noelle has just got herself into a messy state of mind just a few seconds ago.

just before i left for tuition, someone said something that affected me alot.. and that automatically set me back on track, instead of messing around just for fun. it really shocked me when that sentence popped up in front of me. ive disappointed myself once more.

the sentence was about (im nto giving the exact sentence) me not being stationary..

and my parents.. i know my mum in particular is stressed out over money issues.. and she was like asking us to drop chinese tuition to take up maths, if we could survive without the chinese tuition.. she said if we couldnt, we would have to drop something else (as in, some other course), which i fear may be my ballet or something (just a very paranoid thought).

and i know that she wouldnt drop any of ines' courses.. but i know in the end, its gonna be her who does the decision making, and asking us is just for show, which means our replies (me and shaun's) doesnt even matter.

but its not the main thing thats in my head now, so nvm. anyway, she never ever takes our comments seriously in consideration. she just asks for show.

i bet all this is confusing. i bet.
better stop confusing you and think deeply and plan my next move.
laterr.