OMG THIS IS SO COOL.
ive been assigned my PARTNER.
as in,
IVE BEEN ASSIGNED THE THAILAND GIRL WHOS COMING TO STAY WITH ME!
but her name is SO long, and im frantically trying to memorise it.
AND IVE BEEN GIVEN HER EMAIL!
maybe i'll just ask her if i can call her by a shorter name.
hoho.

I CANT WAIT TO MEET HER.
but its like the end of the month before i see her..
so.. erm. haha.

played the guitar the whole night.
slept early this morning.
i felt like ignoring the world and just playing on the guitar.
i dont know, my darling guitar seem to provide some comfort.
i just ignored whatever signal i was receiving in the REAL WORLD.
ESCAPISM.
argh. but you cant blame me,
i just needed to stop thinking about everything.

i think it has done me good,
i HAVE straigtened out my thinking,
and i have decided to stop being selfish.
its a hard decision to make,
but i'll face whatever it brings bravely.
^_^..

its easier for everyone this way i guess.
...

oh yeah.
i've been called DOTTY,
bcus i ......ed alot.
WEIRD. but its neither good nor bad,
so its okay i guess.

today..
hmm.
wanted to go catch x-men with td and CO,
but i remembered i had ballet,
so IM NOT GOING.
we have ms kok's class at 6 something,
and then i have mr lee's class at 7.30..
and i dont know what time its ending..
my body's suffering the consequences of taking up such a path.
but im just following what i love to do best,
so i dont really mind all the aches and cramps..

i had to borrow pointe shoes from victoria. O_O
cause i havent got mine,
and im really pissed about it.
*i think ALL the ballet shops have run of out pointe shoes to sell.
grrr..*
i had to borrow cause mr lee's performance item is all EN POINTE.
hes doing modern dance EN POINTE i think,
which is pretty cool.
but ms lee said once we decided to go we CANNOT pull out.
>.<
shall stick with another dumb decision of mine i guess.

reading all my blog entries AGAIN,
ive realised that im really extreme,
like one post im bloody hyper, the next im angry at the world.
COOL. hmm. i should take up psychology and study myself.
and i have TWO SIDES,
the good and the bad.

the good is when im happy (DUH), im willing to give, willing to share, im understanding, compassionate, hyper, NOT SLACKING, and all the goody characteristics.

the bad, which is my usual side, ^_^*smile smile*, is when im selfish, unforgiving, hateful, wanting revenge, strong-headed about my own view, thinking the world is against me, constantly submitting to temptations, slacking, pangseh-ing, PON-ing, stuffing myself with unhealthy food, self-mutilating, and alot more.

^_^
now im pH7, so i guess its okay.
im not happy, but im being sarcastic with all the ^_^s.
isnt it just great?

TAG REPLY
ASHLEY: i think ive stopped clashing with my parents.. and without our darling CAI MIAO we cant do much for the bloody chinese project. GEOG.. i dont know. ENJOY YOUR MUGGING DAY DEAR GIRL. ^_^

shall go eat my breakfast.


*i dont understand myself at all. whatthefuck am i doing?*