just came home.
walked in the rain again.
and i havent fully recovered.
clearly, i dont look after myself well.

had my ballet exam.
feeling surprisingly empty.
not even a teeny bit happy tht its over,
or sad that i messed up.

im very confident NAT's gonna beat me this year.
i was eyeing her throughout the exam..
she had THE LOOK.
i dont think i had.

but i kept on smiling for some reason im gna keep to myself.

just gna wait til the results come out.
which will probably be in june.

the exam room was damn cold.
DAMNED. was freezing like a popsicle.
and couldnt balance bcus many times the aircon was blowing straight at me.
the floor was slippery..

supposed to be at ballet now.
but i came home instead.
didnt want to dance anymore.
and i felt sick.

stoning now.
dont know what to feel.
lost my appetite.
wont be eating dinner.
feel like having roti prata though.
O_O