ive just further cleaned up my blog..
i came home from punggol beach at.. 6plus?
i told my mum before i went out though..
"i'm going to punggol beach to unwind."
mum: "wow.. hmmm what can i say? thx for letting me know."
*...*
she must sense the awkward rigidness in my sms and realised that nothing she did would keep me at home.
thank god she doesnt know much about punggol beach.
otherwise.. nah- dont wna think about it.

i dont think punggol beach helped.
it was scorching hot..
and i just sat there and watched the waves..
then i saw this guy.. i think hes sixteen or seventeen..
he was sitting down and crying alone.
if it wasnt bcus i was so stupidly shy i would have gone and talked to him.
he looked really down and out..
and it made me feel bad. i dont know why.
his mood affected mine i guess..
*maybe he broke up with his gf or something..
well, its not really my business is it?
but if that was the case then that girl should have seen the way he was at the beach.
im sure she would cry too.
when he was leaving he looked at me..
and i just realised that i was staring at him the whole time..
so i was like.. OOPS. PAISEH. AHHH.
i think he also felt quite paiseh..
but he smiled and walked away.
....
that is what i call a FRIENDLY SINGAPOREAN.

then i ran for the 82 bus..
realised that HE was on the bus.. so i felt even more paiseh and stared straight out of the window even though the sun was in my face.

i do the most stupid things sometimes.
argh.

then i went to go and pig myself with food.
at hougang mall.
thats my way of dealing with STRESS.
bought ban mian.. then felt hungry..
then went down to old chang kee and bought soft squid..
and then a few minutes later i bought a sotong head..
still wasnt satisfied.. so i went and bought myself an XXL CRISPY CHICKEN.
and was so thirsty so i bought myself an iced milo.
and im still gonna eat dinner later...

i just hope i dont turn into those girls who stuff themselves and then BINGE everything.
i think the people there were staring at ME.. cause i queued and requeued and queue at the stall beside the first one.
were they wondering why i could eat so much but stay skinny?
but i AM growing fat..
its just an illusion i create by wearing the right clothes.

i like my new blogskin.. btu i think im gonna change it soon
(even though i just changed it today)
cause its too black and white. dull..

tomorrow shall be a free day for me.
what to do? where to go? WHEN TO BE HOME? WHY i should do whatever im going to do?
WHO to hang out with?
again im going to depend on othes.. SIAN.
ah well.


parents are home. BYEE.