alright. i love yesterday.

left the house earlier since dad needed to meet his client at simlim square.. so i stayed in his car and sang OUT LOUD. it was fun chilling alone in the car, especially with all my nice music. and i was looking at the half-built laselle-sia building.. wonder if i'm heading there. haha. then we drove past the TAO HUEY place. there is the ORIGINAL stall, and theres another stall right beside it. and guess what? the two stall holders are BROTHERS. wtf sia. COMPETITION MADNESS=.=

ended up eating at the original stall. there werent any people in the brother's stall.. yeah. OMGGG the tao huey was damn nice. darn smooth and sweet and its HEAVENLY. but newspaper reports say that the brother's stall is actually YUMMIER.. so im sure gonna try that one day:D

we made it in time to the esplanade, with still a bit of time to dally and daze around. yeah. bumped into.. KELLY, THERESA, KITTY, MELANIE, and PHOEBE! yeah. ms lee's girls. then we went up to watch the show.. RED GISELLE! i went in to find out that victoria- fellow grader- was sitting the row in front of me.

RED GISELLE- the story of the Ballerina driven to madness because of her love and her passion for dance.
basically, act one was the Ballerina in a normal ballet lesson, and the eccentric Teacher picks her out from the rest, cause her dancing is nice, perfect blabla. Ballerina captivates the audience, and among them is the Chekist, a member of the secret polie (Cheka).
the Chekist forces the Ballerina to succumb to his will, and introduces her to a weird festival. the Ballerina forgets the teachigns of her Teacher, and reigns over this festival. but she returned to the Teacher after a mild struggle with the Chekist.
some tough regime reigns in the theatre, and the other ballerinas must become weapons of the unjust red ideology (?? i cant figure out this part.. so i just lifted from the booklet). the Teacher is in despair, and he cannot do anything. He was beaten up and stuff. sad la.
the Ballerina and the Chekist are bound by their complex relationship, filled with attraction, repulsion, passion and misunderstanding.
at the end of act one, the Ballerina leaves the ballet class, the Teacher and the Chekist to leave Russia FOREVER, after putting up a struggle with the Chekist.

i know its abit long..

act two- she sees a famous dancer and choreographer lead some rehearsal.. his movements are unfamiliar and weird, but she gets inspried to join the class. that dancer becomes Ballerina's Partner..
the Ballerina's feeligns for her Partner are not returned. this is the funniest part. if i didnt see wrongly, her Partner is a GAY. some guy was carrying her Partner around and hugging and touching and all. alot of people went: omg he's gay. LOL.
Ballerina breaks down form the above-mentioned.
she heads to gay Paris to drown her anguish, but her past still disturbs her. the Chekist appears as an illusion or sth. nor can she forget herself in the fav role as GISELLE, in which Ballerina won world fame. GISELLE's fate- betrayal by her beloved and eventual madness- in turn becomes the Ballerina's fate.
weird things happen la. Ballerina was kissing this mask or sth. yeah. mad la. and then theres this scene where Ballerina and her Partner are dancing together. her Partner seems to have a change of heart, and wants to be with the Ballerina, but another stupid gay dancer doesnt let the Partner go. homosexuals in a ballet- first time ever:D so in the end they couldnt be together la.
the last scene was just mirrors moving around. madness for the Ballerina seems to hold salvation, in the world on the other side of the mirror. so the Ballerina walks into the mirror and disappears as a reflection.
THE END!

on the whole, it was quite nice. not really UP TO MY EXPECTATIONS, which is very HIGH since im a dancer as well.. but omgggg the dancers have LOADS of muscle. you could see every single muscle curve on their backs.. i love the guy dancers though. LOVE, cause they are so fucking strong. yeah.

