i think people are scared off by the unearthly length of my frequent posts.

my boring and hard to understand posts.
O_O

managed to get on the computer..
my mum realised that i would be going nuts soon if i didnt have something constructive to do.
i think i was walking around the house like a zombie.
and i played alot of songs on ines' keyboard.
i was BORED. very BORED.

gave up reading SEVEN HABITS OF HIGHLY EFFECTIVE TEENS.
bcus i know almost everything inside it..
and its BORING. i fell asleep reading it yesterday..

was planning to go out tomorrow..
just go out and wander by myself.
but my MUM.. ahh.
she pulled me into her plan for tomorrow.
which is to shop for ines' and shaun's present.
and we ust spotted this warehouse sale ad in the newspapers..
so i assume shes going.
and she told me that she wanted to see the guitar shops.
I WANT TO GO OUT ALONE.
HONESTLY.
she probably thinks i'll DIE going out by myself.
but then again, she disapproves of me going out with my FRIENDS.
HOW CONTRADICTORY.

i need TIME alone. ARGH.

i dont know whats actually happening in my life now.
its just this weird pile of interlinking problems.
and when i solve one i realise that theres still MANY more to go.
hmph.

*got new speakers. its black. its nice. given by my auntie. THANKS :))*

yeah. erm. ive been acting really weird lately.
dont feel like going to the beach alone anymore..
haha. doesnt help much. makes me think about everything im not supposed to.
and i usually end up worse off.

havent got shaun anything.
currently feeling extremely guilty for being empty-handed.

my mum's strangely against the guitar thing.
but HECK- im gonna use my own money.
and pay for my course in june.
who cares.

ryan was trying to sell me his old classical guitar.
dream on- im not that rich you know.
and im not into classical.. sry ryan. O_O

okay. out of stuff to write AGAIN.
OH YEAH-
my maternal people are coming over for dinner.
im expecting the house to be thrown upside down inside out by my little cousins.
im sick of playing host. RAHH.