oh damn,
i don't wanna go back to school yet.
as usual?

today was really tiringO_O
i convinced myself to go swimming early in the morning,
partly cause my mum said i should try to even off my shirt tan,
and partly cause my mum also carelessly mentioned that my thighs look bigger.
the tan thing didn't work out, i still have my shirt tan, plus my shorts and socks tan, along with a new swimsuit tan which is really weird..
and the muscle toning thing.. well, i don't know.

but i don't wanna start off the term worrying that i put on 3kg during the holidays:)
it's inauspicious!
*i dont really know where i got that rubbish from.. the word just popped out:P*
and just to make sure i'll step on the scale later.

i remember the survival game during camp.
and how 6 people had to lift me over. it's always so inspirational when i wanna lose weight,
remembering their faces. :D
and sweat.

i think tomorrow is gonna be pretty bad.
like you know, mdm goh talking about her holiday, or maybe finishing an entire chapter in one period, or giving us a lecture. that's pretty unbearable you know.

i shall force myself to pack early TONIGHT.
yes. so that i don't miss anything. i am really gonna work hard this term.
i can already see my term 3 results man..
haha. as if:P and erm, if you see me sulking or slacking, please don't hesitate to find out why and then smack me.

i gave up my great plan of going running to the faraway park and doing like 3km.
ballet killed meO_O

and i think i'll have to buy another set of uniforms.. my pinafores mysteriously become unwearable after a few weeks
*discolouration, holes, ripped pockets, ...*
at least i've got new socks! now, how lucky am i:D it's always auspicious to wear new socks.
i love the feeling and SMELL of new, clean socks.

i'm being happy cause i'm trying to ignore certain thoughts running through my head.
and i admit, it's pretty hard,
especially when your, scratch that, MY energy level is like, here.
*here* 1 --------- 10

*erm, if you didn't get that, it's actually way below 1. i'm pretty sure you'd understand:)

certain thoughts being how i spent my week ETC,
how the phone calls are becoming,
and how i've only sent 7 smses this week, excluding 3 to my parents.
that's pretty pathetic aye?
not that i need to mass message everyone on my contacts to feel better though.

i just have to learn to handle things differently you know?
i'm trying, DOING actually, it's just a little emotionally+mentally wearing.
BUT, i can't keep this up 24/7. i'm trying to figure out WHY.

i see that i have digressed profusely.
eh, let's just continue (digressing).
i made my mum watch this korean movie, and she was swooning over the male lead, and for once, laughing profusely. said she wanted to multitask while peeling onions.
mum's never the type to sit still and waste her life you know.
and her recent inspirational talks and workshops have made it even more so.

ah, she gets bored too easily:)

while i prefer not to disclose my entire life to a mindless blog entry,
i'll end it before things get really awkward.

NOELLE, FIGHTING!
*Koreans have such a knack for fun, don't you think so?


and now i know why my family doesn't like to cry,
it's a form of weakness.