im home early.
school is such a hell-hole sometimes.

as i expected..
there was GOSSIP..
and involved were AISY, SYAF, ASH, FAITH and SHER.
its only my close friends.. luckily.
its bad enough though.
bcus.. NOELLE LEOW ISNT ATTACHED AND STOP TREATING ME AS I AM AND QUIT BOTHERING ME ABOUT MY PECULIAR CHOICE OF FRIENDS.
not that i mind much.. cause girls will be girls and ive accepted my fate as one.

i got alot of stares along the corridor..
it was distracting.. during maths, mrs tan was like asking me a whole load of stuff about the performance..
which i answered quite honestly-
i didnt make it sound as bad as i personally felt it was..

but again- its bcus i wasnt satisfied with what i did..
even though everyone was telling me that i was qutie OKAY..
but OKAY doesnt even meet my own expectations, let alone others'..
i feel so MISERABLE.
argh.

after school.. went to buy a dirnk..
and two 2/4 girls suddenly started talking loudly to me.
about last night..
oh gosh. i was like.. shocked?
it was just so random..
and after living through SCHOOL, i thought i would be safe once i was OUTSIDE of the school.. but hell no, i wasnt.

on the bus too.. could hear the people behind talking about me.
i didnt bother to listen to what they had to say though.
i was just silently praying that all this would blow over and i'll be treated as the funky girl who i was,
and i still am. i hope.
im not that funky as i used to be..

not as loud and interesting either.
and i think it's starting to affect other people whom i used to be funky with.

and its like.. so many schools have POLLING DAY HOLIDAY..
and we dont at all.
we dont even have a MARKING DAY or anything.
its only the weekends off..

and THEN- the june hols..
which im not planning to go abroad, since my parents arent, and i just realised that im kinda broke- which cancels out most of my plans if i still wna take my whatever dance course and guitar course and GET A GUITAR.
i swear- its just crazy.. thinking of all my money flying away just like.. THAT.

im considering either hiphop, salsa, bellydancing, BREAKDANCING (i'll die), ballroom? but im partnerless.. so yeah. NO JAZZ PLEASE. its not that i dont like it, its just that i need a CHANGE. and no TAP, no ROBOT dances or anything of the sort.
and im gonna pester denise to join me in my course.. which i THINK she is, but i cant confirm.
DENISE IS A GREAT DANCER.

if i cant do the gutiar course, ill go pester my darling BENITA.
and she SHALL part her knowledge with ME.
that is, IF i cant afford my course, or cant bear to afford.

im trying to distract myself.. but obviously it wont work.

OH YEAH-
last period, ENGLISH-
we were playing games.. 'illegally'.
BLACK MAGIC, WHAT'S NEXT?, MEN-MEN (i dont have another name for it..), AROUND THE WORLD, IS THIS A KNOT?, AUNT MARY DIED, WHAT TIME IS IT?, BANG BANG WHO DIED?, FALLING LEAF and a few others..
im still trying to figure out the real BANG BANG WHO DIED? and the original version of IS THIS A KNOT? and a few others i cant remember.
its all these weird games that we play, and its extremely fun and enticing to find out the answer to all the games, or the fomula or technique behind it.
and after that, we use that knowledge and play with people who dont know the game, and make them guess until they cry.
okay, thats an exaggertaion, but yeah.

i feel like eating some fried fattening food,
but none's available at home..
i didnt have lunch AGAIN.. so well yeah.
im suffering from the after-effects of not eating..

oh well.


TKGS CARES FOR THE ENVIRONMENT.
going for ballet later.. not in the mood to blog anything else..
so cya around.