i feel so *&^%(*&$%#@!.

went to nick and cheryl's holy matrimony today.
met joel and joel's girlfriend. and they're both like seriously cute.
went about 3 hours earlier to help out with the decor and all.
turned out really, really pretty(:
loads of red, white and pink roses, loads of white and red cloth, loads and loads of petals everywhere.
it was so romantic(:

met everyone together today, the tall guys, the macho guys, jeremy, asmine, wan rong and a few people i've never seen before, but it went well.
seems like everyone knows everyone else.
the reception was good. my omg favourite caesar salad, the roast beef, chicken, crepe, and loads of pastries.
i was like starving so i took two servings(:
which meant LOTS of salad. yummmmmmmmm.

no ice-cream though):
ended at bout 6 after we finished clearing up the place. the cleaners were nice and said they would vacuum the place so we didn't have to pick up the tiny bits and pieces.

squeezed like hell in yihuai's car.
and i was told to sit on someone's lap?!? yeah. my head would've busted through the ceiling anyway. if his laps didn't get flattened. yeah.

okay. it was supposedly fun but i admit i didn't have a ball of a time.
i mean i want someone who gives me a sense of security, warmth, and TLC.
i like to be complimented (um. i mean i wore a DRESS for the occasion. and i put in effort. which is rare!), i like to be hugged and you know, be open.
*not like PDA either, that's not very nice. sucking face and being touchy in front of everyone is not a very cool thing.*
i like guys with like a decent load of confidence (please note that's it's not cockiness).
i admit i'm more physical than wordy. xD
and like what mum said, i like to be courted.
not courting.

i don't mind taking the initiative but sometimes,
i like handing the control over to someone else and just relax, you know?
i have my limits. and my tolerance. and above all, my damned dignity.
i don't wanna be like, desperate. and clingy. it's a serious turn-off.

alisha told me those kinda guys don't exist anymore.
i'd like to believe they do(: die-hard romantic, yes.

i know my expectations are high, and i'm happy really, i just wanna be wowed over.
and then i'll be really happy.

please don't pretend to be everything i wanted, and climb out of the sheep's clothing to let me see that you're a fake bastard.
yeah huh. some people know exactly who i'm talking about.

goodnight everyone,
sorry for the totally uncalled for bitching and ranting,
and let's pass the econs CA tmr(:

song for the moment: More Than Words.
it's totally, exactly whatever's going on in my head.