everyday = bad day.
everyday = cry day.
everyday = EMO day.

IAP brings on more stress. like at this very minute, im sitting, hearing 'CATCH YOUR WAVE' for what seems like the millionth time.. and im still facing a lack of inspiration.. cant seem to find the steps to put to the music to actually make a dance. the steps are THERE, but they dont link, and they just look horrible..

and theres mrs yong's pressure too.. i can feel the tension in the class.. everyone jsut BLEW UP just now. and it was really scary.. i didnt blow up but i started crying.. >.<.. crybaby.. and its not only today, but yesterday during dance too.. emotional me.. its really alot of problems stacked up la.

BUT, noelle doesnt cry unless there are other more imp reasons, (or shes REALLY stressed and about to commit suicide) which there are.. for example: BALLET- and my exam is coming up in less than a month, and im real afraid i wont score well.. and theres also some personal relationship problems. yeah. friendships.. and the sort.

i guess i should have realised after all. blame my own stupidity, but i was naive enough to actually believe you. perhaps this goes out to more than one person, but i really feel betrayed. and im not just some sponge that absorbs all the crap.

and theres also the sec four farewell party coming up.. and im involved in yet another skit. should i be honoured? yeah i actually should. alright. -_- and theres also the IAP skit. performance after performance.. after performance..

i seriously have to work on the dance. the music is too fast if you count it, and too slow if you halve the counts. and as what denden said, it seems liek a dancy song btu it isnt. so shoot me. please, please strike me with some inpiration, and i'll do anything. sigh. and everyone thinks its such an easy task to chereograph and dance.

im angry at my own stupidity and guillible-ness. and im PMS-ing. and i havent got the dance done at all. and i think im just gonna sleep on it. i'll beg ms lau for another day, and i'll wait for the blodddddddy inspiration and steps to come. today is just = very bad day..

so to all you ill-treaters to noelle (especially you) : fuck you.