HOME.
went to OKH with mum,
NO STOCK. gosh.
bloody pointe shoes..
then went to ORCHARD SONATA.
NO STOCK.
*ARGHHHH*

my mum felt nice and wanted to treat me to tea.
HIGH TEA.

went to raffles hotel for tea.
saw this ENGLISH TEA SET.
so we got two of those.
OMG IT WAS SO MUCH.
LIKE THREE PLATES FULL OF PASTRIES.
ON THIS HUGE METAL HOLDER,
IT LOOKED SO BLOODY NICE AND HIGH CLASS.
then we realised it was too much to eat,
so we called DAD down.
LOL. he was in the area, so good.
then we ate and ate,
i could eat somemore,
but i had to dance later..
so i just left the last two tarts and DABAO-ED it.

then they sent me to the bus stop,
and then they ran off, waving to me,
hand in hand, smiling and jaywalking across the street.
A SIGN OF UNUSUAL HAPPINESS.
this goes to show that my parents are yes, HUMANE.
they can be passionate humans.
i felt so happy the whole day.
for once i enjoyed myself having a simple meal with my parents.

im still smiling now,
i dont know why.
it was just today,
no arguements, no misunderstandings,
just ONE nearly perfect day.
even though ballet was very tiring,
even though all of them were discussing about the NZ trip and i wasnt included,
i didnt really care,
i just thought to myself:
the chance is already gone, what can you do but enjoy whatever choice you made to the fullest?
and i smiled to myself and walked out of the building.

noelle is unusually happy today.
i know its a little scary,
but be happy for me.

oh yeah.
i saw this guy at the bus stop.
hes so cute, like he was wearing this green SUIT.
so imagine, green jacket, green pants.
and he was wearing this black hat and his cute little briefcase.
and his funky umbrella.
i dont know if hes a busker or soemthing,
but i think hes really cool.
and the best part is, he looks good in it.
an angmoh dressed in green.
and his hair is damned blonde.
and he smiled at me.
gosh. nice foreigners.
if only all singaporeans could be like that.
nice and friendly.

shauns going to watch a movie with my dad tomorrow,
and i cant go,
cause i have my ballet.
ah. i havent watched a movie in a long time.
no one asked me out you see,
or i didnt have the $$.
*TALKING ABOUT MONEY,
I GOT ALLOWANCE FOR THE HOLIDAYS,
CAUSE I GOT MY BALLET.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.*
but im sill broke. ((:
still it would be great if just someone could accompany me out and watch a nice movie and have a fun time.
but everyone's busy, including me,
so i guess it'll be hard to find a time.
it all boils down to FATE doesnt it?

shauns leaving on the 9th,
he has to reach the airport at eleven or something.
so i'll send him off,
i dont think he wants me there,
so i wont stay for too long,
otherwise he might get angry or something.
i dont wna spoil his mood on the great day that he leaves for magnificent london.
the ballet people leave on the 11th,
at seven in the evening,
so i'll send them off too..
i think im going alone for that one,
but i dont care..
even though ill be lonely and all that,
and i think i might cry or something.
and i'll pick them at the airport too,
when they come back.

finding a date to go out with my auntie.
i think it'll most probably be when shaun's gone.
and then i'll sleepover at her house.
((:
but i dont wish to trespass on her privacy for too long,
so i wont stay for too long if she minds.

i just wish life would be like this day all the time.
not perfect,
i still have many things that i want,
but more or less peaceful.
no bitter fights,
no tears,
no anger.
its abit impossible and unrealistic,
but wishes do come true sometime.
so i hope this one will.

i shall keep on hoping..

in fact,
it wasnt what happened to me that made me happy.
its just what i SAW that made me like this.
see how small little things you do can brighten up other people's day.
spread that little bit of love around my fellow humans.
we ARENT evil by nature,
and we shall strive NOT to be perfect,
but to be happy.
even though that true happiness may last for only a few seconds,
its worth all the tears and worries.

CIAO PEOPLE.
SMIIIILLLLEEEEEEE. ((: