ive got my internet back..
so i guess that's good.

i knew it was gonna be a horrible day.

at dance..
erm. there're good things..
on monday we get to leave school to go to victoria theatre at 830.
BUT no visitors are allowed.
and we're not allowed to go a step outside the theatre.
so that means i cant pass the tickets to td and i have to somehow get the tickets to them.
WAIT- no visiting until TEN PM..
which is the time the show ends.

and after that i'll probably walk around until it's late..
and then go to school on tuesday looking like a zombie.

okay.. heres the bad stuff.
look- im not bitching or anything okay?
and im not mentioning names either.
sorry my seniors- you have this extremely proud dancer junior.

many of the sec 2 dancers gathered during our free time during dance.
many of us had heard something the seniros said..
about our carnival day dance.
ONCE AGAIN- IM NOT DIRECTING THIS TO ANYONE AND I BEG YOUR PARDON IF I NEED TO.
its was: 'the sec two's dance is too sexual.. copy our dance.. steal our steps.. blablabla.' and bits and piece which none of us heard clearly/ could remember. oh yeah- and alot of disapproval..

hold on hold on- 'the seniors' is a general term for sec 3s AND fours..
not just sec 3s.

the sec threes came up with this great hip hop dance..
and we happened to come up with our own hip hop dance AFTER the sec 3s had decided.
and hip hop.. its basically loads of shaking for us girls..
so alot of steps look identical.. or simliar..

so i guess it looks like we copied them..

i understand how they feel- i mean, this is the SEC 3S dance, the dance they put so much effort to make it what it is..
and here are the SEC 2s, doing the same genre and simlilar steps.
i dont blame them for the part which they said we copied them..
cause im looking at it from their POV.

however.. the sexual part was.. uncalled for.
the sec 3s dance is damned HOT, and includes much more 'sexuality' than the sec twos.
they definately can shake much more and better than us..
because im such a hopeless case at dancing sometimes.

its just how people like to bring each other down just to be the winner..
but there will be no winner.. because we are all a part of dance club- and whatever achievements we make, its for DANCE CLUB, and for TKGS.

is this the way dance club should be? being selfish.. gossiping.. bringing others down.. biased.. wanting to win SO much?
IS THIS HOW EVERYONE WANTS DANCE CLUB TO BE? SOME FREAKING COMPETITION BETWEEN THE SECONDARY LEVELS? WANTING TO BE THE BEST?

WE DO NOT DANCE FOR THE FAME OR GLORY.. WE SHOULD DANCE BECAUSE WE HAVE A PASSION FOR PERFORMING.. DOES WHAT WE ALL ARE DOING POTRAY THAT PERFECT IMAGE OF A DANCER? WHAT WE ARE DOING NOW.. ITS LIKE.. WHAT? SHOWING OFF YOUR FLEXIBILITY.. OR THE UNIQUE STYLE OF DANCING? OR THE WAY YOU KNOW YOUR DANCING IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN OTHERS? AND CRITICISING ONEANOTHER BEHIND BACKS..

i told you- im sorry if i offend anyone.. but this is getting out of hand.
if no one does anything about this- i will try.
i want to put our dance on hold.. think of soemthing really different..
another genre maybe..

i dont want this kind of shit to happen in dance club..
especially when our performance is what, next monday?
do you think this will bring our morale up or something?
to know that the people who smile at you actually talk behind your back..

infact- the particular person who said something abotu our dance..
was never the girl i expected.. that girl is.. kind, caring, decisive.. but blunt, honest, down to earth.. yet instead of telling us in our face.. she went telling it to some other person..
i really love her as a senior.. most of the tkgs dancers are like sisters to me.. we all laugh and do funky dances together..
and this is happening..
it really sucks. and we still have a dance commitee to nominate to take over the sec fours..

like amelia said- this year for dance club is quite hopeless..
as in the commitee. O_O

i really wna go out alone on friday again.
go somewhere to scream.. havent done that in qutie a while.
=.=
and there's school as well..
my results are horrible.. i can predict my report card.
Cs, Ds, Bs and only a couple of As (if any at all.)

ahh. just cant stop thinking about dance.
hmph. its getting a teeny bit outta hand.

since ive just got back my com..
im reading all my emails..
its ridiculous.. how many emails ive got.
O_O
half on them are chain letters which say that if i pass them on, my crush or boyfriend or whatever (there are many variations you see..) will ask me out..
and thats pathetic. you depend on a CHAINMAIL just to get a date?
hmph..
stuff like these:
>Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they like you.
>Something good will happen to you at 1:00-4:00pm tomorrow,it could be
>anywhere aol, msn, yahoo, outside of school, anywhere. get ready for the
>biggest shock of your life.
>If youbreak this chain letter you will be cursed with 10 relationship
>problems for the next ten years.
.....

i wna watch a movie. NOW. impossible.. but its been SO LONG since i last caught a movie..
and my mum didnt take me to see TAKE THE LEAD..
i think she forgot..
ahhh. oh well..

ines says hi.. she just came up to deliver a kitkat to me. haha.
she knows i like kitkat.
but i'll grow fat eating it.. O_O

and there was this disagreement during class..
on the new seating arrangement plan..
i guess nothing is ever fair to everyone..
we have to give and take sometimes..
thats a reality.
and nothign we do can change that..
so i advise to either object violently and get everyone to agree on what you want..
or accept your destiny. O_O

talking about unfairness..
it sucks because i'll never have what i want.. it will probably not be given to me.. given to some other girl.. and looks like i cant do anything but sit there and watch.. and realise how helpless i am.

many people have taken a liking to read my blog and my notebook..
which is a TEEENY bit confidential..
but heck- if they wna read then read lors.
is my notebook really that nice to read?
it just contains ranthings and random things that i happen to write down.
O_O
and my blog entries are super long..
you must have time to actually READ.
and many people love to read from where they left off..
and find it a great chore to read all the way until the present..
bcus i write so bloody much.
and its mostly crap.

saw nazurah and her boyfriend at the bus stop today...
hohoho. i wish them happiness..
i think nazurah needs to have someone there for her..
since shes not on great terms with her family..
and her results are as bad as mine..
i made her assure me she knows what shes doing though..
haha. shes only fourteen and shes gone damned far with guys..
or at least further than anyone else in the class.
O_O

ah. better go off and do my stuff..
im like slacking...