mum and i seem to share a most peculiar relationship.

when all three of her kids make a mistake,
i get it the most heavily. the most scoldings, and complete ignorance after that.
(for weeks.) (i think even getting whacked is better.)

when she can't decide what to cook,
she takes into deep consideration my current craving.

when she's in a bad mood,
i talk to her. and she tells me things about the other two that can be quite disturbing.
and she feels better. (i hope.)

when i make a pact with her,
she expects me to keep it completely.
i can't come home at 6:01 if i say i'll be home at 6:00.
shaun however, can go out as long as he likes, and use whatever he wants as long as he likes.
ines gets full access to the computer (mind you, she's only seven) when she wants it.
and i have a ridiculous computer curfew at 11:00pm every night.

when i get scolded,
i cry only when it's from mum. (i may stare back at just walk off with teachers.)

when she makes me angry,
i get angry for weeks. and i see both sides but refuse to talk to her. (pride issues.)
she makes me angrier by not even bothering.

and when valentine's day comes,
mum buys me a present.
"happy valentine's day noelle."
i told you- we share a peculiar relationship.
ines doesn't get any, neither does shaun.
maybe we're cheating on dad.

she told me last year that she just felt like buying something cause she saw everyone buying something, even demanding for the heart-shaped packaging that the lady was reluctant to give, cause she thought it was weird for an older woman to buy a necklace for someone's vday present. (couples everywhere, noted.)
and she got me another present this year.
a perlini's silver necklace last year, a gorgeous tee this year.
thanks mum(:

when no one else is here for me,
at least i have her.
aww shucks. i'm tearing.
haha.

this awesome song (buckcherry - sorry) goes out to the most beautiful person i know.
i'm truly losing out. on you. don't ever regret anything(: cause you're the best.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all the things i said to you

And i know, i can't take it back

I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds

and baby, the way you make my world go round

and i just wanted to say, i'm sorry.