CHEERLEADERS:
TMR BE AT VOID DECK AT SEVEN AM!


okay. ive done my part.
ahh. just came home from dance.
was terrible. as usual.
i think im getting used to the ill treatment.


hahas. yep.
today was not that bad.. major slacking for me..
cept for the miming parts..
i think ms chiam's getting more pissed at me.
what can i do? ive tried my best.


today went to sch with puffy eyes..
denise and g.nat thought i was sick..
reason is- i had a major arguement with my mum in the car on the way to school. something about my responsibility and getting a phone..


anyways.


last night- without hearing the full story..
she thought i had the CHEEK [as she said it] asked my GREAT tuition tcher [seriouly- he rocks.] for ANOTHER phone after losing the one he gave me..
which was not the case, since he had offered it as he heard the phone was lost and spoilt..


i did try to explain.. but shes an extremely strong-headed person.
who most probaly wont listen to me and make extra sarcastic remarks for no reason and spoil everyone's mood.
which she does quite frequently now.. and it pisses my dad off.
it should be due to the pressure we're giving her.
but STILL..
SO... i just shut up and let her think what she wanted to.
i lost alot of respect for her.
like ALOT.


i live a NINE [am] to FIVE [pm] life- just like her..
after facing crap at dance.. i come home to see an unreasonable mum [and noisy siblings].. doesnt help much by the way.
and she seriously degraded me.. i cannot stand anyone who does that. SERIOUSLY. esp since shes my MUM.
and i defended myself. like what we were born to do.

but it somehow seemed to her that it was entirely my fault. im not even sure what shes pissed about though.


in the end.. i told her i would rahter starve and scrimp for my phone bill than ask her for anything..


i AM a very proud person after all.


she knows i cant stand stong-headed views and all..
and she was like that.

she insisted that i was totally irresponsible and all.. really sucked la. i just totally shut up. as i usually do.
and she got out of the car.. could tell she was looking at me.
i purposely looked straight ahead and put on the 'dont give a shit about you' face..


and broke down like hell after that.
didnt want her to think that i would just give in to her and let myself be twisted around her finger.
my dad was driving the car and looking extremely awkward..

see how proud i am. lol.


ah well. my whole day was spoiled after that.
just put on a happy face-
regardless of my red eyes..


i dont think my family actually knows even a quarter of what im going through..
but i didnt want them to think too much.. so i put on another happy but tired face when i came home.
so all they ever think i get is cramps and aches.

and THEN theres DANCE.
which means the PRESSURE from everyone.


all this simply explains the stress signs on my face.
which im seriously bothered about.
but i cant do much about it..


oh. about up there..
i dont really blame my mum..
but she can be overboard sometimes.
this morning was an example.
oh well. shit happens.


i most probaly wouldnt tell someone this straight in the face.
of course there are exceptions..
and i dont like to break down in front of people.
but sometimes i cant help it..
thats when the situation becomes really awkward.
can u imagine? LOL.
anyways.
dont feel like blogging anything else..
^_^
CIAO...