ah, screw this computer. have been trying to upload photos for ages but it keeps on disconnecting. and messenger's being an arse too.

sorry for not updating this week!

i've been trying to distract myself with all sorts of things. esp korean dramas, but anyway,

-monday was terrible.

-tuesday was okay.

-wednesday we had dance. and tuition was okay.

-thursday: chem spa went fine(: econs was lousy and tuition was okay.

also, on thursday while we were playing netball, guess what we saw.

a dead frog. on the grass. seriously.

so while everyone was busy squealing, abigail tried to turn it over (it was on it's back) and instead it flipped into the drain.

it was dried. and hard. rarely do we see dead frogs. more often they're squashed on the road.

and it's legs were all spread out. it looked like a "X".

yesterday was a lazy day spent with mum, dad and ines.

i curse myself indefinitely for thinking so long and so hard.

so i started talking to alisha, and soon i sorta decided to stop being so wishy washy.

crap. i'm sorry.

i wish i could tell you straight but no, i can't.

as in: sorry and thank you.

i don't know if i regret telling you. but i don't think i regretted liking you.

i must be the naive-est idiot in the world.

bad, bad timing.

i must've lost it yesterday. but don't blame me cause you've been driving me nuts.

it was a wonder that i actually fell asleep while thinking about things some more and woke up in time for flag day today.

flag day was pretty okay actually. wasted our time totally at bugis for the first half, and went to tampines after lunch.

we were actually comtemplating taking neoprints cause we were perhaps quite stoned by the lack of donations. we were probably getting high on air.

so at tampines, alot of weird stuff happened. i mean, i love the people. they're so generous and like nice,

but there are some really mean ones.

mostly guys anyway.

one group of them came really close to me and stuck their hands in their pockets. and me being me said thank you cause i thought they were taking out money.. but on purpose, they took out their handphone and walked off laughing. Bastards.

the other group of guys came really close and then stuck their hands somewhere and took out..

a fish on a stick. and ate it really close to my face and walked off. Arses.

but, the highlight of the day!

this guy came up and donated, and then a few minutes later he came back and stuffed this paper in my hand. and i actually said thank you. when i read it..

*details have been blurred to protect the identity of this guy.*

:O

my jaw must've dropped to the floor. i was totally "holy cow"ing.

and i felt like laughing cause the situation was terribly ironic. (don't ask why.)

so i showed it to them after a while and everyone was like telling me to msg blablablabla. lol.

seriously, lol.

he's not weird or anything, pretty decent actually. but i made a promise to stay off guys this year. seriously.

and it was kinda funny to find out what the paper actually was.

there. how cool.

it's gonna be really awkward in school from now on. i don't think i can do anything anymore, i'll just have to see how things go.

i have totally, utterly embarrassed myself. and ruined a not-so-great but cherished friendship.

ah, i don't know.

it just keeps coming and coming and i can't stop. i'm annoyed at myself.

whatever. seriously.

go do whatever makes you happy and let's have fun ignoring each other.

i'll wait.

and i'll keep my promises.