ello.
extremely bored.
finally pestered my mum to let me go online.
haiz.
again i feel like im CONTROLLED.

changing my blogskin AGAIN..
i just cant seem to find the ONE.
*pissed*
tried to talk to my mum about the guitar issue..
but it was a failure.
O_O
even though i volunteered to foot all the costs.

shes WEIRD.

AHH.
this family computer is EXTREMELY slow.
it takes at least two minutes to load up a page.
AT LEAST.

reading the SEVEN HABITS OF HIGHLY EFFECTIVE TEENS.
its a good book.
but i dont need it.
im already surviving very well on my own.

going out with my parents and shaun and ines later..
to 'celebrate' his birthday.
with uncle ben, auntie susan, ryan and rachel.
at this weird ooloo restaurant place near acjc.
its SHAUN'S celebration.
but he nearly got scolded for wanting to go somewhere else.
and my mum said something about me walking like a slut and wearing my jeans too low.
or something that sounded like that.
ARGH- GET OFF MY BACK ALREADY.

its my business how i walk.
i dont think its SLUTTISH..
so im not giving a DAMN.
and my jeans are supposed to be worn at my HIP.
not aat WAIST level.
and its not even that low la.

ihatethisabsolutelylousycomputer.

im talking to natasha on the phone now..
haha. she cant go for sunday class anymore..
so im left all alone. HMPH.
she pangseh me AGAIN.

giving up on searching for a nice blogskin on this computer.
its such a waste of my life waiting for the page to load up.
AHHH.

okay. im going mad from the total BOREDOM.
i cant do much on this computer.
and i have no shows to watch,
and i cant go out.
oh. erm. now.. WHEREVER i go, i have to inform my mum.
like even if im just going to a mall for LUNCH.
or buying my home econs materials like on thursday.
like EVERYWHERE.
it really sucks. haha.

and i have to smile and say OKAY to my parents.
or else i'll get scolded.
wtf la. i might as well buy a mask and wear it 24/7.
its not like im DAO-ing them or anything.
argh.
and im not allowed to retort.
no BUTS. just agree to everything.
and let things be the way they want it to be.
its like im living the life THEY had always wanted.
and not my own life. how great.
and my mum still says that all parents want their kids to be happy.
and i HAVE to agree.
but i mean- LOOK AT HER.
...

havent gotten shaun anything for his birthday yet.
i mentioned getting drumsticks to him though.
but he only trusts two brands..
forgot which two.*
and its quite ex i think.
but again.. alot of things are ex,
bcus im so broke.

got ines' present already though. :))


the well of inspiration has run dry.
im out of things to blog. honestly.
okay. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

WHEEE.
erm. gotta speed up.
cause shaun wants to use.

OKAY.
hmm nothing much to blog leh.
only that ive cleared up the mess with my mum.
more or less la.
and she gave me this book..
THE SEVEN HABITS OF HIGHLY EFFECTIVE TEENS.
as if im THAT depressed and need such a book anyways.
O_O
you should go try reading it one day.

and shaun has got his blog up.
with my help of course.
finally my brother BLOGS.
:))

school today was okay lahs.
had a talk by this guy called william.
hes such a genius.
hes paralysed waist down though.
but he did ten marathons in seventy days in seven continents.
talk about strong arms sia. O_O
and he went to harvard and oxford.
but he has got this chinese accent.
so its kinda weird.
i felt like sleeping halfway though.
not bcus it was stupid..
but it wasnt THAT entertaining and i WAS tired.

and then was supposed to go wisma with faith and ashley.
but ashley and faith both had to go and meet their mums.
and faith has a dental appointment after that..
imagine how STONED i was.

the day of pure boredom.
ahh.

oh wells.
its extremely nice and gloomy.
as in the WEATHER.
haha.

shall upload my blogskin SOON..
when i get my internet back.
haha.

YOO.
in com lab slacking.
and my pathetic chinese tcher is a techno dinosaur.

IM SUCH A FAILURE.
I CANT DO ONE THING RIGHT.
not ONE.
i feel like SUCH A FAILURE.
AAAHHHHHHHHH.

hahaha. im so freakign tired.
attempted my freeze pose again.
but kept falling. pathetic me la.

faiths having a problem assessing my blog.
hoho.

hello
<33 peace out
-ashley!!!

yeah- shes right beside me.
hoho. we're a obvious bunch of SLACKERSSSSSS.
me, faith and ashley.

yesterday was crap.
today is also crap.
the only thing thats SLIGHTLY improvign is my results.
for ONCE.

im bored too, ashley.
and im banned from comp.
my parents have returned my monitor though..
but not my INTERNET CONNECTION.
argh. ARGHH.
my mums WEIRDDD.
and im still at a cold war with her.
its kind of amusing..
how the both of us are being so bloody immature.
*and shaun can be SUCH a busybody.

our carnival day dance isnt really that good..
but its improving too.
but its still so pathetically SHORT.
I WANNA USE THE SONG BEEP BY PCD.
NOT SOME WEIRD SONG BY SEAN PAUL.

i <3 my notebook.
LOADS. and LOADS.
and i love the freak nazurah's new phone.
NOKIA 3250.. the pink one.
but the green one rocks MUCH more.
but i wont be able to get one..
boo.
my phones been confiscated by my mum.
i think she thinks that it will help my situation..
but i dont think so. haha.
and i have just found out that theres a HOTEL 81 near my house.
the thought of it is quite distracting.

