"you're beautiful" by james blunt makes me cry.
i know everyone got over the song already, but recently i just can't help listening to it.
especially in moments like these.

anyway,
school's such a whirl.
it's like a wave breaker. whoooosh.

it's hard for me to go into class knowing that people are talking behind my back.
it's even harder to ignore and to be ignored by someone.
i really don't know what's going on.
and that makes everything worse.
someone please explain. and follow that up with an "everything's okay".

sometimes i really wish i could just stay at home and save myself the agony. i wanna get sick.

my ballet exam is next week, and i completely don't feel the jitters.
something's up with me. i don't even want to care anymore aye?
and dance pracs are madness. i don't have the good time to pick up my textbooks and study.
my time management is bleaugh. i'm seriously compromising on my sleep.

ms chiam makes it a little worse by pushing the Swan Lake performance back. it means our holidays are taken up. and no time to revise. or even complete homework.
look at my thick stack of CHEMISTRY. wow.

i think we can do teachers' day. i'm desperate to convince myself, and then convince and motivate everyone.
i don't think i'm even a good senior.
this whole performance is making me horribly
demoralised.

and thanks Nat for being so great. i'm sorry if my mood ever affected your cheery, bubbly little spirit.
i'll get over it. i'm trying really hard.
thank you for understanding(:

my pimples have decided not to hide under my skin anymore due to stress.

my eyebags and puffy eyes are tell-tale signs of everything.

i am not looking forward to the holidays.
except maybe the swimming thing(:

all i wanna do is to apologise, and all i want you to do is to talk to me again. is it that hard?

goodnight honeybunnies.