ello.
extremely bored.
finally pestered my mum to let me go online.
haiz.
again i feel like im CONTROLLED.

changing my blogskin AGAIN..
i just cant seem to find the ONE.
*pissed*
tried to talk to my mum about the guitar issue..
but it was a failure.
O_O
even though i volunteered to foot all the costs.

shes WEIRD.

AHH.
this family computer is EXTREMELY slow.
it takes at least two minutes to load up a page.
AT LEAST.

reading the SEVEN HABITS OF HIGHLY EFFECTIVE TEENS.
its a good book.
but i dont need it.
im already surviving very well on my own.

going out with my parents and shaun and ines later..
to 'celebrate' his birthday.
with uncle ben, auntie susan, ryan and rachel.
at this weird ooloo restaurant place near acjc.
its SHAUN'S celebration.
but he nearly got scolded for wanting to go somewhere else.
and my mum said something about me walking like a slut and wearing my jeans too low.
or something that sounded like that.
ARGH- GET OFF MY BACK ALREADY.

its my business how i walk.
i dont think its SLUTTISH..
so im not giving a DAMN.
and my jeans are supposed to be worn at my HIP.
not aat WAIST level.
and its not even that low la.

ihatethisabsolutelylousycomputer.

im talking to natasha on the phone now..
haha. she cant go for sunday class anymore..
so im left all alone. HMPH.
she pangseh me AGAIN.

giving up on searching for a nice blogskin on this computer.
its such a waste of my life waiting for the page to load up.
AHHH.

okay. im going mad from the total BOREDOM.
i cant do much on this computer.
and i have no shows to watch,
and i cant go out.
oh. erm. now.. WHEREVER i go, i have to inform my mum.
like even if im just going to a mall for LUNCH.
or buying my home econs materials like on thursday.
like EVERYWHERE.
it really sucks. haha.

and i have to smile and say OKAY to my parents.
or else i'll get scolded.
wtf la. i might as well buy a mask and wear it 24/7.
its not like im DAO-ing them or anything.
argh.
and im not allowed to retort.
no BUTS. just agree to everything.
and let things be the way they want it to be.
its like im living the life THEY had always wanted.
and not my own life. how great.
and my mum still says that all parents want their kids to be happy.
and i HAVE to agree.
but i mean- LOOK AT HER.
...

havent gotten shaun anything for his birthday yet.
i mentioned getting drumsticks to him though.
but he only trusts two brands..
forgot which two.*
and its quite ex i think.
but again.. alot of things are ex,
bcus im so broke.

got ines' present already though. :))


the well of inspiration has run dry.
im out of things to blog. honestly.
okay. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.