i hate going home.
HATE.

i wanted to bring ashle to punggol beach..
but she says she wna study.
acting guai la.
WEIRD.
just played this weird game of finding weird people..
like fishermen and cowgirls.
its for LEGACY.. which is like MORAL EDUCATION in our school.
OMGOMGOMG. my form tcher really sucks.
haha.

and im going to pester her to go for big walk with me.
im not sure if shaun still wants to go..
its inconvenient if hes not talking to me. lol.
and it sucks without a phone.
REALLY SUCKS.

faiths attempting the weird findign people game.
its amusing to see her faking enthusiasm and interest in the game.
ashley's finding all of the people before her though..
what a bunch of kiasu typical tkgs girls.

thinking about yesterday again.
haha. feel failure-ish.
feel like kicking myself left riht and center..
but obviously i cant. haha.

oh. i felt very vicious two nights ago.
very. i went to chop up most of my neoprints.
it just shocked me to find out how much $$ i spent on neoprints with that GIRL.
that two faced backstabbing TOOT.
PS- faith says hi. O_O
that idiotic girl.
so i chopped off her head in various places.. hoho
gota go. BYEEE.

IM BLOGGING.
\WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

okay.erm. O_O
haha.

yes- im at a cold war with my mum.
:))
but its not the end of the world... YET.
erm. erm. yeah.
..................................

i think shes been keeping in touch with my tchers lately.
cause she seems to know EVERY SINGLE 'event' that i have.
yeah. shes being a CONTROL FREAK.
as usual. haha. and im being a REBEL.
muahahaha.

erm. im aching like hell.
bcus i was attempting the freeze thing the whole yesterday evening.
you know the weird pose with two legs up in the air?
yeah. THAT one.
bcus i saw shihua do it.. then i was tempted to try lors.
managed to do a few times..
then afterwards no strength lor.
then keep falling. :P

THERES A REALLYYYYYYY IRRITATING IDIOT NEAR ME.

had PE first.. played hockey..
whacked ellaisha's leg VERY HARD with my stick.
SORRY ELLAISHA*
and then there was MATHS..
and i got back my spring test paper..
and guess how much i got?
i got like full marks.
first time in my entire secondary school life that i got full marks for maths.
:))

then had literature today.
was supposed to present the idividual poem recital thingy..
but i didnt in the end.
so im presenting TOMORROW.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
*shut up*
okay.

*JUST SHUT UP LA. FREAKING NOISY LEHS.*

oh yeah.
then was supposed to go and meet mrs tan (maths tcher)
during recess..
bcus i didnt hand up THE piece of homework that she set a few weeks ago..
but obviously she wouldnt listen to me..
so i had to redo the whole stupid assignment.
but instead i went off to eat first..
haha. :))

then had ENGLISH.
aAAAAHHHH.
had to present my entrepreneur project thingy.
then i was doing the intro for my group la..
it weas FREAKY. haha. and plus we were like the SECOND group?
hoho.
but i guess it was alright la.
except for CAI MIAO.
she managed to get like EVERYONE's attention.
FLIRT. HOPELESS FLIRT.
STOP FLIRTING CAI MIAO.*

then had history..
where we spent the first part of the lesson talking about the shameless MOTHER GOOSE and her observations of girls sitting with their legs wide open.
SHAMELESS OLD WOMAN. >.<
her DETAILED observations.
WHAT A PERV.
okay. then last period..
had maths ca.
IT WASNT THAT BAD..
i did more than i usually could. :))
but im gonna fail. BETTING ON THAT.

oh yeah.
i got in for the AUSTRALIAN MATHS COMPETITION.
second year in counting.
and my maths is like.. SO HORRIBLE.
and less than 8 girls got in?
haha. feel a weird sense of accomplishment.
but this doesnt prove that im not stupid either..

and im going for STEP programme.
which stands for Singapore Thailand Enhancement Partnership Exchange Programme.
blablabla. and so i have i go for the MOE camp.
and ill have a thailand girl following me EVERYWHERE i go for the last three days of the june hols.
EVERYWHERE.

im basically blogging crap..
bcus i dont know if i shuold put what i really think UP.
cause im afraid that my mum reads and gets even more upset.
ah well..

my greatest wish now..
is for her to really 100% UNDERSTAND.
UNDERSTAND her troublesome daughter. :))
she tends to take certain things ABIT too seriously though..

oh. and to add on to what maryam said on my blog..
about my obsession of losing weight.
IM GROWING FAT OKAYS..
put on like 1.5kg since the last time i measured.
AHHHHHHH. and my mum isnt even FIFTY.
hmph.

and im also at a war with my beloved bro..
but he can be SUCH a pain. SUCH a pain.
but im not blaming him bcus hes just doing what he thinks is right.
:))

yes. blogger rocks much more than livejournal.
DANSE FE'LINE SUR CORDES
is on FIFTEEN MAY. erm. tickets are..
TEN BUCKS?
so cheapo la. CHEAPO.
at seven thirtyy.
im NOT asking my family. FINAL. :))
especially INES.

okay. running out of things say.
to blog. ERM.
*FINE dont then dont lah. big deal.*
>.<
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
*irritated.*