its just weird how love can sometimes turn into hate.
the more you had loved, trusted, cared for that person, the more you ended up hating and being disappointed in her/him.
its really laughable.
it applies to all relationships, be it with your family, friends, whoever. yeah.

anyway, im staying away from junk food as much as possible.
im not gonna buy anymore chips. and i shant steal chips from pople either.
and im gonna work my pirouettes, and fouette turns, and train my pointe. and work my splits. and im just gonna keep working and improving my technique..
i guess ballet can distract me from the rest of the world. i want to be kept busy by dance.. i wont have the time to think, to worry, to do other stuff.. and besides, im really head-over-heels in love with dance.

my passion just burns stronger than ever. when the rest of the world fails me, my dance keeps me going. it spurs me to be the BEST. its just this crazy driving force that really makes me realise that my 'limits' arent my limits. and im so loving every single moment of it.

i have class later at one, and i have to get to my exam studio by three to practise. im so gonna make ms kok proud. im gonna beat all the other teacher's girls and all. im gonna work really hard to scare everyone into realising how hard they must work for the upcoming exam.

and i still dont feel prepared for that exam. ON THE 14 SEPT. its like so near. and i only have a few classes.. yet im not working as hard as i should be. i dont have the motivation to do ms kok's class.. yet during ms lee's classes and otehr teacher's classes i work really hard.

what on earth is wrong with me.