yes, i hate myself now. why did i start all this mess? i should have expected all along that i would be the one to end this relationship. i was a burden, and i did cause trouble, and i affected friendships. I deserve the fate i have now, crying my heart out on tissue, having eyes like a zombie, with a more or less dead heart, sitting in this chair unable to sleep, and well, other side effects. not that i want it, but it is needed.. don't blame anyone but me, it's me who did all this. thanks for all the fun times, thanks for the times shared, thanks for the opportunity; i have a never-ending list. it sucks when i have to undergo misery to make life easier for others, but i still do care, so that's why i'm doing this. everything will blow over soon, ive only been a friend to you all along, nothing more, so it won't suck that much i guess.. im so fucking sorry everyone.