HERE i am.
blogging again.
bcus im so totally pathetically BORED.

all bcus SOMEONE doesnt wna talk to me.

otherwise i wouldnt be HERE.
YES. all SOMEONE's fault.

okay came back from tuition.
fun. talked about career paths and blabla with my tcher.
LOVE HIM LOADS.
he makes my life interesting.
^_^
and he makes shaun's life interesting too.
great man.

and im here FORCED to pon BALLET.
cause its my grandma's bday and they arranged a whole family dinner without giving me any notice.
actualy im not being forced-
just that i dont wna disappoint my grandma.

SORRY MS LEE- i swear this is gonna be the only time im gonna pon ballet without a proper and not so pathetic reason.
DONT KILL ME. :))

looking at my new esprit wallet.
having a weird feeling about it.
DONT WORRY AUNTIE- I LOVE IT.
SHES SO NICE. TO ACTUALLY GIVE ME SOMETHING.
even if it was just a can of coke i'd be contented.
BUT THIS IS WAY OVERBOARD.
and i havent got anything for her bcus im so pathetically BROKE.

BUT IM SUPPOSED TO BE THIRTY BUCKS RICHER.
*stupid SHAUN. and tht SOMEONE also.

oh wells. should have charged shaun INTEREST.
and here is he saying that he still owes other ppl money.
PLEASE LA- i was the first he OWED.
and obviously the last to be paid- if he ever pays me back.
i feel so stupid for lending him $$ in the first place.

but HEY- what are siblings for.

im not so petty.. of course im not.
:))

DOES ANYONE KNOW HOW TO GET TO BEDOK RESERVOIR?
i have to be there tmr at 11 or 1130am.

the only thing i know is that ill somehow end up there by taking bus 22.
which bus stop, where to get off i totally dont know.

HOHO.
shaun doesnt wna tell me..
says that hopefully ill only find him after the performance is over and hes packing up.
IDIOT.
and he says he doesnt wna be seen by me or my camera.
and he also said something abouthaving to manage iwth my own lunch.
HES SO UNBROTHERLY.
wait till i find him and SNAP like hell with the camera.
MUAHAHAHA.


but lets wait till THEN then talk.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHMA.
its her birthday today.
and we're having a GREAT lunch.
consisting of crab, prawns, scallops, cod fish, ABALONE.
and alot of others.
but i didnt bother looking at the vegetables though.
AS USUAL.
i think theyre all gonna be STEAMED.
not fried.
HOHOHO.

erm. and my relatives oso coming over.
and shaun should be coming home from school for lunch.
and after that..
guess what.


I HAVE TUITION.


finally. after almost a month without tuition.
i think its actually like OVER a month already.
haha. anyway its a good thing for me la.
^_^

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHETHER THERES BALLET LATER?

oh well.
anyway. there isnt ballet tmr.
or on monday either.
bcus of tht- i can go out tmr.
from 11-2pm or something like tht.
:))

mum just dumped a few things on my table and asked me to wrap them.
not ASK, ORDER i mean.
hoho. erm. its a whole lot of jewelry.
OF ALL THINGS SHES GIVIN JEWELRY.
so UNORIGINAL.
erm, that was me CRAPPING.
lol.

im wearing my ballet shoes around the house.
feelin very BORED now.
better go tidy up my room..
its so messy.. and theyre ppl coming over later.
hoho. BYEEEEEEE.

BORED.
haha. yes im in a good mood.
try not to spoil it with some bad news.

mum fell asleep on the sofa on the first floor.
something shes never done before.
i think its weird.
O_O
im nto used to seeing her sleep elsewhere but on her bed.
im so WEIRD. HAHA.
erm. feelin cranky.

OKAY.
had fried popiah and nice fish stuff for dinner.
didnt have the soup- i think its tofu or sth.
and i didnt even look at the veg.
:))

im blogging about totally boring and everyday stuff-
u have to bear with me.
actually, u dont have to.
just dont read lors. HAHA.
yes im really cranky now.

talking to some lovesick guy now.
hes been cruelly rejected by a girl.
and im being nice and comforting him.
O_O

*and im talking crap-
im sayin how insignificant tht girl is.
and how the wide the world is and tht u can always get another girl.
but its all crap and none of it is true.
MUAHAHAHA. im lying and lying.

okay. saw nice handphones today.
and im here asking GOD when hes gonna send me mine.
hes not replying. YET.
im waiting for a phone to fall down from the sky any minute.
hopefully its a nice one. HAHA.

