i helped SYAf and FAITH and ELLAI with their art poster design.
so SYAFIQAH has to say that i rock.
O_O

it suddenly appeared to me to ask nazurah to the beach with me..
but after a while, i realised that i was constantly depending on others to spend their time with me..
so i decided to go alone.. to PUNGGOL BEACH.
where there are PROSTITUTES and PERVERTS and A WHOLE LOAD OF BIRDSHIT.
and BIRDS.
ah well.. better than wasting other people's time..

its 24 days to the new zealand exhange programme thing..
and im not going.
and im really regretting it.
but this is the decision i made..
so i shall stick with it.
i shall allow myself to cry and rant and be a brat when they're gone..

if i went, i'll be a few thousand dollars poorer..
and it'll affect me in the future if i regret it..
cause my parents wont pay..
but all the other girls are like..
being excited and squealing about who sleeps where and what they're gonna do on the plane and what books they're gonna bring..
and all that...
and i dont think they noticed,
but im quite affected by it..
and im with them alot.. so it sucks for me.
i just cant bear to part with a few thousand.

i hate me and my weird decisions and my odd-ity and my lack of everything.

im probably getting a guitar this weekend..
since shaun is getting his bass this friday..
but my mum said we should all go together during the weekend.
its just the right timing i guess..
cause there's a guitar performance ca on monday..

my life is turning sour.
and it seems permanent.


ill go to punggol beach and sulk alone..
i need a break from all this SHIT.