im dead. totally.
completely.
im going to school TOMORROW, to take my paper. hell, im not even recovered and cleared yet. and my fever is still on and off, and what if tomorrow i start burning up? and i am totally unprepared for this exam. can i say DIE??

im really really unhappy tomorrow. and i have a very bad feeling about it.

why the hell did i let mum agree to that arse ms chan? i am NOT okay, and i cant take the stupid exam and i'll fail it if i take it. i cant believe i ruined my own life. and besides, tomorrow morning, IM SUPPOSED TO BE AT THE DOCTORS. rawr. no use complaining.. its not like mum will see it and miraculously tell the teacher that im not going. sigh. BIG SIGH.

and i dont like my parents, final. yes. they make every single decision, and place such high hopes on me, only to end up scolding me in the end. and if they think its for my own good and will make me happy, PLEASE, think again. -_- its time they let me take ABIT of control over my life, yes? yes. okay.

and ive lost my appetite ALOT lately, not excluding today. i know im supposed to be on my speedy recovery, but when i dont feel like eat, i wont eat. because i'll puke it up or something. and no, im not anorexic or bulhimic or whatever. if i was i would be MUCH MUCH skinnier. yep.

and before i forget, GOOD LUCK ALISHA! im sure you'll do perfect pirouettes and arabesques and your pointe work will be GREAT tomorrow. you must wow the examiner. haha. and you SHALL beat everyone else in the exam, i assure you. ALL THE BEST:D

okay. im going to sleep some more before studying. lazy me.
cyaa.