like mad when everyone took out their handphone cameras to film the teacher-student violence part.
they were all hiding their handphones previously when the teacher was checking??
oh man. jack neo's stuff really makes me laugh/cry.

anyway.
i've just started getting mum and dad to promise me stuff if i score well for Os.
it's the impetus for me(;
mum said any ipod i want and i think dad said anything i want.
i'll make sure not to go too overboard, don't worry mum and dad(:
yes yes.

money makes my world go round:D
$_$
haha. you all might think that i'm a materialist,
but i'm not. i'll prefer to spend it with people who make it worthwhile to spend.
like go out, have fun, and laugh.

i'm a deprived kid.
deprived of dirty fun.

tomorrow:
school.
geog ca.
tuition in the evening.
hmmm.

and if you have a minute why don't we go

talk about it- somewhere only we know

this is my 395th post!
O:

haha. i'm such a sucker la.
everytime you come here you'll probably see something new cause i blog like, on an average of one per day?
for now i mean. wait till all the crazy CAs some on again.
D:
agony. argh.

i'm going to borders for some crazy book shopping.
plus maybe remind dad that he's to buy my present:D
(which would probably be simple plan's live album if i can find it:D)

it was kinda funny cause i just read td's blog,
and he said i was quiet.
x) haha. it's like the first time man! when i'm quiet, i'm probably too tired to hold a decent conversation or i simple have no idea what to say.
but i couldn't have kept quiet for like a year right?
and i remember myself as 'damn crazy' when i was in sec two. screaming and running around.
i think i was quite a bimbo back then too>_<
but anyway,
cool(;

i'm starting to like paramore.
i've always thought it was just noise but they seem to be quite good(:

i've been having some really weird dreams nowadays.
which always seem to be about whatever's happening the next day.
but they don't come true. it's a bad thing):
haha. like i dreamt about bumping into someone i knew while walking down the streets.
okay. fine. it's much more than just 'bumping into'!
i dreamt we were actually talking. and in other cases, more.

and since i had nothing on this morning,
after a very short while of studying, i went back into the mad blogshopping mood.
i was so tempted to buy a shirtdress:D
but cny's like almost over anyway (or at least the visiting is)
and i have no other reason for a brand new dress,
i didn't.
DDDDDDDDDD:
hopeless right? haha.

i feel as though i'm reliving the entire last year with the mad crushes.
and the no-good-reason emo pangs.
just cause things are like this now.
?? haha.

anyway.
i'm gonna start bitching about CNY.
cause after three days, i've actually put on weight.
D:
!!!
#!$$()*#(&!&^*****
and i've got things which i hate more than any bitch or politically incorrect PAP leader-
PIMPLES.
D:

i'm gonna go on a mad fat-burning regime after this.
haha. and stay away from my tight tops):