i was waiting for your call

the day after yesterday.

something deep inside says:

it'll never come.

one year ago, i was asked: family, love, or friendship?
i said: love, friendship, and then family.
now i'll say: family, love, and then friendship.
well well(:

today was spent shopping, and i returned home empty handed (once again)
mum has got a billion discounts at a billion shops,
for it's her birthday month. so yeah(:
dad bought shoes and pants, and nothing much caught my eye i suppose.

i know some people are like:
haha noelle, finally you get knocked off your high horse!
annoying prats. haha. i suppose yes i did, but at least i didn't fall that badly.
i'm up and riding again. slowly, cautiously.
i think it's just an ego thing.
YES, i have an ego. it's not called ego, i name it PRIDE.
my pride's been badly injured.

mum always says i think i'm too smart.
and if she knew, i bet she'll go: i told you so.
but all she thinks about is ryan,
and not the guy she called "the pretty face rich boy".
"you know noelle, auntie susan says that ryan's a scheming boy."
"yes i know mum:D"

it's kinda funny to observe everything whilst standing aside now.
the thrill of the chase doesn't excite me anymore.
with freedom comes lonliness,
but i'll appreciate the silence now.
it's like sitting along a long beach by yourself.
i love beaches(:
(bitches.)

i'll wait.
for the silent gentlemen with his mysterious air,
and his alluring eyes.
with the maturity of an older man.
yes, i enjoy maturity more than anyone else.
i'll wait for my Mr. Darcy(:
(he's like my ideal guy!)
apologies for the over-indulgence in novels.

there's a reason for everything,
and what's fated to be yours will be yours.
accept it and move on,
improve to become better,
and maybe someday, we'll all be happy(:

cheers to the future.
may it be truly ours to conquer.