then intermission! was walking down the corridor.. when suddenly.. some girl ran into me and hugged me so tight i couldnt even move. my dad was in a state of shock.. it turned out to be none other than ms lee's daughter- JACKIE! the kawaii lil girl. yeah. shes pretty.. then saw ms lee with kelly. yeah. smile smile:D

and, COINCIDENTALLY.. the cashier for the snacks and wine and all that was.. ISABELLE! ms kok's grade 6-er. but she's like older than me by a handful of years. asked me whether i wanted anything. i was abit dazed la.. so i just walked off=.=

the second half was <3. yeah. it was nice. i love guys dancing.........

it could be more coordinated and stuff. but it was good la. i wna be up there on the esplanade theatre's stage one day. dancing with a world-renowned ballet company. grabbing the limelight of a principal dancer, a prima-ballerina. starring as the main character in a dance. turning in the middle of the stage. whoa man. ONE FINE DAY. yeah. my big dream since i was a little girl.

and today, in my desperation to go out, i somehow found myself following shaun to the bowling alley. bowled with his friends. my thumbnail is now in a severe state, with a broken nail, and my thumb is also kinda swollen. i cant play my guitar! and guess who i spotted.. JIMMY! this stupid tall skinny guy who used to be edmond's friend. i dont like him AT ALL. i was abit surprised to see him there la. he used to try and talk to me and stuff=_=

but whatever. i got angry at shaun all of a sudden when they were leaving the alley. so i just walked off in the other direction alone. stubborn me:)

went shopping at heartland mall- bought myself a VERY nice shirt to console myself. happy happy me. but some shit guys disturbed me at the mall.. got angry.. then went to punggol beach for a while before heading home. being alone at the beach wasnt a good feeling la. but i was just pissed and all.. but it kinda did me good, since im in a good mood now.

shaun's friends are okay i guess. they were nice to me considering how anti social i was being. there were two girls- whose names i didnt really get- and melvin, bryan, arnold and leslie. all older than me i guess. the two girls were also sec two though. and shaun told me his friends thought i was at least sec 4 or sth. wth=_= and the girls were telling this guy like (in chinese) "omg did you know shes sec two? blablablabla"

my gosh. i CANNOT stand people talking like that as if i were non-existant. rawr.

yeah. just ate my lunch.. super lateO_O
okay. i just love my new shirt. its striped, black and white, and its really hard to explain- not those oridnary shirts la. its asymmetrical and it has nice weird sleeves. great material. mphosis would probably sell it wayyy more expensive.. im happy cause i got it at a good price:D just like my darling necklace:DD

that shaun said he was gonna bring his friends home. omggg. if he does, my room is gonna be flooded. big sigh..

im being an asshole.. havent been talking to quite a few people recently. like dao-ing alot of people. ehheh. i dont really know why, but its like i dont want to be social and all. in other words, im not really in THE mood to even talk. except to maybe one person? two people? yeah.
i had a talk with my mum last night. about EVERYTHING. it started with her finding me pale and sickly and skinny and all. and then in the end, i talked until i started crying. wth right? yeah. mainly about my studies la.. and how TKGS was too good a school for me. my school is just too smart for me (using euphemism here, cause it should be "im too dumb for my school")..

so in the end, mum promised me to be a better mum. she said she was really going to work hard to understand her kids and not be so old-fashioned (although i didnt say anything about that..) and 'change for the better'. its not like i asked her to do anything, maybe she just felt that my lack of confidence and determination was due to the family, cause they were being unsupportive or something. maybe i said something which made her feel guilty. ah. but she said it was good to talk to me.. so i guess maybe things will become better?

im afraid to take back that results slip.
i have a strong feeling that i screwed up quite alot.
yeah, like my maths paper? there was this one question that at least 3/4 of the class couldnt do.. and after the paper, the answer just flew into my head=_= ashley was surprised la. and i felt ultra dumb. like the answers only come to me after the paper has ended.. all those smart asses also couldnt do.
conclusion- maybe im smart, but my brain is frigging rebellious-- it listens to me and works properly at the wrong times, totallyO_O

okay. i think its (this post) long enough- sorry!
okay.
BYEBYE.