my comp is super slow today=/

okay. woke up like 10 plus.. had really puffy eyes-
erm. kinda quarrelled with mum last night AGAIN=_=
not that i wanted to, but she was really being unreasonable and venting whatever pressure or stress she had on me. i mean, she should have known that she would get such pressure from work when she switched to this job..
and venting pressure on kids = immature-_-

but then again, all along she has never kept ANY promises to me. and when i told her that she was breaking this particular promise, she was like "Why can't you all GROW UP?"
so. apparently, breaking promises = mature??
nah. her thinking's a little screwed up there. but yes, it hurt like a smashed finger.

remind me to keep all my promises to my future kids and give them the great wonderful childhood i never had.

okay. shaun got a LITTLE bit of that treatment too. i think women are just scary, especially when they PMS. women are the main sources of trouble.. =_= okay, SOME women are. haha.

well, but before all the shit and bitching began,
i must say that dinner was great. all the cheese was great:D there were three kinds of cheese, but no blue cheese. it all tasted great la:) fried my own and mum's pasta- since we wanted the same ingredients. turned out nice even though i got attacked by hot oil MANY times.

and mum and dad were talking about sending me over to ms lee after im done with grade 8. as much as i like that idea, i want to stay with ms kok. i mean, maybe ms lee is a great teacher and i can achieve much more (according to parents) under her, im just close to ms kok la. and i believe that ms kok is a great teacher despite her age and experience. i guess its something that i have quite a long time to decide about.. yeah. haha. maybe:)

well, at least theres class today:D

gave up the idea of bombing ashley's house since she has disappeared again. its hard to contact SOMEONE who loses her phone so easily. and not only her phone, her wallet, her pencilcase.. everything. hah. and she's not online either.. so DANG=/

well, and i did something i wasnt really supposed to do last night,
...
i called alisha! and for some reason she ended up crying..
which is why i say talking to me is NEVER good eh? but yeah. hope she doesnt take offence. but in any case, it wasnt my fault:) but i kinda failed to cheer her up la=/ another awkward situation?
just hope she doesnt screw up her life without meO_o

well, as im quite confident my bro wont read this, but if he does then i have nothing to say la=_=
but i hope he wont screw up HIS life anymore. for some reason i feel as though i need to do SOMETHING to change him back, but i dont know what. and besides, im only his younger sis, what can i do? if he was this egoistic last time, i would know he was joking. but now, omggg. he's a changed man. man? nope. still a boy. changed boy:) but whatever, i dont even know what to say to him now la.

looking good isnt all that matters. appearing polished doesnt EVEN matter. what you wear shouldnt matter, after all, clothing is jus meant to keep you warm isnt it? =_= catching girls and attracting attention shouldnt even be important.

having a great stylish wardrobe just to appear FASHIONABLE just makes me want to puke. honestly! you will look good in something you are comfortable in. you MIGHT NOT look good in what the latest styles and trends are. you WILL NOT look good in something you wear just because its in fashion, and not because you like it.

and since im a decent girl, i shall say things from a decent girl's POV. girls HATE egoistic guys. they may seem nice and confident at first, but after we get to know them, we just find them pathetic. this burst of over-confidence disgusts us. we can't stand being around egoistic people who just love to show off and grab attention. but of course the disgraceful part of this population may be different- some girls will just stick to any guy=_="

girls who like you wont give a shit about what youre wearing, they wont really give a shit about HOW you are, they give shits (?) about what youre made of on the inside. those are the types of girls that everyone (guys) should be aiming for, and not those pretty on the outside and omgggg crappy on the inside. arent we at this stage where everyone is searching for their life companions? (okay im too young for that, i know. but i dont care:D) shouldnt you be looking for someone that really cares about you, and not care about how you look??

but then again at this age, we get influenced easily. especially if youre lacking self-confidence.. anyone mentally and emotionally strong enough will remain true to his values wont be changed even if he hangs out with a bunch of real gangsters. those who are weaker (not many people can admit this) flow along with their friends, and change just to fit in or be 'cool' (another very pathetic case).

my dear bro, if you were to read this and not realise you are in the 'abit-hopeless guy' category, man am i disappointed=_=
if you do, then honestly get a grip on your life and go back to the unegoistic shaun that we all love. if you still dont know what the hell is wrong, then go stick your head in a pudding. (????)
lol. but whatever the case is, perhaps some of your old friends out there are really disappointed in you, more than i am. and maybe they did try to change you back, but your thick-headedness didnt allow it.
it would take a good man to admit to all this and change,
and if you did it, then i would be fcking proud:D
and happy. and you would get my utmost respect. (which is very rare since its super hard to get my respect. HAHA)

wow, about half this post is on my bro only??
wth=_= okay. i shall grab a late breakfast. hehheh.
BYEBYE