PART TWO OF FRIDAY.

enough about the cramps,
it was just horrible.
and its kinda sick to hear a girl ranting on whats going on inside her body,
so i guess i'll skip some parts.

after school,
went home. changed.
ate lunch.
wore this black shirt and fbt shorts.
then my maid said that it was way too sexy and all the guys would be staring at me,
so i looked at myself and realised she was right,
so i changed into this BEIGE track pants.
bad mistake for me.. shall not say why.
but it made me go like: OMGOMGOMG WHY AM I SO STUPID.
:)) shall leave it to your imagination.

went out.
regardless of my cramps.
cause i didnt wna stay at home.
met td and took ines' present from him,
which was.. horribly wrapped up,
but ines wont mind anyways.
and then headed to the beach..
and it drizzled and stopped.
weird weather.
we thought we were like DEAD, since i didnt have an umbrella and it was drizzling quite heavily.
*drizzling heavily? hmm.*
yeah.. but we didnt die after all.

then i was like HUNGRY,
so we went to.. JALAN KAYU!
and had roti prata.
and he had his expensive milo dinosaur.
MONEY WASTING.

then went back to hougang mall and went home.
*note: i had my cramps all the way, it became abit more severe on the way from jalan kayu to hougang mall*
so he was like asking me to go home.
"you need to go home" "go out for what? you need to go home."
......
yeah i went home early.

bah. we were at the bus stop.
then there were SO many 27s.
and td kept saying that it IS 62,
and whatever. and i believed him.
so i threw away my drink and stood up..
only to realise that it wasnt 62.
oh gosh. that was the FIRST scam.
and he did it another TWO times,
and he was laughing his head off all the way.
cause i believed him each time.
I FELT SO BLOODY STUPID.
AND I WAS PISSED, AND HE ENJOYED MAKING ME PISSED.
GOSH. RETARDED.
he was laughing his hardest yesterday.
AM I SO EASILY SCAMMED?
i got scammed by eugene first for my name,
and i got scammed LOADS of times by td,
who was either LATE and made me wait or told me that my bus was here.
IDIOTS. BAH.
THEY ENJOY SCAMMING ME SO MUCH.

okay, heres the PRESENT.
i went to the temple this morning at six something..
oh btw, its not like im buddhist or anything,
i dont pray, i just go with my grandma and auntie so that we can have breakfast together after that.
same goes for shaun.
i regret waking up so early.
anyway, shaun really made me day today.
while we were in the garden at six something,
he was like scaring the cats and spraying this pair of snails that clung on tightly to the grass.
WEIRD.
*and oh btw, MYBLACKCATISSOFCKINGCUTELIKEOMG.*
then we were talking about all sorts of things..
then i suddenly talked about wedding rings.
I KNOW ITS SO NOT THE TIME, BUT I WAS FEELING RANDOM.
yeah, he said that he would propose first,
get her "YES",
then bring his girlfriend to the shop and let her choose the ring.
what a satisfying guy. O_O
cause i said that i didnt wants those big diamonds popping out of the ring,
i just wanted a slightly thick whitegold/silver ring with stuff engraved on it.
IVE ALREADY PLANNED MY LIFE OUT, EVEN TO MY WEDDING RING.
GOSH. AND SHAUN HAS ALREADY PLANNED HIS RETIREMENT BEFORE HE ACTUALLY STARTS WORKING.
LOL WAY WEIRD.

went to mcdonalds for breakfast after the temple visit.
*OH YEAH, the temple was so full of birds,
like birds EVERYWHRE. which meant BIRDSHIT.
and i was so affected by it. like covering my head.
O_O
had HOTCAKES. :))
talked abou shaun, my parents, INES..

*OMG MY GRANDMA WAS SINGING INES PRAISES AND IT REALLY PISSED ME OFF,
BCUS INES ALWAYS SHOUTS MY MAID AND GRANDMA.
AND SHE SAYS ITS OKAY, SINCE THEYRE USED TO IT.
LIKE SO OMG. INES IS SUCH A B***H.
SHES SO BLOOOOOOOODY SPOILED.
AND SHE WALKS OVER EVERYONE.
AND MY PARENTS MAKE IT WORSE BY PAMPERING HER.
WHAT THE FCK ARE THEY DOING?
INES HAD BETTER START CHANGING HER ATTITUDE,
OR REGRET BEING SUCH A BRAT.*

i cant stand ines, she makes me sick.
and how my grandma talks about her makes me wna puke.
same goes for shaun.
like PUKE.

my parents have a problem with me and shaun.
theyre making their own lives difficult,
by forcing us to live the way they want, not our own lives.
especially my mum, who goes,
i understand how you feel, ive been through all that, BLABLABLA.
just shut up if you dont understand, dont even bother ACTING it.
and she was like saying how she crushed on guys when she was my age.
AND IM LIKE: YOU WONT UNDERSTAND, YOU WOULD NEVER UNDERSTAND ME.
I DONT GO FOR LOOKS OR WHATEVER YOU WENT FOR,
SO STOP COMPARING ME TO YOU, BCUS I DONT REALLY WANT TO BE RELATED TO YOU.
AND I DONT JUST GO AND DIG ANY GUY, AND I'M NOT THE 'CRUSH' KIND,
IM THE 'DEAD SERIOUS ABOUT ALL THESE' KIND.
im sick of her talking about me and her together,
her grades, her relationships, her parents.
I MEAN, IM NOT HER, I DONT NEED TO KNOW.

IF YOU WANT ME TO BE HAPPY AS EVERY PARENT SHOULD WANT THEIR KIDS TO BE HAPPY, THEN YOU WOULDNT BE ACTING LIKE THIS, YOU WOULDNT BE ACTING FOR YOUR OWN FACE, YOU WOULD LOOK AT THINGS FROM MY POINT OF VIEW, YOU WOULD STOP COMPARING ME TO EVERYTHING ELSE, AND YOU WOULD LET ME GET ON WITH MY LIFE AND NOT INTERFERE THE WAY YOU ARE. BCUS IM NEVER HAPPY WITH YOU, AND THATS WHY I HATE HOME SO MUCH, THATS WHY I GO OUT WITH OTHERS SO MUCH. AND OTHERS ARE ABLE TO KEEP THEMSELVES FROM ARGUEING WITH ME, AND IM HAPPY WITH THEM. AND IF YOU REALLY LOVE US AS YOUR KIDS, STOP DOING WHAT YOURE DOING, STOP READING THOSE CRAPPY PSYCHOLOGY BOOKS ON TEENAGERS, BCUS WE'RE DIFFERENT, AND STOP BRINGING US DOWN, STOP DEGRADING US AS IF WE WERE WORTHLESS, BCUS THATS WHAT YORUE MAKING US FEEL NOW. IF YOU READ THIS, ITS TIME YOU KNOW YOU SHOULD DO SOMETHING ABOUT US.

enough of my parents, enough of ines,
i just feel so sick now.

im going to look for blogskins.
talking about all this just gets me worked up,
and it spoils this potentially great day.