just got toasted walking home under the VERY hot sun.
im HOT.
ahhhhhhhh. LOL.
erm okay.
YES I HAVENT BEEN ONLINE THE WHOLE OF YST AND WEDNESDAY.

mum somehow set the internet in some way that i could still CONNECT to the network but i would be unable to surf or go online.

i think she knows tht i would be less irritated if i totally couldnt connect.

ah well.
miraculously i can come online now.
so hohoho.
yes nothing much has happened to me.
except that my life has become more suckier.
due to DANCE. yes.

and tht i havent been to punggol beach for some time.
bcus of a certain someone who doesnt want me to go alone.

im still weak from tht sickness i got a few days ago..
its like if i stand too long i'll feel tired.
and i feel like puking very often.
and my legs like to give way.
AH. its irritating.

but its also due to the fact that ive been a naughty girl and i havent been takin MEDICINE.
cause i didnt want my immune system to totally rely on the MEDICINE..
but thats an excuse ive been using to lie to myself.

had a free period today.
got ms goh to come in and we went blog surfin on the class computer.
went to see ms gil's blog and ashley's blog.
and a few other ppls'.

ms goh was gonna click on my blog..
but somehow my blog was never shown on the screen.
muahahahahahah.
yes i know its lame-
bcus blogs are PUBLIC.
but its uncomfortable to see your own blog being READ [literally] in frnot of the whole class.

bought my BALLET SHOES.
erm. i missed dance..
bcus i saw gnatasha and she said she couldnt find anyone.
and i saw jocelyn and she also said everyone had disappeared.
so i turned around and went back to parkway..
even though i was just there less than fifteen minutes ago for lunch.
how stupid.

went with CAI MIAO to get her ears pierced.
shes such a VAINPOT la.
all the others agreed.
she kept saying how PAIN it was.
and kept checking herself out in the mirror.
and was being so paranoid that she'll get caught in school.
and kept asking everyone (including me) everything about getting your ears pierced.

like HOW LONG IT WAS BEFORE YOU COULD TAKE IT OUT.
and WHAT HAPPENS IF IT GETS INFECTED.
and HOW THE HELL TO USE THE GIVEN ALCOHOL.
and many many many other weird questions.

i dont rmb asking so much when i got my ears pierced..
but now its all closing up cause i havent been wearing earrings.
LALALALALA.
so im gonna wait for it to TOTALLY close up and repierce right through the WOUND.
its gonna hurt like hell-
heard from ppl with the exp..
but i dont give a damn.
HOHOHO.

feelin very bored and devoid of fun now.
refusing to 'go out and play' with my neighbours.
dunno why.
looking at my table tennis racket and thinking back to the old times.
^_^
how i feel like playing again.
OKAY. im HUNGRY- gna grab sth to eat.

just came home.
walked in the rain again.
and i havent fully recovered.
clearly, i dont look after myself well.

had my ballet exam.
feeling surprisingly empty.
not even a teeny bit happy tht its over,
or sad that i messed up.

im very confident NAT's gonna beat me this year.
i was eyeing her throughout the exam..
she had THE LOOK.
i dont think i had.

but i kept on smiling for some reason im gna keep to myself.

just gna wait til the results come out.
which will probably be in june.

the exam room was damn cold.
DAMNED. was freezing like a popsicle.
and couldnt balance bcus many times the aircon was blowing straight at me.
the floor was slippery..

supposed to be at ballet now.
but i came home instead.
didnt want to dance anymore.
and i felt sick.

stoning now.
dont know what to feel.
lost my appetite.
wont be eating dinner.
feel like having roti prata though.
O_O

im DRENCHED.
and i am wearing a WHITE shirt.
thank god i was wearing something else underneath.

not to mention my very soggy shoes.

just came back from ballet alone.
walked back in the heavy rain.
didnt bother running..
just walked slowly and let everyone stare at me.
for once- i didnt care how they thought of me.

went to ballet despite my condition.
which wasnt improving but wasnt deproving-
so why not?
i didnt wna miss out..

but okay. regretted it.
danced for half an hour and wanted to collapse.
seriously.
didnt let anyone know though.
i just continued dancing.

ah well..
i think the only person who had the CLOSEST idea to what i was feeling was MARTIN.
very surprisingly.

ate somethign my mum made.
delicious.. its those traditional stuff.
green balls with white shreded coconut and brown sugar inside.
im going to try and make it later.

aching like hell now.
i didnt dance much- but i think i exerted my very weak body.
i didnt even jump alot.
im growing old and pathetic.
O_O